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Papua New Guinea152 Posts
OK so so start off...Academics. I'm a high school junior and will be a senior this fall. I failed AP English this year thanks to my stubborn teacher (who should retire BTW). I took the SAT and prepared my ass off for it, even though I only got a 1970 (I was distracted the whole time by a hot girl in the front row). In my freshman year I had hopes of going to an Ivy League, but now all my academic dreams have been crushed. I know I can still do good wherever I go and probably get a decent job at some point, but I'm not exactly optimistic.
Social Life. I'm basically a loner and have only a few select friends. One guy I thought was my friend turned out he was only using me so he could steal my TI84 calculator (he told me was going to "borrow" it for math class). Barely anyone knows me, no girls like me. I'm not exactly the prettiest, the funniest, the smartest, or the most athletic. Even though I can socialize when I'm with a pretty large group of friends that I'm comfortable with, one on one I'm a total sociophobe. I've never had a summer job or anything like that, in part because I'm painfully shy. I'm scared of living in dorms because I'm easily persuaded and will probably end up drinking every night until I flunk out of school. Either that or end up flunking out from playing too much Starcraft 2 (just kidding, because if I told my parents about this awesome new game they would probably kick me out he house cuz they're so pissed at me...on top of that I'm pretty much broke).
My Health. At 5'6'' and almost 200 pounds, I'm a little overweight (more like totally OBESE). My blood reports just came back from the doctor. Turns out I'm a borderline diabetic and my bad cholesterol is abnormally high. My dad says it's partly genetic but at the same time he wants me to get my fat ass off the couch, go play some basketball, ride my bike, and run on the treadmill everyday. Like that's gonna happen.
The Paradox of Life. It has occurred to me that none of my happiness, and also none of my misery, means anything to anyone. People might pretend to take an interest in you, but in the end they're all in it for their own benefit. I know that people, even those I believe to be my sincere friends, will sell me out for their own gains. Usually people tell me that I'm really quiet and that having me around them makes them depressed. I feel like this life is just a freaking circle, no matter how hard I run I always end up where I started eventually. At this point I feel like I'd be better off being some poor starving kid in Somalia or something, at least then there would be a purpose to life. At this point I guess I'm just looking for reasons not to pull the trigger.
 
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Lose weight, look good, get outside, don't bitch about a 1970 cause it makes you sound like an asshole.
Your dads trying to give you advice, maybe you should follow it yes?
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lol, a lot changes during university, high school doesn't exactly allow you to discover more about yourself.
Don't sweat it, you're only 17, you've got your whole life ahead of you
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So if you pull the trigger or go jump off a cliff you suddenly become a better person? Nope.
Now you're an idiot too. You're 17. I'm 17. There's still a lot of life to live, and it would be a waste.
Start working. Don't complain.
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don't do it. think of the millions in poverty who would rather be in your position than starving
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In the U.S., call 1-800-273-8255
National Suicide Prevention Lifeline
depression in high school is not an uncommon thing. High school sucks. Realize that it gets better. However, as none of us are mental health specialists, i would recommend talking to someone who knows what you've been through. call the number, let them change your mind.
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We all do it! I swear I still do sometimes, but you don't actually do it, and then life keeps going and keeps getting better : )
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On August 04 2010 11:53 HaruHaru wrote:
don't do it. think of the millions in poverty who would rather be in your position than starving
Depression is a lot different than this.....
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The main thing you should understand is that high school is shit. Be glad that you're almost done with it.
Most of your unhappiness just stems from your own choices. Stop making those choices and be happy. I understand that you probably feel somewhat trapped in your current identity because that's how high school is, but just hold out till college and you get a clean slate.
Don't kill yourself. I'm sure someone will come in to give a cliché speech about people who love you being sad, etc., but in my eyes, killing yourself is just fucking boring. You get an infinite amount of time to be dead, and only a few decades to live. Why wouldn't you want to squeeze all you can out of that time?
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How is any of what you listed even remotely close to being a good reason to commit suicide? Frankly it just sounds like you're too lazy to improve yourself and your quality of life and are turning to ragequitting. Guess what you don't get to join the next game if you kill yourself.
go play some basketball, ride my bike, and run on the treadmill everyday. Like that's gonna happen.
I feel like this life is just a freaking circle, no matter how hard I run I always end up where I started eventually
False, you haven't really run at all. Please use your head and don't kill yourself over dumb stuff like this. And high school sucks for most people.
I'm coming off strongly here and I obviously don't know the whole story but honestly. Don't.
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If every career paid the same, what would you REALLY want to do?
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Relax dude, you're 17. You won't feel this way forever.
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^ ya, but he's feeling this way now so we gotta tackle that first.
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Dude, it's going to be OK. If you don't like something about your life, just change it even if it means a drastic change that scares you. Quite frankly, anything is better than suicide.
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On August 04 2010 11:43 qzmpwxno wrote:
Like that's gonna happen.
Why won't it happen? As we were walking back from the gym my friend mentioned that he has more respect for the fat guys sweating it up on the treadmill than bodybuilders benching 300 pounds. It's true, you might think you look ridiculous but most people will respect the effort. And you're not going to the gym to pick up girls (please don't do this ever, it is the epitome of douche). You don't really have to think about it, just set a plan and do it. After you start working out, your life will start to fall into place as your self-esteem goes up.
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On August 04 2010 11:43 qzmpwxno wrote:
OK so so start off...Academics. I'm a high school junior and will be a senior this fall. I failed AP English this year thanks to my stubborn teacher (who should retire BTW).
ur teacher is just jealous that he is stuck teaching while u will go onto better things. u can show him up by englishing the fuck out of the rest of ur life, dont commit suicide that is only playing into his hands.
I took the SAT and prepared my ass off for it, even though I only got a 1970 (I was distracted the whole time by a hot girl in the front row). In my freshman year I had hopes of going to an Ivy League, but now all my academic dreams have been crushed. I know I can still do good wherever I go and probably get a decent job at some point, but I'm not exactly optimistic.
wat is done is done man. SAT isnt that big a deal, 1970 is like B+ anyway. u should find that girl and then be like yo babbby wats up girl holla back!? and then bang her. thats he best way to get over bad SAT score.
Social Life. I'm basically a loner and have only a few select friends. One guy I thought was my friend turned out he was only using me so he could steal my TI84 calculator (he told me was going to "borrow" it for math class). Barely anyone knows me, no girls like me. I'm not exactly the prettiest, the funniest, the smartest, or the most athletic. Even though I can socialize when I'm with a pretty large group of friends that I'm comfortable with, one on one I'm a total sociophobe. I've never had a summer job or anything like that, in part because I'm painfully shy.
ok imagine urself banging that hot girl from above. now imagine madddd people watching. and ur talking to them. boom shyness cured ur welcome.
I'm scared of living in dorms because I'm easily persuaded and will probably end up drinking every night until I flunk out of school. Either that or end up flunking out from playing too much Starcraft 2 (just kidding, because if I told my parents about this awesome new game they would probably kick me out he house cuz they're so pissed at me...on top of that I'm pretty much broke).
ur scared ur going to get drunk with ur college friends every night? do u kno what college is? its easy as fuck. every1 does this and still gets As. u will be fine. unless u kill urself that is, then u'll never get to do this.
My Health. At 5'6'' and almost 200 pounds, I'm a little overweight (more like totally OBESE). My blood reports just came back from the doctor. Turns out I'm a borderline diabetic and my bad cholesterol is abnormally high. My dad says it's partly genetic but at the same time he wants me to get my fat ass off the couch, go play some basketball, ride my bike, and run on the treadmill everyday. Like that's gonna happen.
ur dad has no right to criticize bc he saddled u with all these genetic problems. however, he also loves u and cares 4 u and wants u to be better than the lardy fatass that u r. again, imagine that girl from above that u r banging. girls bang fat dudes all the time. look at that ron jeremy or that guy from knocked up. u can still get women. best plan is to find the wife of that stupid AP english teacher and bang her first before u move onto others.
The Paradox of Life. It has occurred to me that none of my happiness, and also none of my misery, means anything to anyone. People might pretend to take an interest in you, but in the end they're all in it for their own benefit. I know that people, even those I believe to be my sincere friends, will sell me out for their own gains. Usually people tell me that I'm really quiet and that having me around them makes them depressed. I feel like this life is just a freaking circle, no matter how hard I run I always end up where I started eventually. At this point I feel like I'd be better off being some poor starving kid in Somalia or something, at least then there would be a purpose to life. At this point I guess I'm just looking for reasons not to pull the trigger.
dont do it man. u have plenty 2 live for, ur so young b4 college. so many old dudes who banged so many women would trade places with u in a heartbeat. also u wont get to play sc3 or do all that cool avatar shit when that technology is invented.
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you need to start eating healthy and exercising. not only will you feel better, you will look better too. and you will be happy that you look good. exercise also aids brain function. you really have no excuse. start lifting weights and running
it sorta snowballs..
also, you should talk to your parents about this(no matter what you think they will say), and strongly think about getting some medication for the short term(6months-1year).
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Do not rage quit life. It's not worth it. I used to dream about killing myself. Things got a lot better. They will for you, too.
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1970's enough to get you into most decent schools, and you always have the chance to retake it and try to improve on your weak sections. It seems like you've got what it takes to do well academically so I don't think you need to sweat it in terms of that.
As for socializing.. I'm not much of an extrovert but one of the concepts that I found really interesting was looking at the ability to socialize with others as a skill that you work on. Sure, some people are naturally good at talking to others and are very comfortable with it, but for others it's something that can be practiced and learned. So don't just label yourself as extremely shy and give up on it. Keep working on it, eventually it becomes easier.
It's up to you to change your health issues, but the benefits do vastly outweight the costs. You'd live better and longer, be more physically able, and better overall self confidence. Think of life as a journey for self improvement. There are always things you can do to make yourself a better person and it gives you direction in life.
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