It's 5:00AM here as I'm writing this. I'm waiting for the MSL to start when I should be sleeping. Why am I not sleeping? Because I have nothing to do the next day. Or the next day. Or the day after that. I'm not going to school. I don't have a job. I just eat, sleep, and watch/play video games. And I can't do it forever. Somewhere along the way, I got lost. Ok, I didn't get lost, I took the path at the fork in the road with the sign that said "DON"T FUCKIN GO THIS WAY".
I've had a less than stellar history for the past few years of my life, but I'm not going to get into that. I just know its time to fix things. But that's the part which confuses me. I have no idea what to do, or rather, I have no idea what I should do. No wait, I know what I SHOULD do. I should get a job, go to school, blah blah blah. My best friend told me "Sometimes you just have to grind it out, no matter how much you hate it". But the thing is I don't know what I want to do.
I attended college for 2 months, majoring in computer engineering. During high school, I didn't give a second thought about anything when I applied. I just picked something that looked fancy. Rather, my parents told me to pick something fancy. But when I went to college, I realized I wasn't happy with how things were going. After a long talk with my parents with a ton of swearing, I withdrew. The reason I stopped going to college is because I had a change of mindset. Everything before that in my life had been set out all before me, I just followed the path. But as the last part was in front of me, I realized this was what I'm going to do for the rest of my fucking life. I wasn't happy with that. I didn't want to be another dude in a cubicle writing code for a company. So I set off trying to find a good direction for myself.
But after a year, I still haven't found it. I still have no idea wtf I want to do. Maybe I just don't know myself enough. But what I do know is that the life-jacket holding me afloat in the ocean is about to run out of air. Everyday I think about what I should do, but nothing pops out. If someone asked me "What would you like do do in life" I would respond "I have no fucking clue". Everything I see just seems the same, and somethings are just plain impossible for me to accomplish.
I WANT to go back to school. I really do. But I don't know what I want to do in life. Maybe I'm afraid, afraid I won't make the right choice and be stuck with a life I'm not happy about. But it's been a year already, and I still haven't found myself. What should I do?
I know how you feel dude, I'm exactly like you. Except I'm still doing my uni course, just so I'm doing something, it's more of an excuse really. I don't know what I'm going to do when I finish. But I feel for you.
sounds like you've never been in deepshit survival situation; sounds like you've always had someone to pay your expenses and you've never tasted survival. this is a good place to start, i'm sure there will be people to help you. good luck.
Wow, I was in this EXACT situation a year ago. You even withdrew from university for an identical reason. I think I've finally figured out what I'm going to do, now it's just a matter of doing it. As for how I came up with it... I pretty much looked at a list of science degrees and picked out the one that was most interesting. Real talk, sometimes you just have to take a dive. I knew my lifestyle couldn't really continue the way it was.
The degree I ended up picking was biomedical science, by the way. I've never been that interested in biology and never took it or anything, but the human mind is interesting enough to warrant studying. My uncle majored in the same thing, so that's helpful. Good luck deciding.. it took me around two years.
Also, one thing that you should ALWAYS remember is that if you make the wrong choice (like we did with our initial degree choice) your life is not over. I actually opted to leave high school a year early in order to attend university, which did not end up working out in my favour. I'm not getting into medical school anytime soon. But that's okay, because I have time. Even if I end up graduating at age 25, it won't be that big of a deal. Life doesn't end just because you don't have a degree.
On July 16 2009 18:33 LOcDowN wrote: sounds like you've never been in deepshit survival situation; sounds like you've always had someone to pay your expenses and you've never tasted survival. this is a good place to start, i'm sure there will be people to help you. good luck.
I actually was about 8 months ago, and it sucked. That's why I'm trying to get things back on track right now.
On July 16 2009 18:27 FakeSteve[TPR] wrote: msn me graedusx@hotmail.com
I basically chose Engineering not giving a fuck and just took it, got fucking owned, kicked out of school. So I took two community college classes and did well, but I still am unsure what to do. I was thinking business, but now I am giving it a second thought.
I also have no job and just be lazy during the summer and I really wonder what the fuck I am going to do with my life.
I'm just starting upper secondary in August, but I can already see myself being in the same position as you are now in a couple of years. ( or sooner? )
I chose to attend upper secondary, because atleast in Finland it does give you some extra time to think it out what you want to do with your life. I'm thinking either something related to music or medschool after upper secondary, but I really have no fucking clue.
I'm waiting for the day when I can write a thread similar to yours in here. Not in a good way, though.
On July 16 2009 21:10 gaiia wrote: I'm just starting upper secondary in August, but I can already see myself being in the same position as you are now in a couple of years. ( or sooner? )
I chose to attend upper secondary, because atleast in Finland it does give you some extra time to think it out what you want to do with your life. I'm thinking either something related to music or medschool after upper secondary, but I really have no fucking clue.
I'm waiting for the day when I can write a thread similar to yours in here. Not in a good way, though.
You should really jump on something then, trust me, being in this kind of situation sucks. Its feels ok for a little bit but then you realize times running out and you start to panic
On July 16 2009 19:43 St3MoR wrote: I can relate so much to this, good luck boys, it's harder the older you get
Bolding this cause its very true.
Its good your ready to move on, just make sure you keep yourself in check and dont fade back into that life. Like someone else said, you need to be in a survival situation. Move away, get new friends, dont let people help you finacially. Get a god damn job scumbag (toughlove ) and get your own place.
This seems to be a very common problem with out society lately (As you can see by the replies in this thread). Everyone has been in a similar situation or is currently in one. I am also part of that statistic.
We all go through school doing what we must to get by, but then we graduate or whatever and then what? Go to college, right. The problem is once we get there, they ask "What's your major?" and then you think and read over all the majors and their little paragraphs explaining what they are and check off the '299' or 'undecided' box.
No one has any fucking clue how to make such a huge life decision and you can not base this off a single little paragraph. And since there are hundreds and thousands of those paragraphs followed by tens and hundreds of google searches for the ones that interest you, it can be quite overwhelming.
And college isn't cheap either, you can't just waste time and money taking some classes to test things out, especially since certain majors require different general ed classes etc.
I could go on, but basically there needs to be some kind of change where people/kids can be introduced to careers with field trips, or videos shown in senior year of HS, or just have some other graduate college students and early career started people come in and just give a run down of the work they do and how much they get paid etc.
I also think stuff like this is a huge factor in ever rising growing unemployment rates.
As for the OP, you gotta understand that all of the majors are for jobs, they are work no matter what you pick. You probably won't enjoy any of the choices much differently. Just pick one and commit to your choice. This may sound very sheep/robot/slave to society like but just remember this: Thessalonians 3:10 - "Thou who shall not work, shall not eat." I had to learn this one the hard way.
PS- everyone likes traveling right? Just pick one that pretty much assures that you will travel, that alone will make a career worth while imo. Steve, Mani, Tasteless, etc. Agree?
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