Years moved by, I was getting a hold on my career, while becoming more and more aware of my habits. I'm by no means against drugs, I never have been. Some drugs have significantly improved my view on myself and life - especially LSD - others have shown me that I don't need them to be happy. And then Covid happened. Lockdown, home schooling, you know the story. A dangerous time for someone like me. In April 2020 I still drank from time to time, but I started noticing how disinterested I had become into being drunk. It was just not the mental state I wanted to be in.
Summer came and went, asides from a few beers here and there, I was living a sober life. I stopped buying alcoholic beverages around November 2020. I slowly realized how much alcohol had influenced my adulthood. Drinking is accepted - almost necessary - where I grew up. My home town is in a region in rural Bavaria, there used to be a steel factory, but these times are long gone. Luckily, I met like-minded people back then, who also weren't really fitting in. But there was one thing that united us with the townsfolk: We also were drinking heaviiy. Beer and booze at the youth club, in the pub, at private parties, basically everywhere. Rituals were formed. I don't regret a thing, I wouldn't be me if I had chosen differently back then. But the alcohol somehow always was there. We had fun, we had terrible nights, you know how it goes.
So here we are. Covid slowly is on its way out, even though we will have to learn to live with it being around. Somehow this feels oddly similar to my relationship to alcohol. It slowly disappeared from my life until it stopped being a thing at all. I know myself well enough to say that there might come a day when I start drinking again. But right now, there's no need to be drunk.