This situation I am about to describe hurts me the most. I ask the opponent who has pretty single handedly defeated me what their iccup rank is and they turn out to be totally oblivious of what iccup is, and it just so happens they have only been playing broodwar for a week or two. The weight of that crashes down on me. This player I think to myself should be fighting the interface struggling with the pathing, limited unit and building select. Their success may because they have experience with SC2, but I had success there too reaching masters. Why am I not improving as quickly as this opponent I think to myself. And negative thoughts flood my mind, such as do I have some form of retardation hindering me from improving. Or is it that my opponent's race is easy.
Overall I want to be able to trade games vs people, but I feel everyone I play is beyond me or a simple walk in the park. I want to know how to enjoy the game even in the face of a devastating loss. Lastly to see or feel improvement instead of feeling like my effort is futile.
Thank you for your time, I hope it wasn't cringe worthy, just felt like I needed to explain myself, and hopefully connect with fellow players that have been in this situation.
Also if there are any actual D rank players that would like to be a practice partner of mine please PM me. I am not looking for someone to play a game or two with, but a legitimate practice partner that is willing to play many games, watch our replays together and is serious about improvement.