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For those that don't know, I've been a TL vet under various names since like 2003? Used to post rather infamously/controversially every day all day while at work in like 2008ish, had tons of posts and most bans or something? Not that that's something to be proud of, but I think I was pretty well known around the BW and SC2 community, for that at least. I also played a ton of BW and SC2, was pretty high ranked playing on teams and competing near or on the level of the top foreigners. Also wrote pretty extensive guides and builds and likiwiki for Bloodbath as that was my favorite map (started to get into it in SC2 but the way custom games and the battle net was setup it made it pretty lame).
Anyway, I've had my fair share of struggles in life and shared plenty of them here on TL in blogs or with community people. And thanks to the people who helped me out. Over the last year+ I've got a pretty satisfactory paying job and work hours, got a new car, moved into a room with a roommate, had relationships, got the coolest cat, built a high-mid range pc in the summer, and I recently bought one of those fancy online beds. Ive got a pretty good amount of money banked away and honestly have no idea what to do with it. I barely spend money on anything but food and beer and gas, and most of the money I spend actually goes to car related stuff and rent related stuff. I was heavy into lifting weights for a couple of years, but lately have been slacking (I should go lift after I write this actually).
I dont really play BW or SC2 at all anymore, seems like too much of a struggle to be good at the game with things I have to do IRL and staying competitive, and pretty sure my dexterity and responsiveness and passion for the game has dwindled away now that I'm 32. Its a huge time commitment for something that isnt that fun.
I was playing heroes of the storm a lot for a while, but its not as fun anymore. Same for hearthstone. I basically just log into the games and finish the dailies or play with a friend when they are on (stupid sunk time cost fallacy). Since I love SF3 Third strike, and played quite a bit of SF4, I recently go SF5, but SF5 seems like a pretty shit game tbh. Maybe one of the worst SF games by comparison to all the others.
Most days I listen to podcasts and watch netflix or torrents (mainly docus) from a private tracker, and read a ton of reddit. People always used to talk shit on reddit, I think they mainly meant the SC2 subreddit, because there are tons of communities for all kinds of topics there and there's infinity content. Although, there are tons of SJWs, and naive circlejerk agendas on reddit. I used to watch a ton of stuff on YT, which also got shit talked on but there is tons of great content on there nowadays too.
I haven't really been painting or drawing at all anymore, save for the occasional creative moment. Seems like I mostly just work and computer most days, dont see friends all that often, even on the weekends because everyone has conflicting schedules and I work 6 days a week.
My life sounds pretty boring, but I'm content right now at least. I've been thinking about quitting being on the computer at home so much now that I actually have money to go out and do stuff, and enough time to do so in the mornings and afternoons. The one thing that holds me back is that my car is a lease and I'm concerned about mileage. Which is why I stopped driving for Uber also as a side job. Uber wasn't that great money, but it was fun to talk with and meet people, networking and stuff too.
I've been staying up til the morning lately, as my sleep schedule or insomnia or whatever it is wont let me sleep. So I want to try and fix that and make better use of the mornings at least to go for walks or ride my bike at the beach and workout when its not freezing outside (lately even in So Cal, its been high 40s and low 50s).
I was dating this girl from work who was 20, since july, after I broke up with the girl I was dating for a year, but she recently broke up with me in possibly the strangest way possible. I just texted her normal shit like 'Hi' or some emojis and she started sending me confusing image macros and a pic with her wearing a ring holding a cup at a gift shop that said "I love Vagina" and wearing a wedding ring, and said something like "dunno why you are so salty, we arent together anymore" and joked about her wife dying her hair, and I just said "whatever". I knew the relationship wasnt going to last, since shes young, but I wasnt expecting that. I havent talked to her in a week or so now, and she has all this stuff at my house still. I honestly thought maybe someone stole her phone or something and was fucking around. Very strange. It doesnt really bother me though, Ive been through enough relationships that it doesnt phase me anymore. And my old ex coincidentally hit me up at like the same time for sex. So, again, whatever.
Sorry if I am rambling, I am a little tired now and have a bit of a headache, I think I will postpone my workout for tomorrow on second thought. I feel like I am forgetting stuff, because the body of this post doesnt really seem to match the title, but really I am doing pretty well overall. I am at a stage in my life where I think It's time to upgrade again somehow, but not really sure how. Maybe see about learning a new trade or go to school for something meaningful like science/psych research or something. Especially since now I have the means to accomplish it more easily, more stability, and ability to subsist while doing so.
I think the main thing is that I need to stop spending so much time at the computer and just do stuff. Pickup some new hobbies and interests. Working with my hands has always been something I wanted to do, like buidling stuff or woodworking. However I dont have many tools. I made a few things in middle and highschool with bansaws and what not.
Anyone got any ideas for a beginner project?
 
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great read dude. happy to hear everything's going well! all super relatable too. i have the same seemingly boring day to day, except you sound motivated so that's good.
as far as shit to do, idk next time you think you could use a dresser/bookshelf build your own.
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Never been into woodwork, but I've always had a strange desire to get a lathe and make some baseball bats. I don't know if lathes are good things for beginner woodworkers to use or if they're worth buying though.
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1001 YEARS KESPAJAIL22272 Posts
take care of rare succulents
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come with me to japan
(you will have to pay though)
lets go
seriously tho, if you've got like 4k banked there's literally nothing you can't do and you will kick yourself for not exploring your options until you find exactly that right thing
like you could actually go live in japan at a language school for 6 months , learn the language there and try a new life for a while. then FO to spain with some teaching experience under your belt and become a sun monkey. (but seriously, take me with you)
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If you call them image macros there might be a generational divide there.
Good woodworking projects are stuff for model trains. Don't need heavy duty tools.
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United States24698 Posts
I also felt like a woodworking project so I started building a picnic table. I'm like 3/4 of the way done, it's kind of therapeutic... but you need a fair amount of space for something like that.
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Baltimore, USA22254 Posts
Chalz!
You actually sound pretty much exactly the same. No writing style changes at least LOL.
Just don't piss on anyone's walls anymore and you'll do fine.
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I was thinking of doing the same thing - cancelling my home internet and just having my mobile internet.If i ever need to use PC internet i can go over to my parents place and use the PC there.It really is a wasteful timesink.
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I don't like to date young 20 year olds for exactly the type of random shit you talked about.
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I figure I would update a little since I reread this just now.
Still working at the same place, almost 3 years now 6days a week. Boss gives me bonuses and shit. I'm basically his #1 guy. I cover his morning shifts lately on mondays.
I keep pretty detailed log of my tips and miles and shit in an excel sheet. Car just broke 30k miles and I had to buy new tires which was 500$
I've been hitting up the Hawaiin Gardens casino every week or so, and I'm probably down a few hundred but I think its just variance because I'm usually losing when I'm the favorite and making a correct play. (like I lost a 90/10 on a straight when the guy made a boat on the river type of shit).
I finally took a week off of work back in july, flew jetblue and played at various casinos for a few days and made about 700$. My friend met me down there and played in some tournaments in the WSOP and made like 2500$ or something. I had some free drink tickets from the rio to use before he drove me to the airport and some lady playing caveman kino made like all but 1 number and won 3 or 4 thousand and bought everyone shots. It basically made me miss my flight because of traffic and then we got confused in the airport loop. Shittiest part is that I ran up to the desk about 10 min before takeoff time and cut everyone in line and explained, then the people at the desk said there is no way I would get on and the flight's probably already closed the doors. So I called my friend to loop back around and we just ended up going to fremont and left in the morning in his car.
I get home the next day and check my email. First email from Jetblue, we delayed your flight 30 min, next one, we delyaed your flight 1.5 hours. So I wrote them an email and they comped me a free flight good for a year. I still need to use it.
Btw, my ex 20yo gf, a few months after she initially broke up with me, I was on a good day off day drinking and having fun downtown eating and shit with my roommate and I just randomly decided to text her silly shit and fuck with her. I guess I teased her just right and she was hungry and wanted me to go get her and take her to this bbq place by her house. I was kinda drunk so I really should not have gone, but it was one of those stars aligned moments so I had to go. We ate and talked for 40 minutes or whatever and then I dropped her off at home after she was saying something anti-slut (typical girl defense thing) about her not coming over or me just taking her back home when we are done. So she gets out, I give her a quick hug and takeoff never look back.
About 30-60 min later, im back in my garage playing emulator and drinking IPAs and she texts me something about missing me and that she wants to come over. Also, that she just wants to do homework or whatever. So she comes over, first thing she does in my room is start stripping off her clothes. And then she lays on her stomache on my bed (btw, I now have a frame for my new bed and she seems excited about it) and pulls out her homework and papers. So naturally, I follow suit then straddle her and break out the lotion and start giving her a back massage and do my best to distract her from her homework. After a minute or so we are doing the deed. I'm pretty lit at this point and I can't nut and will fuck for hours in this state. I wear her out and myself and start to fall asleep. Meanwhile my roommate came home and she says some shit about not wanting to see him or whatever, and I say who cares. Btw, she got like a text or something and her whole demeanor changed and decided to take off instead of spending the night. I tell her to just go and he prob wouldnt even notice her. Next day my roommate tells me she popped into his doorway and scared the shit out of him saying Hi and asking him questions and shit. She is so weird.
Btw, I forgot to mention, I went to a mexican coworkers barrio taco party or whatever and met some kid who was a tattoo artist and noticed I was friends with her while looking at my graffiti instagram and he was telling me how she was trying really hard to date his friend and his friend was not interested at all. Small world.
Next day, i try to call/text her and she went back to ghost mode. She blocks me on fb. I forget about it. Got 1 last bang in, cool.
Fast forward to 4th of july. I'm hanging out with my other previous ex and her friend and bunch of stupid shit happens. End up banging her. I think she gave me a yeast infection on my dick (went away but took a few weeks). The very next day, my 20yo ex adds me on fb. I am hungover as fuck and shes flirting with me on messenger. I tell her we should go get lunch. I get ready and go pick her up to get sushi. My jaw is dropped. She wasn't fat, but she had lost a bunch of weight and super cute in her little dress. I guess she said she was not eating much because she was broke and was running or walking or something. We are like basically back together for a few days. She's staying over, we are hanging out, doing bf/gf things. The only shitty part is that I still have this yeast infection and my dick is red and itchy, so I can't bang her.
side note: I grew a pretty decent beard. She always was telling me she wanted me to grow one. First thing she says. She doesn't like it. hahaha
This ties back into my vegas trip, which is a week after 4th of july and when we started dating again. We are making out and im trying to get all my shit in order before my trip and she really wants me to fuck her. I play it off like I got a ton of shit to do and that I really wish she could go with me and now that I kinda don't want to go. Damn she was so sexy too. Fuck. She takes me to the airport and says shell pick me up in a few days. I go vegas, all that shit happens.
My friend drops me off near her work and she takes me home. I'm not fully healed up yet and I still can't bang. We go downtown to get some smoothies and filet mignon tacos, and she starts giving me this look and acting strange. Then she's being a real bitch and not sharing the smoothie, which is like 40oz and I paid for. We go to the store I loan her some money and we get some wine. We get back to my place in the evening and she grabs the bottle and goes home. Weird shit again. Ghosts me again the next day. I call her on it. She texts sparingly the next few days. I give up.
A few days later, she calls me. Says she is hungry. I make a few suggestions, in typical girl style she is hungry for anything but shooting it all down. Finally she suggests gourmet burger place. We meet up and she seems into it and we are having a good time. I eat some spicy ass burger and she makes a comment about not kissing me now. After the meal, we are about to leave in the parking lot and before I can ask her if she wants to come over (i live like across the street), she says she is going home. Confused, I say ok and we hug and I go in for the kiss and she blocks me (laughing) with her hand and I kiss her face or whatever. Never hear from her again. Also, she bought stuff she needed with the money that I loaned her (like shampoo and shit) and its still here at my house.
I try to forget about it, but the guys at work always bring her up (II guess they found out we were dating somehow, and they literally bring her up like every day. Mocking shit she would say, asking me where she is, shit like that). She quit working there a few months before she first broke up with me, so almost 1.5 years ago now. She didn't block me on IG or FB this time and lately I noticed she is now dating some guy and posting pics and shit all the time. Meh. RIP
Besides all that. I've been off and on with my other previous ex, well just running into each other and hooking up from time to time. Hooked up with some random acquaintance who I don't like really but has really big tits. I try to ignore her but shes always sending me naked snap chats and texting me all the time. I get drunk and text her sometimes when its late. I wish I wouldn't.
I went on a couple of dates with randoms from OKC, but girls these days on there are weird or something. Never click.
I've been collecting bottle caps the last year+ and im making pixel art. It takes A LOT of caps. I'm like 1/3 with this donkey kong. local dive bar I go to for free pool on mondays has been saving me caps as well as this habachi place next to my work. Boss gave me a 750ml bottle of patron and 300$ for xmas. Got that mean cold thats been going around xmas eve and im barely getting over it now.
I don't know if I mentioned before but last nov or whatever I developed asthma or something and got an inhaler. Pretty sure its dust allergy. Same kinda attacks like I would randomly get that I used to blog about back in the day, but this lasted a few weeks. I use the inhaler rarely but it helps a lot.
Back in Oct, I drove up to LA for a podcast live show for The Dick Show. Its was a shit show and I got hammered as fuck. I was dressed up like donald trump and some chicks were mad. hahaha . I was trying to get this super hot little egyptian girl that I met at an art show a few years ago and became fb/instagram friends with to go but she was busy or something. Before I moved here and was semi homeless, she actually invited me to stay with her however I couldn't because its way too far from work.
Other than that SSDD, been extra busy at work since around thanksgiving. Yesterday was best tips all time. And today was like busiest day of all time.
I've been slacking on working out lately, was benching 215 5x5 in the summer and now I can't even do 200 5x5 without failing last few reps. I think I got seasonal depression in the winter or something, always seems to fuck me up to where working out doesn't help my mood and I have no drive to want to workout. I gotta get back in the game again.
As far as gaming, I basically just do daily login shit for SF5, HS, and HotS. All those games suck now, i dunno why I do it. I been playing clash royale on phone a while now too.
I been checking out Sirlin games and there are a couple of cool ones like pandante, yomi, and fantasy strikers. However, I don't have anyone to play with and I wanted to try em out on the online free versions before I bought the IRL versions. Anyone down to play? https://pandante.neocities.org/
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