EPTI just wanted to share how I felt not that long ago...
It all started with 3 questions I asked myself (mostly when I couldn't sleep):
-When did the world become so complicated? -
-What happened to simple?-
-Was there even a "simple" or did I unconsciously refuse to see the complications of life?-
Things sure used to be easy when I was in my 20s. "Now that I'm in my 30s sometimes even getting up in the morning seems ...difficult."
"I don't get it... I have everything I ever wanted. A girlfriend who(m) I love more than
anything in the world (and I'm lucky enough, that she loves me back) and a job, that I love.
That's all one could ever hope for and all I need in my life. "
But something changed in me, the way I used to see the world...changed.
I stopped watching TV in 2011, because of all the fake shit they broadcasted( and still bc).
It just made me sick! I was disgusted by it, all the (fake)reality crap, the commercials calling
out to us "how to improve our lives" with empty slogans advertising a life style, which
just felt empty to me.
The news were the worst! "Aren't they supposed to be our window to the world?!
Isn't it their job to keep us informed?" I don't know, everytime I watched the news, any
news show really, felt like I'm being lied to. This sudden feeling of dishonesty ironically
was "the real news" for me.
All this shallow banter between the old guy in his late 50s or mid 60s and his way to young
female co-anchors (and the ditzy weather girl) was slowly eatin away at me.
I could hear my brain cells, one after another commiting suicide.
So I told my gf I wanted to get rid of the TV ...and to my surprise.. she agreed.
Here I thought she loved that reality crap, but no, she "only needs netflix and we have 3
computers" was her swift reply.
-Thankfully the shows we love are mostly available on netflix or on other streaming services.-
And I thougt to myself: "I did it! I'm finally free of the shallow negativity in my life!"
But I wasn't, it still felt like something was dragging me down! I felt not in charge of my own life ...something else had to change, even though I did not know what.
So I slowly got rid of things, that made me feel anxious and uncomfortable.
Things, which made me feel less like a person and more like a thing. I don't know, it's hard
to describe, I just did what my gut told me was the right thing to do at that point.
So I deleted my facebook account, I cut all social media out of my life for good and
to my surprise, we started to hang out with friends more! Irony struck again! With all the
social media gone, we started to socialize!
And..slowly but surely I did not feel broken or empty anymore ...by cutting out all the negative input, I got from all these different sources...
....For the first time in many years I felt ...free ...and I realized:
"This is simple!"
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