EPTWell this came back to bite me in the ass later, especially during high school. I had some pretty bad episodes of clinical depression in high school, and combine that with girl drama...I didn't do too hot. But as I left, I got into what I consider the most significant relationship of my life right before. This was June 2012.
It was going great for the first few months...but April 2013 things started to get a little rocky. We broke up in June 2013. We still saw each other a bit up until that December, with me making sure that she definitely didn't want anything to do with me anymore before I stopped trying. [What an idiot].
I hadn't seen/talked to her since July 2014. Yet I still miss her. A lot. I guess when you devote almost everything you do to one person, life sucks when they leave. I may write a blog about this later.
Having Jamie around has certainly helped a lot, and she's helped fill the void that was left by said girl, but it's not the same you know what I mean? I mean I love Jamie, and she means to me - but she isn't...her. (Do not worry, I will complete the Jamie blogs this summer when I have time to organize my thoughts...be in for a fun surprise XD)
What I've been realizing lately though, is that I needed to find out who I was without a woman in my life. In all honesty, I picked up piano again in September 2012 to impress ______. [Yeah, it's so bad I can't say her name still] But now I've kind of made it a part of me. It's part of who I am. Singing too. I really love doing it, not because I want to impress ______, but because it's genuinely something that I enjoy and something that I would do for a career if I could make a career out of it. I love music.
I started training at the Gracie Academy Headquarters in Torrance, California in July 2014 as well, and even though I've hit that blue belt plateau, I'm slowly clawing my way through it. It's so much fun.
I started parkour/freerunning/tricking in January 2015, and I train at the Tempest Freerunning Academy on Monday nights, and I train around LA in whatever spare time I find. I love the people I'm meeting and the experience of overcoming a big mental block.
I started playing Melee with my group of friends back home, since they all play Melee [though Scotty plays Street], and I'm usually on Scotty's computer playing Starcraft before they all get here. I was having a lot of trouble spacing with Marth and using his sword properly [and some of the crazier tech skill], but my friend jokingly asked me to switch to Ice Climbers and I did...
...and now I LOVE ICYs. I learned how to wobble [LOL] and do all of these crazy desync combos and wave d-smash never fails me.
I also still am working and going to school on top of all of this. I have no idea how I manage to fit all of these things in my schedule, but it's super hectic and every moment of my day I am doing something. I'm slowly starting to figure out who I am without a woman in my life, and, for the first time in years, I'm feeling better and happier than I ever have before. Without a woman. I'm having fun for myself, which I felt like was missing my whole life.
Of course when Jamie comes back for summer, I'm gonna need to free up some time...but I'll have more time thanks to school letting out.
Man, I can't wait for this summer. Who knows what I'll pick up next LOL
