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Chaggi
Korea (South)1936 Posts
has makes me disgusted and he is the very embodiment of a PvP player that i think is wrong with this game, but thats not up to me to change. i just have to adapt better to the game and find other solutions that fit me and increases my win percentage. I don't like Naniwa as a person (and I don't think he gives a crap anyways) but this is why I love him as a player. Great mindset, and sad to see him lose. | ||
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Para199x
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danteafk
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keep sticking on bro! | ||
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Sakkreth
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SPcrusader
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MiamiMetro
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Legio
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KalWarkov
Germany4126 Posts
On February 24 2015 05:53 lantz wrote: All Protoss players have the cheese in them, I mean you even tried the first game as well...... true. has relies on it though^^ | ||
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Dfxiispro
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y0su
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cookmasterr
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Aveng3r
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Darkdwarf
Sweden960 Posts
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SoulmaN__
Germany80 Posts
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ShoCkSC2
Germany340 Posts
On February 24 2015 05:22 Naniwa wrote: basically going to start from the beginning of my wcs journey, truthfully i did not expect to qualify as easily as i did when i came back. i always believed in my own potential as a player but i honestly did not feel ready when i came into wcs, i just randomly thought of playing some sc2 but people kept hyping me up and expecting unreal results straight away because of things ive done in the past .. for example some people such as demuslim ( who i am friends with ) spread false rumors not intentionally i believe about how much i played and mana hyped it up aswell because i played late at night lol, altho i played only the games i streamed and ladder. i rarely played customs . i guess this is all going to sound like excuses which i guess it is, I played bad in my games and everyone has bad games. im mostly writing this because i feel so stressed and pressured about everyone having high hopes and expectations for me . All i want to say with this is that i still like sc2 , not as much as before right now but im still going to hang on to legacy and try that while also trying my best to play this game as much as i can while doing progress as time goes by, not instantly expecting myself to win big tourneys straight away . i will stream in a few days when ive taken a break from sc2 for a bit since honestly playing against a player who plays like has makes me disgusted and he is the very embodiment of a PvP player that i think is wrong with this game, but thats not up to me to change. i just have to adapt better to the game and find other solutions that fit me and increases my win percentage. So basically i want to try starting on a bit smaller scale perhaps, online tournaments as such so i can take it step by step. last but not least i want to thank people who makes threads such as the naniwa reddit cheer up one. i realise now in the later stages when starcraft is smaller that a reason i got a bit demotivated was because the scene got smaller, but seeing people still being so enthusiastic makes me feel very happy and makes me want to keep trying so i guess all i want to say is that i appreciate all my fans regardless if im bad at showing it ! also special shoutouts to harstem and Theo who tried their best to help me prepare for wcs, but unfortunately my poor mindset got the best of me.  regardless big thanks to both! this might sound like another 'kiss-ass' post but this is actually the real reason im such a big fan of you: I can totally relate to what youre saying, I always expect myself to be able to come back to my peak-performances as well at all times, I just believe when I focus much more intensely than anyone else, it should be possible to go back to that moment of my peak. Sort of as 'the power is all in my head, and im trying 200 times harder than anyone else so I should be able to do it'. Often times its true, crazy amount of willpower can get you really far but there is limits to that. And I am too really bad at seeing them, I just expect so much of myself that I go totally crazy when I cant meet what I expect of myself. For me, its never been about winning or losing, its always been about performing on my best. (this is not just starcraft 2, this is something I carried my whole life with me, with everything Im doing) I know there is supposed to be 'off days' or downswings but I was always so bad at dealing with them. I always expected to be different in a sense that I could overcome those by just trying harder than anyone else. The problem is that I put so much pressure on myself that once small things go wrong, its like an emotional downward-spiral. Once I dont meet those expectations, things start to snowball and I do more mistakes, to the point where I get totally emotional. Its like I can hold myself together for one- maybe two of those disappointments, but then I break apart. I cant even express how hard I tried to be under control of my emotions, Ive never felt that anybody was like that. I felt failing was much harder for me than for anybody else I ever knew. One moment I can be so happy but due to my extreme expectations its only a matter of time till I heavily disappoint myself again. And then I just feel like utter shit. Its the worst feeling one can imagine and no matter how hard I tried for years now, I still struggle with controling my emotions at that point. Even if I get 2nd place at something, I'm not satisfied if there is a way that I can even just remotely be better. I expect myself to go way further than other people because I put in my all and everything. Sometimes its almost like im going crazy over not being my own best. If I consider myself the best at something and I cant meet that expectation, I hate myself for it, I get incredibly angry and try harder and harder. I normally peak at that point but If I still cant meet my expectations, this is where I explode. If im not at my best, im not having fun at all. With nothing. I enjoy being at my best, thats it. Thats why I keep pushing myself in starcraft because I just cant seem to reach the level that I want to reach and I get absolutely crazy over that. I keep trying harder and harder because I hate failure so incredibly much that I never want to surrender to it. And when I fail, it feels like im not failing at a thing but failing in myself, in who i believed was able to do these things. Thats what hurts so much, being exposed to that feeling. Its not a 'loss' in a way like losing a game, its rather a loss in what you thought you would be. TLDR; I always saw the same kind of things in you which is really inspiring for me to see that Im not the only one. Im probably the worst person to tell you this but try not to be too hard on yourself, ShoCk | ||
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NidhoGGur
United States10 Posts
I was there for your win at MLG Dallas as a no name player back in 2011, and have been a fan ever since. Keep it up! I'm not really active in the community, and I'm sure there are many (non-dramatic) viewers such as myself who make sure and catch your games Too bad you got knocked out, but Serral is literally playing as well as Life, and it's hard for anyone to make it out of a group with realistically only 1 spot up for grabs. | ||
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jphansen
United States7 Posts
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hoby2000
United States918 Posts
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looknohands119
United States815 Posts
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LimeNade
United States2125 Posts
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