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Life's Forbidden Fruits - The Google Exec Murder

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sephiria
Profile Blog Joined September 2012
106 Posts
July 17 2014 21:54 GMT
#1
I wondered when I heard about the google exec and the 26 year old that apparently works in that shady business, involved with made men, easy money and hard drugs.
I often ask myself if there's some kind of adventure out there, a way to maybe overcome the net of duties the average person in their early twenties have. We live in a relatively "safe" time, assuming youre in a western country, Most of us probably have some kind of "life plan". Not much space for things that are "new", maybe even "dark" and "unknown" territory.
I could have been that girl, living the fast life (?), or maybe the man, finding new adventures, something that feels more relevant. Even if it probably is a negative experience, it IS an experience that I currently lack, at least partly.
I know I romanticize it. The Unknown. The Uncertain. Even the Misery. (the Unneccesary?)
Most people I know (including me) live in that glass building that shields us. You might get a look, but you will never be able to be part of it (at least if youre lucky). We re protected by a shield, consisting of friends, family and partner, bound by the knowledge that we might lose a lot (or everything) if we descend to that world. So we are confined to a standardized life (?) where neither the ups nor the downs feel relevant on the level that the other, darker worlds promise.
I am currently closer to happiness than I ever was. I have a partner I love, I will probably get a university degree at some point this year, we have two young kitties living with us that are hilariously cute and yet, I get melancholic when I read those kind of news. I feel I... dont know, I miss out on something.
Is there more to life than the obligatory get educated, get a job, get a partner, live the life of a sheep until you die at some point? That doesn't sound promising to me. Is happiness measurable? Of course, you can't have it all. At least not all at once. But, I still feel that somewhere out there, hidden in the shadows, is the experience I need to make me say "I live life exactly the way I want it to". And by that I dont mean riches or glory, just the personal experience you only share with a few chosen friends if at all. It seems like we still can not forget about that delicious forbidden fruit.

How do I get rid of that kind of melancholy?
What do you do to get that forbidden fruit feeling out of your system?




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BlaineLogan
Profile Blog Joined July 2014
Canada29 Posts
July 17 2014 23:27 GMT
#2
..and you've just had some kind of mushroom
and your mind is moving low
go ask alice
I think she'll know
joy and woe are woven fine! a clothing for the soul divine
vult
Profile Blog Joined February 2012
United States9400 Posts
Last Edited: 2014-07-18 00:01:56
July 18 2014 00:01 GMT
#3
Of course happiness isnt measurable, since everyone finds happiness differently and in different ways.

If you don't want to live a normal life (job, money, house, family, etc.), you could work for a non-profit and work in an underdeveloped and underprivileged country by joining the Peace Corps or something. Being productive and staying active will keep your mind from becoming melancholy, and maybe helping others who might not have the same opportunities as you will help you find happiness.

But dont sit around dropping acid and eating mushrooms. You will only spiral deeper. (Take it from experience.)
I used to play random, but for you I play very specifically.
AnachronisticAnarchy
Profile Blog Joined July 2011
United States2957 Posts
Last Edited: 2014-07-18 01:12:51
July 18 2014 01:03 GMT
#4
Generally speaking you just go and do something with your life. Get GM in SC2, get fit, get good at Quake Live, pick up MMA, pick up chess, just do something that makes you feel like you're doing something.

As people, we always need to feel like we've striving toward something, accomplishing something. Even if someone managed to find a "perfect" life for themselves, they'd blow out their own brains due to boredom and feelings of inadequacy. Having done everything, they'd have nothing left to do.
"How are you?" "I am fine, because it is not normal to scream in pain."
hp.Shell
Profile Blog Joined April 2010
United States2527 Posts
July 18 2014 02:51 GMT
#5
You have to take up the chisel and slowly chip the rock until you have the kind of life you want.
Please PM me with any songs you like that you think I haven't heard before!
Vivax
Profile Blog Joined April 2011
22407 Posts
July 18 2014 03:10 GMT
#6
Yep, we're extraordinary efficient meat machines that somehow started existing in the middle of fucking nowhere, on a larger scale. Somehow our genes want us to reproduce, but even the brain as product of those genes doesn't know why, I'm thinking a lot about this stuff lately and what it means for what I want.

Then you also realize that what you want isn't even important. The show will go on until it stops going on which is bound to happen someday and the moral of the story is: Life doesn't have any purpose, any sense, it simply is. Unless you're religious and think otherwise. I don't. Religion is a manmade tool to make the hard reality more bearable, or to maipulate people.

Just live your life the way it's most comfortable to you and don't be afraid to miss out on something cause once you're dead it will be irrelevant, since you will have entered the gate to an oblivious infinity with no consciousness to have regrets.
The most comfortable way to live your life is situational and up to your disposition and what has been made of it. If you are unsatisfied with being a sheep then try something else and see if it sticks.
itsjustatank
Profile Blog Joined November 2010
Hong Kong9179 Posts
July 18 2014 04:10 GMT
#7
On July 18 2014 08:27 BlaineLogan wrote:
..and you've just had some kind of mushroom
and your mind is moving low
go ask alice
I think she'll know


going to go listen to this now
thanks
Photographer"nosotros estamos backamos" - setsuko
omisa
Profile Joined January 2011
United States494 Posts
July 18 2014 04:40 GMT
#8
On July 18 2014 12:10 Vivax wrote:
Yep, we're extraordinary efficient meat machines that somehow started existing in the middle of fucking nowhere, on a larger scale. Somehow our genes want us to reproduce, but even the brain as product of those genes doesn't know why, I'm thinking a lot about this stuff lately and what it means for what I want.

Then you also realize that what you want isn't even important. The show will go on until it stops going on which is bound to happen someday and the moral of the story is: Life doesn't have any purpose, any sense, it simply is. Unless you're religious and think otherwise. I don't. Religion is a manmade tool to make the hard reality more bearable, or to maipulate people.

Just live your life the way it's most comfortable to you and don't be afraid to miss out on something cause once you're dead it will be irrelevant, since you will have entered the gate to an oblivious infinity with no consciousness to have regrets.
The most comfortable way to live your life is situational and up to your disposition and what has been made of it. If you are unsatisfied with being a sheep then try something else and see if it sticks.


That pretty much sums it up. I'd say its why life is so awesome. Cause it doesn't matter at all so GLHF.
\m/
kushm4sta
Profile Blog Joined July 2011
United States8878 Posts
July 18 2014 06:16 GMT
#9
He bought a sweet yacht and he wanted to use it for something cool.
She had a mental illness that made her want to kill people.
But yeah I think the world of high class hookers is pretty interesting. Like why would a rich person want one? Can't they get sex without resorting to some illegal thing that could ruin their life?
OMGUS.net, kush sex blogs every friday night
32
Profile Joined February 2010
United States163 Posts
July 19 2014 08:28 GMT
#10
On July 18 2014 12:10 Vivax wrote:
Yep, we're extraordinary efficient meat machines that somehow started existing in the middle of fucking nowhere, on a larger scale. Somehow our genes want us to reproduce, but even the brain as product of those genes doesn't know why, I'm thinking a lot about this stuff lately and what it means for what I want.

Then you also realize that what you want isn't even important. The show will go on until it stops going on which is bound to happen someday and the moral of the story is: Life doesn't have any purpose, any sense, it simply is. Unless you're religious and think otherwise. I don't. Religion is a manmade tool to make the hard reality more bearable, or to maipulate people.

Just live your life the way it's most comfortable to you and don't be afraid to miss out on something cause once you're dead it will be irrelevant, since you will have entered the gate to an oblivious infinity with no consciousness to have regrets.
The most comfortable way to live your life is situational and up to your disposition and what has been made of it. If you are unsatisfied with being a sheep then try something else and see if it sticks.

I'm not sure I buy into life not having purpose, but neither would I say that I am religious. Emotions are powerful motivators, but because it is still possible to imagine someone having an unsavory yet blissful existence, we question the constructiveness of such feelings. I think for myself that purpose is implicit, and that what I will do with my life is predictable, but I do not know what that might be. In other words, I think my tendencies are consistent though I may not know all of them, and I think that hints at an implicit purpose to life.
We could also discuss the merits of following tendencies, but the alternative sounds about as good as not existing at all, so I am not inclined toward that line of thinking.
B.I.G.
Profile Blog Joined August 2010
3251 Posts
July 19 2014 14:46 GMT
#11
To quote my man Q-Tip:
"When you play with crime sometime's it's not too fly
Even though the goods look deceivin to the eye
The end situation could leave your ass dry
That's why you got to walk on by, walk on by"

In other words the forbidden fruits you are referring to in the beginning like some shady business might look cool and interesting but as it turns out there is a good reason most people don't live a life a crime: it sucks.

That being said I do know that desire for a thrill, for a life less mundane and standard than everyday life, especially when I was younger (15 ~ 21). Just like so many boys in my hometown I dabbled in crime here and there, until I came to the exact same realization as aforementioned Mr. Q-Tip. The happiness you can get from the kind of a fulfilled life you seem to have now infinitely exceeds any kind of happiness you could get from a life spent chasing cheap thrills.
Trumpet
Profile Blog Joined October 2007
United States1936 Posts
July 20 2014 11:35 GMT
#12
Sounds like your mind is restless, and you need some books in your life ;] Don't let your job based education get in the way of learning!
KingAlphard
Profile Blog Joined August 2012
Italy1705 Posts
Last Edited: 2014-07-20 23:53:16
July 20 2014 23:49 GMT
#13
We live in a society. A society is based on some fundamental ideas about life (freedom, democracy, equality for example) that are shared among the people. This implies that people tend to be very similar one to each other. In fact, if every person was equal to the others (in terms of way of thinking), everyone would be happy, crime and "evil" wouldn't exist.
On the other hand, most people want to feel special and unique, so they refuse this kind of logic. I take it as a proof that man always tends towards unhappiness and unsatisfaction.
To sum it up with a practical advice, I agree with some posts above, it may look cool to you now, bit living at the edge of a society won't make you happier.
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