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Johto4934 Posts
First of all, if you don't like sad stories, this blog is not for you, but it is a part of my past, and it's still a part of my present as i write this. If you're still reading beyond this point, i just can warn you, this is not your regular girl blog.
But let me start five years ago. I had a best friend at the time, let me call her Emily since i do not want to write out her real name. I had known Emily basically since my birth, and we spent all the time together we could spare, which was way too little, since Emily moved some kilometers away when she switched from primary school to secondary school. We met every other weekend, but we didn't have a serious relationship, she wasn't my girlfriend. That was actually a pity, since i was in love with her, but i was too shy at the time to tell her.
Unfortunately Emily was ill, and by ill i do not mean she had a cold. Sometimes life is unfair to people, and this was such a case. She had leukemia and was at a hospital in her last year. The doctors had tried everything they could, but nothing had helped and everyone knew, she was going to die soon. But even in this state, Emily had managed to remember my birthday some months ago, and she listened to me whenever i needed someone, just as i tried to be there whenever she needed me. Until the end, she never lost her good mood, she always tried to make the best of the given situation.
But, what do you do? You are in love with the perfect girl, you know she likes you, but you also know, she will die soon. Can you tell her? Wouldn't it make her sad, since she knows she won't be there with you even if she wanted? Also, could you get over it to see your girlfriend die? What does it mean to yourself? Can you stand it, can you live with it?
I think noone can answer these questions. Maybe some can, but i think you don't know it before it happened to you.
I for myself decided i had to try. I asked her out, and she agreed to be my girlfriend. It was the happiest day i ever had, but it also was the saddest one. Emily died only hours later in my arms with a smile on her lips. Her funeral was very hard for me as i had to say some words about her and i think i failed hard with finding the right words, but i think i would have been angry with myself if i hadn't at least tried.
Emilys parents were really nice to me and i appreciate everything they did to help me dealing with my loss, even despite themselves having lost their daughter. I will never forget how nice people can be due to this as i realise how hard it is to console someone while having lost someone close.
Just an hour before she died, Emily handed me a package i should open when she died, but i couldn't get myself to open it at the time. Today it has been exactly 5 years ago that she handed it to me, and finally i thought i could handle to look into it.
When opening it today, i was crying. Not that it is something big in the sense of something costy, actually it is a Pokémon Card i didn't own just until today (i actively collected them at the time), but thinking that Emily must've remembered me saying i was missing this specific card, even despite her being in her last days on earth, is really touching. Opening the package was like going back in time with a time machine for me.
That is the moment, when your past gets you, when somehow every memory is back in not more than a moment. Everyone has to decide for himself if that is a good thing, but for me it is, because it is like a huge pile of positive memories.
Why am i writing this? Well, mostly to tell you that people can be nice no matter what situation they are in, that people care. Also i'm writing it because it has been exactly 5 years since this happened, so it's somehow a special day for me.
Don't give up if something like this happens to you, keep going!
 
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this is super sweet and sad 
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Johto4934 Posts
well, i warned you that it's a sad story
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Netherlands6181 Posts
Awwwww FO-nTTaX!!!!
Very sad blog, but at least you know her time with you was the best it could have been. She sounds like she was an amazing person, but often the worst situations bring out the best in people. Also really sad that someone can die so young of such a horrifying illness
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Magic Woods9326 Posts
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RIP Emily..
So sad.. but i am 100% sure you did the right thing.. she was loved !
I recently saw "The fault in our stars" a movie with a story line close to yours..
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I for myself decided i had to try. I asked her out, and she agreed to be my girlfriend. It was the happiest day i ever had, but it also was the saddest one. Emily died only hours later in my arms with a smile on her lips.
Wow.
Seeing as how she made such an impact on you, her short life was clearly not wasted. Nor was your love.
R.I.P. (five years belated)
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I am truly sorry for your loss. I lost my uncle to suicide a year ago two weeks ago. I just attended his memorial service. I never thought losing someone very close to you would be as painful as it was. I don't think you are ever prepared. Worst thing about it is I actually saw him commit suicide. It took me about a month for my mind to stop repeating the event in my head every time I went to bed. Whenever I lay I was actually scared to go to sleep, due to the fact that I would relieve the tragic event every night. I am glad you went for it and asked her out! You will forever have that to remember. I think to myself a lot of times that I wish I had let my uncle know I loved him one last time.
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This was a really incredible story. I have a friend with a story kind of like this and it always sucks to hear.
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Where dat snitch at?37024 Posts
5/5 blog, easiest decision ever. What a touching story, thank you for sharing.
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That's so sad .
What was the pokemon card?
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What a touching story, I'm sorry for your loss. I'm glad for your sake you were able to confess your love and she accepted even if it was so brief. A memory like that should never be forgotten and I'm glad you were able to share it with us.
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Johto4934 Posts
Thank you all for your kind words, i appreciate it, and it's good to read them. You guys/girls are really cool!
I needed like 4 hours to type this down and another 2 hours to click the submit button, seeing i'm not being laughed at means very much to me.
On July 13 2014 00:40 kaiz0ku wrote:
RIP Emily..
So sad.. but i am 100% sure you did the right thing.. she was loved !
I recently saw "The fault in our stars" a movie with a story line close to yours..
I don't know that movie, but i'll watch it.
On July 13 2014 02:18 Nufo wrote:
I am truly sorry for your loss. I lost my uncle to suicide a year ago two weeks ago. I just attended his memorial service. I never thought losing someone very close to you would be as painful as it was. I don't think you are ever prepared. Worst thing about it is I actually saw him commit suicide. It took me about a month for my mind to stop repeating the event in my head every time I went to bed. Whenever I lay I was actually scared to go to sleep, due to the fact that I would relieve the tragic event every night. I am glad you went for it and asked her out! You will forever have that to remember. I think to myself a lot of times that I wish I had let my uncle know I loved him one last time.
I'm sad to read that, it really sucks to lose a close person, i'm still sometimes dreaming about it. I can tell what pain it is, and i would not like anyone to have to get through this...
On July 13 2014 08:19 Urth wrote:That's so sad . What was the pokemon card?
Actually it was a German version of this card, so not a rare card at all. I framed it, so i hope i'll never lose it.
http://bulbapedia.bulbagarden.net/wiki/File:StarmieBaseSet64.jpg
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did you hit it though?
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Canada13389 Posts
Dude, heavy story.
Very touching though.
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Got a shining kabutops from a friend when I left to go to another city. He forgot he gave me that card but I still treasure it. I didn't even know they had shiny cards back then.
I think this was a turning point for you. It's probably shaped you into the person you are today.
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You've gone through some truly hard things. It wasn't exactly easy to read that but I'm really impressed that you found the courage to write this blog, as you said it must have been really tough to write it.
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Oh my lord. All I can do is wish you the best. There's nothing else I can say but I admire your strength to get through this.
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Germany913 Posts
Oh god, this is so sad...
Cancer and leukemia are by far the worst things that could happen to an human and its friends, relatives and beloved ones.
Keep on going and thank you for sharing this with us.
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easy 5/5 .. sorry dude
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Beautiful story, I really didn't expect that. Are you Nicholas Sparks haha
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Damn this was terribly sad
Thanks for sharing though
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I can't, I don't want to imagine what it feels like when a person you love dies in your arms...
You had the courage to try, even when knowing the painful inevitable end. For whatever it means to you, I believe you made the right choice.
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omg .
Wish you the best man!
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Italy12246 Posts
Oh man Probably the sweetest and saddest story i've read on TL. Thanks for sharing.
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Sounds like for a girl as unlucky as her she was lucky to have someone like you
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I shed a tear. Thank you for sharing.
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Man, you did the right thing, trust me.
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