EPTAfter my last blogpost i started to loose interest in esport in generall and in Maj 2012 i stopped playing attention to the whole esport scene as a whole. Why i stopped im still questioning myself, i guess i just burned myself out and wanted a new hobby after 6 years of esport. After abandonning esport and gaming in general i was lost and bored for a while, i really didnt know what to do. During my gaming time i had missed out on many things that involved my friends, because of gaming i skipped many hangouts and became antisocial, i still met and talked with them at school and even through skype but whenever there was something else going on outside of these two sectors i got left out. Was this because of esport? Not really, it was just my personallity and attitude towarsd gaming, i preffered gaming from socializing in real life with my friends at that time and i really didint realize how bad the situation actually was.
Before i go any further i just wanna point out that i am in no way against gaming 24/7, i had a blast doing it for my 6 years and it shaped me to whom i am now, and i dont regrett anything!
So the summer of 2012 was the summer where i had to "reconnect" with my social cirkel, i was active more then ever and regained the close friendship i had before with some friends. I had a blast this summer but there was still something missing, messing around with friends was fun but i had no real goal like in SC2, where i wanted to become the best of the best in my league etc
The thrive for improving your skill and getting rewarded, which gaming gave me was still lost and i wanted it so bad. And as summer was nearing its end my mind somehow started to think about my health and how bad it was for my age. I couldnt even run 2km without nearly dying, and i ate next to nothing and when i did it was shit food. This was the moment i thought to myself, i can change this, i can improv, just like in SC2 and so began my "fitness" journey. Together with 2 friends we singed up to a gym and started weight lifting 4-5 times a week and untill today i think this was the best decision in my life too date. During 1 year period, i ate properly, i had gained muscle, strenght and was once in a lifetime happy with how i looked. Through excerising i was more active, energetic and my social circle expanded immensley. Year 2013 was my biggest life changer and gave me a completley new view on life!
In regards to school not much has changed. I wrote in my blogpost "im following my dream are you" some cringeworthy stuff, i guess thats what happens when you're a confused teenager haha. After starting weightlifting i realized that i should stop overanalyzing things and just do things i want, stop making drama and feel "cool" or "stronger" because im supposedly doing something different when i was actually not doing that. Anyway, end of summer 2013 i moved 400km from my hometown to a university here in sweden where i am currently studying and finished my first year at the Graphic Design and Communcation program. I'm having a blast here, i have learned so much, met new and interesting people (including my girlfriend) After this year i can safely say that im happy with my choices, and would not change anything because all these events shaped me to who i am today
Well, thats my update on my life if anyone is interested! haha
