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I just wanted to update everyone on my situation, I'm going to write out the entire story, mainly for my benefit because I think it will be a bit therapeutic for me, as the entire situation has caused me a great deal of anxiety and pain. The wcs stuff will be at the bottom.
Around 4 weeks ago I went to the hospital and was diagnosed with a bladder fistula. For those that don't know I have crohn's disease, and these are somewhat common with it. It's basically a hole connecting your bladder/intestine. I also had a severely inflammed intestine. They could either do the surgery then and there or wait a week and let a new drug (remicade) attempt to heal everything. They chose the non-surgical option (mistake IMO) .
After a week I think it was Saturday, I felt extremely sick had a fever and my stomach just didn't feel right. I contemplated going to the er, and finally went. I had a cat scan done and apparently my intestine had rolled over on itself and had an obstruction along with the fistula. They decided to rush me straight into surgery to remove 8 inches of intestine, repair the fistula, and take out my appendix.
I woke up from the surgery, all I remember was waking up and saying ow ow ow like a kid, I was still pretty out of it, they gave me a pain shot but it wasn't enough so they hooked me up to a....not sure what it's called a self-administering machine where you could push a button to inject yourself with pain meds every so often. The doc then later came in and said surgery went great, to walk around some when possible and left.
So that's what I did, the next few days went great. They eventually took me off the pain machine, and I was doing fine. Two days later however took a really bad turn for the worse. I am talking pain. I do not have a low pain tolerance. Crohn's disease is a very painful disease at times. I was a 10/10 on the painscale. It was the worst pain I have ever felt in my entire life, and I do NOT EVER want to experience anything like that again. The doc came in that morning and asked how I was doing. I told him horrible. He asked me how bad It hurt, I said it's the worst pain I have ever felt in my life (it was). He said that's a cop out answer (this pissed me off quite a bit). Thankfully I had my mother there at the time, she was starting to cry and wouldn't look at him, because she knows when I say something hurts, it hurts. We finally convinced him to give me another ct scan and 2 mg of hydromorphone until the results came back. It turns out I had 4 huge infected abscesses. The presnisone I was taking at the time was covering up the fever I would have had otherwise. I'm sure the dr just thought I was being a wuss from the pain of surgery.
So I had surgery #2. It was also a success. They put me on a shotgun of antibiotics and pain meds, I could have the IV hydromorphone as needed and things were looking up again.
The next few weeks was one of the worst experiences of my life. It has changed my personality and have come to realize you can't be as passive and as willful to agree as I am.
I want to start out to say if you have ANYONE you love or care about in the hospital, who are in a condition where they are not able to speak for themselves or take care of themselves either STAY WITH THEM or CHECK ON THEM VERY FREQUENTLY. If I didn't have my mother there I would have died. I am very appreciative for the sacrifices she took to help me.
I don't know if it's because the nurses have long hours, or if they just hire bad people or what. The amount of pain I was in was horrible. Pain is relative, but I don't think I am a pussy. Just to give you an idea how big these pockets of infection were, 1000 ml drained from one area out of my stomach not even through the tube, but around it. That was one of the most disgusting experiences I have seen, the smell was horrible!
I was basically reliant on the shots every 2 hours, or I would be in extreme pain. They seem to last 1hour /30 mins, so the last 30 mins wasn't pleasant, but manageable knowing pain relief could come soon.
Some nurses were just incompetent. I'd call them, ask for pain meds, they said they would be on there way, one time it took OVER AN HOUR, yes I timed them because when you are in a so much pain, watching the clock is literally all you can do. Another time I called asking for pain meds and my bladder catheter emptied ( I am currently unable to get up by myself at this time and had a bladder fistula so my bladder should not be expanding right now) First time I called the front desk, they said someone was on the way...waited 30 mins, nothing. Called the secondary nurse, said she was on her way....waited 20 minutes...nothing (later found out SHE WENT ON HER LUNCH BREAK BEFORE COMING TO MY ROOM AND COMPLETELY FORGOT ABOUT ME) at this point my bladder felt like it was going to explode, called my RN nurse.....15 minutes...nothing, so I started yelling hello outside my room, my RN nurse called me and said shed be right there. It took 45 minutes, to get any help my bladder felt like it was going to explode, and was in a ton of pain.
These things happened when my mom happened to not be there, which is why I reinstate DO NOT LEAVE ANYONE YOU LOVE OR CARE ABOUT IN THE HOSPITAL ALONE, THERE IS A GOOD CHANCE THEY ARE NOT GETTING THE QUALITY OF CARE YOU THINK THEY ARE.
With the bad nurses I had to fight for pain medication. They *almost refused to give me the iv morphone. The pain pills just did not work. My stomach wasn't digesting still, I was vomiting some, pills just didn't work, yet they kept saying here try these first before trying the IV pain meds. If I had one super power at the time, it would be to transfer the amount of pain I was in to them, just for a few seconds, just to show them what it felt like.
There seemed to be about 50% good nurses and 50% bad ones. The good ones were fantastic, and I would be 100% fine alone in the hospital with them. The other half however, I would be scared shitless to be left there alone with them.
Unfortunately I developed two more infected abscesses which they did not do surgery for, and instead were able to put 2 (annoying) drains through me and just them them drain into bags. I still currently have one, and I had the other one pulled yesterday.
From this situation I realized you have more power at the hospital than I originally thought. It's my body, I know what I need pain wise, and now know you can ask for it. You have to be assertive and demand what you want, if you don't want the pill you tell them you don't want it and ask for what works. If I could do the entire thing over I think I would have had a more pleasant experience. But there really are some shitty nurses working at the hospital. And if I ever have a loved one in one, I am going to be by their side the entire time.
I am back home now, the pain has decreased quite a bit, and it's not bothering me near as much anymore which is good. I seem to be making a full recovery stomachwise and that's good news. I actually ate a really juicey apple (haven't been able to for 4 years) and it was delicious.
That's about all the hospital stuff I'm going to go into.
I'm going to talk more about what happened Monday.
My match was vs qxc Monday.
Ever 3-4 days ago I have been experiencing panic attacks, and severe anxiety issues. I have felt like I was going to die, the racing heart, sweating, and shaking. It's partly because of the hospital experience I believe but there's another reason. I don't think I ever accepted I had crohn's disease. I just....kinda ignored it saying I'll be fine, but this hospital visit changed that. It's a serious disease which can really effect your quality of life.
I'm also a little worried about this feeling/pressure i have on my eye, I'm not sure if it's dryness or what. I've been to 3 eye drs, and they all say my eye is "healthy" but something isn't right, and nausea and lightheartedness are accompanying it. I'm afraid it's not going to get figured out, and that's where the majority of my anxiety attacks are coming from. I see a neurologist soon, and if he doesn't have any ideas either I don't know what I am going to do. I'm starting to think it's all in my head and I'm crazy, but it can't be....
I am just extremely stressed out at the moment. I was not even able to get online to proxy gate him 3 times. And I know that is not what anyone wants to see.
I was given some anxiety meds to help calm me down and they are working a decent amount for now and will hopefully even me out until I get some stuff figured out. Having to drop 2 of my 3 classes really bumbed me out since I was 2 weeks away from getting straight A's.
Anyways as you can see, I was not in any shape to play a scheduled match vs qxc.
I'm a bit worried about my stream now as well since I've been gone for such a long time. I hope to still have support and people who will watch and enjoy my stream.
I apologize to everyone who was wanting to watch it, I apologize to blizzard who helped reschedule it, and apologize to WCS who also helped in rescheduling it.
I also thank my fans, and although I don't reply to many of you, I promise you I read each one and it does mean a lot to me.
 
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Wow...
Not sure what to say, except get well Chad. You're one of my favorite players to watch, and I wish you all the best. Terrible hearing about that hospital stay, but I really hope you can recover from the whole experience.
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SoCal, USA3955 Posts
Thank goodness they did a 2nd check after the first surgery. Hopefully you will be able to figure out what is with your eye.
Just take it easy Minigun. 
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Yo Chad, please get well. This blog had me cringing with mirror-neuron-pain from time to time so I feel for you. All the best, sincerely.
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Glad the surgeries went well, despite incompetent nurses. Heal quickly! ♥
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No need to apologize on that one, seriously. Just don't forget, however bad it is: tomorrow, the sun's gonna shine. Seriously.
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don't apologize, no need for that; get well soon, it's top prio, starcraft after!
also I'm looking forward to helping you again with programming stuff on skype! anytime you need buddy 
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Ridiculous that you're apologising to us. I feel awful for you!
Get well soon Chad. Don't play Starcraft until you're ready. Your health is what matters
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Oh man, reading that was harsh. I'll be there to support you whenever you can get back, Chad, keep up the fight and get better.
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my god chad.. that is horrifying. Thank you for sharing this.. I will be damned sure to follow your advice should the need arise. I am wishing you a speedy recovery man... get well. <3
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Glad you are getting better! A very informative blog!
also, what did the bill look like? did you at least have health insurance?
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Wow that's so fucking awful. I had no idea hospital staff could treat people so nastily.
I really hope you get well soon and wish you the best of luck for your health in the future.
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Sad to see you went through so much pain, and to be taken care of by people who seem so indifferent. I believe those bad nurses your talking about probably never realize what real pain you were in and never had a loved one suffer like you did. I hope you feel better man, your a great guy and even though I haven't spent a lot of personal time with you; you are one of my favorite SC2 players. Your a great guy and I'm glad you're going to be more assertive with what you want/need I think it will help in a lot of areas of your life. No need to apologize obviously, seriously nothing to be said there. Although it may be hard and you need to push for what you think/believe more often in medical and other situations; try to not let it over worry yourself. You still have to trust professional medical doctors after you assist and they check and say nothing is wrong.
I hope you feel better
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Really, really sorry to hear what you had to go through! Please focus on getting well first before thinking about Starcraft again!! We're all thinking of you!
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Just wow thx for sharing Chad and best of wishes for a recovery.
I hope its same in the US as in Sweden that after being in contact with the hospital you get a form sent home to you asking about your experience, perfect time to shit on those that aren't doing their job right. (and also confirm that they are not all like that)
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You have no reason to apologise Chad, you've been having health troubles and that's not your fault at all, add the experience you had in the hospital I can fully understand you not feeling like playing and although I was a little disappointed to see the match not happen I was mainly worried about why you didn't turn up and if something had happened.
Get well soon, I eagerly await your return to WCS, you're my favourite NA Protoss and I know you'll be back kicking ass in no time.
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I really hope you get well soon Chad. The whole situation sounds awful; it also reminds me how bad the effects Crohns/Colitis can get. As someone with ulcerative colitis, I can really relate to your mention of the anxiety related to the disease itself; and this blog has been quite an eye-opening reminder about this disease for me. Yet even though it sounds like you're suffering, don't forget about the light at the end of the tunnel! Remicade worked for a friend of mine; it also seems to be a pretty successful immune suppressant. Based on what I understand, you should have a really good chance of staying in remission long term; which is something positive out of all this!
Starcraft wise, I don't think you should worry about anything. The game isn't going anywhere and people seem very understanding about the situation. Just focus on getting better!
Best wishes yo!
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My god i've never though this was that serious I hope you figure everything out and get well soon
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Get well soon man, I truly wish you all the best!
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There is nothing more fucking infuriating than being in a hospital and being denied painkillers. Happened to me once, even though it was for something very minor, feeling that you got a piece of meat cut with a scalpel still hurts a bit. I really wanted to kill the fucker that told me "pain forges character".
Your case is infinitely worse, and it's just crazy that it can get to that point. Dunno about US, but around here hospitals are understaffed, and the lower tiers of staff are underqualified and/or don't give a fuck. I've got a friend that is studying medicine, and he was shocked at how some services run in the hospitals.
Anyway, hope you'll feel better soon, and thanks for sharing that, raising awareness and potentially saving some asses.
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So sorry to hear that  I hope you get well soon, and take some time to relax and find balance in your life again.
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Chad I love you very much, feel better! <333333333333333333333333333333333333333333
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I'm sure you've thought of this, but if you ever want to sue them for medical malpractice, I think you'd have a pretty good case.
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I give my full respect to you for this post, I truly hope that you recover.
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Aotearoa39261 Posts
Jesus thats so rough IBDs of all forms suck. You probably know but Remi tends to work rather well and I hope that it puts you into remission.
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I once had to stay a week in the hospital after a surgery and the nurses were great, I gained a huge amount of respect for what they do. It is unfortunate you had such a terrible experience with some of them, hopefully you won't have to go through that again. I'm wishing you all the best.
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get well chad , we are waiting for you!
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Holy shit dude, that's terrible. I hope you get better as soon as possible.
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Man that is horrific Focus on getting better! Wishing you the best!
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get well soon minigun the protoss chat misses you dearly ~
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Good luck and God speed Chad. Best wishes and get well soon from myself and the rest of the Ascended Starcraft League staff. We hope you make a full recovery and get all your health issues dealt with properly. I know i have had my difficulties as well with poor hospital staff. I won't pretend to understand your situation, but I do understand your frustration. GLHF Chad! And again, get well soon
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Braavos36374 Posts
man don't worry about WCS just concentrate on getting better
nobody is disappointed in you doing whats right for your health, that's far more important than fans missing a StarCraft match
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good luck with everything minigun, hope you get back to sc2 but only when you get well again.
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Having been in the hospital myself recently, I can totally sympathize with how horrible it can be to be "in the care" of staff that really don't give a shit. I'm glad you were able to pull through this chad, it sounds horrifying. Best of luck fighting crohn's in the future.
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The incompetence of some of these nurses is infuriating ! It's awful you had to go through that. Have a good recovery and get better <3 !
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That's not a good advertisement for US hospitals.
Good luck in the recovery Minigun !
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Damn, Chad. Dunno what to say except take your time in feeling better. Hospital nurses can be a huge pain in the ass if you don't have a person there to whip them into shape while you are drugged up and incapable of getting up.
Don't rush back, man. Get your health in check, please, we all love you man.
Get well soon Chad "Motherfucking" "Tough as Nails" Jones!
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I'm thankful that you're still alive. Chadwick fighting!
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Hey minigun, check your PM's, I sent you a message. I got crohns disease as well and have been through the same things man. Its such a horrible disease. I got it when i was 19-20 and im 28 now, It was so hard to diagnose for me, cant tell you how hopeless I felt for a while having to go in for surgeries every 3 months and not knowing whats causing it. Went through 6 surgeries, but finally Remicade is what stabilized me. Hope it does the same for you! would love to chat with ya sometime. Ive met other people with crohns, but no ones that gone through what ive gone through like you.
Like you were saying, it really does change you though.
Best wishes and keep your head up man.
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get well soon, man! Christ, you don't need to apologize whatsoever! Please try to not stress yourself with sc2 and eat right and get well <3
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As someone who woke up during a surgery where they were sawing in my leg bones to treat my less than perfect legs, but not being able to move or speak but just enduring the pain, ending up with PTSD and all forms of mental issues resulting from it, I totally sympathise with your experience and pain. Stay strong.
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get well soon chad motherfucking jones <3
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Our thoughts are with you Chad. I hope u can get back to kicking some zzergs butt, and ez terrans
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Oh man, your past few weeks sound like a horrific experience! I hope you won't ever have to go through something like that again! Take your time to recover and don't stress out, SC2 will still be around when you are fit again
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On May 16 2014 03:17 Nimix wrote:
There is nothing more fucking infuriating than being in a hospital and being denied painkillers. Happened to me once, even though it was for something very minor, feeling that you got a piece of meat cut with a scalpel still hurts a bit. I really wanted to kill the fucker that told me "pain forges character".
Your case is infinitely worse, and it's just crazy that it can get to that point. Dunno about US, but around here hospitals are understaffed, and the lower tiers of staff are underqualified and/or don't give a fuck. I've got a friend that is studying medicine, and he was shocked at how some services run in the hospitals.
Anyway, hope you'll feel better soon, and thanks for sharing that, raising awareness and potentially saving some asses.
This seems to pretty much be a global problem. Not enough doctors/nurses to help all the sick people
Anyway, please feel better soon, Chad! I know hospital stays aren't fun, have had to help my dad through some pretty painful/stressful ones the last two years or so. You're absolutely right, as long as you make it clear what you need and want, they WILL accommodate you. I hope you don't have to go through something like this again -_-
On May 16 2014 04:00 nkr wrote:
As someone who woke up during a surgery where they were sawing in my leg bones to treat my less than perfect legs, but not being able to move or speak but just enduring the pain, ending up with PTSD and all forms of mental issues resulting from it, I totally sympathise with your experience and pain. Stay strong.
Good lord, I would never wish this on anyone...
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First of all I'm gonna say that it's funny (and lovable) that you ended this tale with a "sorry"!
But you have to realize that with some diseases, you are going to be miserable. There's no getting around it. Pain meds can get you addicted and (believe it or not) in a worse condition in less than a year. Especially morphine. They can also interfere and combine with the other drugs you are taking (you mentioned one) and screw you up in that way.
I'd be feeling just as terrible as you were I'm sure but still, show some respect for the nurses/doctors. Mothers go through childbirth with horrible pain still to this day for a reason. Do not demand drugs vehemently, just keep telling the doctors/nurses if you're suffering. It's their area of expertise, not yours.
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Get well soon, all the best.
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Thanks for the blog, I really hope you get better. My father was in the hospital some months ago, and he had an adverse reaction to the anesthesia. He got the hiccups, and people say things like the hiccups are not a big deal. He had them for over 24 hours, and the nurses and doctors would not do anything about it. He could not sleep, he was in severe pain in his chest/throat, and they told us to wait for them to go away on their own.
He would have been fine after his procedure if not for that, and they did not do anything about it. And then when he needed a second procedure done, they refused to give him a different anesthesia! Hospitals are scary places because they basically have all the control...
I am glad that you were not left alone during this and you get well soon!
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Canada13389 Posts
Your stream will always be there and your fans too. Don't worry about that, focus on other stuff.
I've chatted with you before about the neurologist stuff, if you EVER want to chat about that or anything related don't forget I'm on your Skype.
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Dude that's a horrible ride you had. I hope all this stuff gets figured out so you don't have to deal with uncertainty and feel a lot better soon! Don't worry about your matches or streaming!
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Goddamn, read through all of it. That really sucks. Can't believe how little they care about their patients. Good luck recovering, and I hope the neurologist will find something that's easily curable to soothe your worries.
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Good on you minigun. I'll be here to watch your stream no matter what. NO MATTER WHAT
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Get well Chad, dont worry about the games.
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Wow.. take care and get well soon! We miss you
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Oh god I have a friend with Crohn's, I had no idea it could be that bad. I need to call her right now.
Please get well soon Chad "Mother Fucking" Jones and come back to us <3
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I have Crohn's too, it fucking sucks. I'm 26 now, and my last major surgery was when I twas 17, a day before I turned 18. luckily I was still admitted to the kid's section of the hospital. it's amazing how much better you get treated. I had a couple other minor surgeries in an adult hospital, and the lady was arguing with me saying I wasn't in pain. basically everything about it sucked.
your Crohn's seems to be significantly worse than mine, ever since I started azathioprine, things have been amazing. feel better man, and that first meal out of the hospital always rocks damned hard!
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Get well soon Chad. Don't worry about missing WCS or any of that. Just focus on healing and feeling better. Sometimes you have to put yourself first man. Your fans will always be there for you and you can always try again for WCS.
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Get well soon. It's very sad to hear you've had such a nightmarish time these last couple of weeks.. Hopefully you will never have to go through anything like it ever again.
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Chad I honestly wish you the best. I am in the hospital right now for chrons. It is not as severe as yours is/was but would you or anyone else who has chrons can offer advice: how did the remicade work and effect you? Was it worth the risks of the drug or not? I have mixed opinions of going on it and need as much info as possible. Hope you do better chad.
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I'm really sorry you have to go through this sort of thing, I know a bunch of people with anxiety and also know those who have overcome it. Hope you will be part of the latter.
Hoping to see you on the ladder soon, get well bro.
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Oh my god, I would have killed myself struggling to yell at the nurses and doctors.
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Fuck man, i really hope you get better
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No morphine?
Is that sort of like a last-resort pain med used by doctors? Because I don't hear it being administered much.
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On May 16 2014 02:02 ROOTMinigun wrote:
I want to start out to say if you have ANYONE you love or care about in the hospital, who are in a condition where they are not able to speak for themselves or take care of themselves either STAY WITH THEM or CHECK ON THEM VERY FREQUENTLY.
I shall take this to heart :'( All the best!!!
On May 16 2014 02:02 ROOTMinigun wrote:
If I didn't have my mother there I would have died. I am very appreciative for the sacrifices she took to help me.
True yesterday, today, and tomorrow.
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Damn, that sounds like something straight out of a horror movie. Hope you get well quickly, and I'll make sure to remember your advice.
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Man this stuff is crazy. Sucks to bad to hear but glad to see you were at least able to come home. Your hospital experience sounds truly terrible. I hope things get better for you. Good luck
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Sorry for hear about how things are going minigun, all the best.
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Get well! You´re an huge rolemodel for me. I´m praying for you!
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I hope you get well soon, man. That seems like something I never want to experience, and I wish the world stopped having bad nurses or docs..
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Get well man. As someone who has suffered severe anxiety attacks and now takes meds, FUCK THEM. It sucks to feel like your going to die from anything and everything's going wrong even though you KNOW it's just a panic attack.
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God damn son. I have been in the hospital a lot but not for (or at least not awake for) something as bad as what you wrote about. I have had extremely pleasant experiences with the hospitals in Washington State and the one I had a week stay at in Denver, Colorado. Although at pretty much every time I was awake I remember my parents or a friend being there (except once, which was honestly a little sketchy as I couldn't move anything but my head and there was nobody there.) That really sucks that the nurses and staff were so bad at times.
Take your time. Relax. See the people you need to see. Research some specialists. I had a scan done on my back at a hospital once, they said nothing was wrong and just to take it easy. A week went by and I had severe pain in my back still. I went to a back specialist in Seattle and found some stuff (3 fractured vertebrae) and gave me a whole load of information on what to do and what to look for.
GLHF CHAD MOTHA FUCKIN JONES~!
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First world problems can be a bitch.
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On May 16 2014 05:50 EarthwormJim wrote:
First world problems can be a bitch.
You either didn't read what he wrote or are a terrible person. Crohn's disease is pretty fucked up man.
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On May 16 2014 05:50 EarthwormJim wrote:
First world problems can be a bitch.
What the hell, man?
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On May 16 2014 05:56 DinoMight wrote:Show nested quote +On May 16 2014 05:50 EarthwormJim wrote:
First world problems can be a bitch. You either didn't read what he wrote or are a terrible person. Crohn's disease is pretty fucked up man.
Pretty sure he's talking about the nurses.
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Stay strong Chad, I can't imagine how hard this must be, but now it's time to slowly get happy again. Don't worry about missed matches nobody will blame you for anything. Those response times on the nurses sound really bad by the way, I don't think that would be acceptable in my country.
On May 16 2014 04:00 nkr wrote:
As someone who woke up during a surgery where they were sawing in my leg bones to treat my less than perfect legs, but not being able to move or speak but just enduring the pain, ending up with PTSD and all forms of mental issues resulting from it, I totally sympathise with your experience and pain. Stay strong.
Wow o_O. That's some horror movie stuff man. Hope you get better as well.
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holy shit
get better minigun
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well I don't post much but this time is an exception:
get well! Hope you can get off the pain meds very soon!
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Jesus Christ that sounds so scary. Can't believe a doctor would behave like that.
Best of luck on your recovery!
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I truly wish you the best Chad, that sounds like an absolute nightmare. It sounds like the past month has been a horror story for you. I really understand and agree with what you say about being more assertive in hospitals:
About a year ago, I was in class one day when I randomly got super dizzy, shaky, heart started racing, and almost passed out. Went to the doctor and they said it was nothing, just to keep an eye on drinking soda and energy drinks... Same thing started happening multiple times per week, sometimes when driving, sometimes when just sitting on the couch, etc. I went back in and they had me wear two separate heart monitors for about 2 months, because they thought it was a heart issue. Results came back after 2 months of "heart monitoring" (having these attacks multiple times per week, scared to do anything really because I didn't want to randomly pass out), and we found out my heart was fine. This led them to diagnose it as "random anxiety attacks", for which I was prescribed some meds that made me shake uncontrollably for most of the day. Got switched off of those to what I've been on for the better part of the year, and I haven't had any episodes since switching. I still get a pretty shaky if I forget to eat regularly, or exercise particularly hard, but it's manageable. So I know how you feel about the anxiety attacks man, the shit is so scary (because you feel like you are literally going to die) & you are always worrying about when it's going to happen. It's so damn frustrating.
I really wish the best for you; you should take all the time you need before continuing with SC2 & streaming. Your health is what's most important.
I've been watching your stream for a few years now (and was a sub for a loong time). I'll continue to support no matter what, because you are Chad MOTHERFUCKING Jones, and you will get through this. Hang in there buddy.
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Wow Minigun. I hope you get better soon. Chrons disease sounds like a pain... I am glad that you have your mother near you, and I fully sympathize with what you feel. If you ever feel like it's getting too expensive, try looking up on health care offshore. I live in Costa Rica and a lot of people travel here to get some of the treatments done here because of great doctors + cheaper rates.
Hope you get well soon. Keep pushing forward my man.
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Man... And I complain about my IBS... Think I'll STFU now...
About the eye thing... When you say pressure, if its pressure on the eye seemingly from within your head, it might be sinuses (can also effect your mouth/teeth feeling like they have pressure or a loose feeling).
Ever had allergies? any cold symptoms recently? also check side effects of the pain meds you were on... Some side effects can last for weeks/months after you take them.
Oh and people.. if you want your eye doctor to take you seriously, a few things you say to get them more interested in running more tests: flashy lights in your vision... suddenly lots of floaters, or a grey spot in your vision. Also don't say pressure, say pain, it will get them more concerned. (I don't advocate being untruthful to a doctor, but if you feel you aren't being listened to or respected, these tactics can work).
(Source: Bro's wife is MD, showed blog to her, mostly her comments)
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Oh and about your stream... If anything this will help you. Best part about the community I think. I'll never un-sub, and if things ever get terribly bad, PM me, I work in Marketing at a major semiconductor company, and I'd do all I could to assist.
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Please don't apologize for anything, we will be watching you when you return. Stay strong, get well soon.
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Fuck those doctors and nurses man.
Get better soon.
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On May 16 2014 06:04 KenZee wrote:Show nested quote +On May 16 2014 05:56 DinoMight wrote:On May 16 2014 05:50 EarthwormJim wrote:
First world problems can be a bitch. You either didn't read what he wrote or are a terrible person. Crohn's disease is pretty fucked up man. Pretty sure he's talking about the nurses.
It doesn't read well either way.
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FYI Eye pressure is attributed to Crohns disease as well.. it's one of the effects.
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Hope you recover soon, buddy!
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Glad that you made it and sorry about your experience with nurses, some of them can be exceptionally incompetent. I'm a senior in nursing and knowing some of my classmates will be RNs in a year is terrifying. I know a girl whose nurse was stealing her morphine instead of giving it when she was hospitalized with porphyria. So yeah, I'm not at all surprised.
As for your eye, especially if accompanied with nausea and lightheadedness, my first thought is it being side effect of one of the many medications you are likely on (that is, if it's just dryness and not something else). Pain and anxiety meds could definitely be the cause of that, and almost any med can cause nausea and lightheadedness, the latter especially if it lowers your blood pressure and you make sudden changes in positioning such as standing too quickly. Also if you're on an anticholinergic to relax your intestines/bladder problems/etc then one theoretical side effect could be increased intraocular pressure but I would think one of the three doctors would notice. Many antibiotics can really fuck you up too---for instance fluoroquinolones (-floxacins) could cause eventual retinal detachment.
Of course I'm not a medical professional and you should continue to get it checked out but that might put you a bit at ease if someone hasn't said it already. I'd respond to the guy who showed it to an MD but with the amount of medications they likely have you on it's a surprise you aren't worse off. And you're right, you have absolute power as a patient and if anyone attempts to say otherwise try and fuck their license over completely.
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Best of luck man - all the best.
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United States45 Posts
That sounds extremely rough. Everyone here is wishing you the best, Chad. StarCraft will be right here waiting for you whenever you feel well enough to return. No need to rush. Health and personal well-being should always come first.
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Canada16217 Posts
Sorry you had to go through all that, I hope you can get better and become more stabilized. Wishing the best for you Minigun!
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Good advices. I have experience with family member in hospitals and yeah, it can be pretty daunting. Get well soon!
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Yolo, quit everything stressfull right now! Including StarCraft II and try to give your eyes and body rest and air. The amount of stress you've been going to is nothing you will get over within a week or so. You need to REST as much as you can and start hunting the healthy stuff! Your eyepressure might be psychosomatik thing: it can be an expression of the pressure you've been trying to hide inside yourself, forcing yourself to look at the outer world while ignoring your inner needs. Accept the IS and get a psych. to talk to. And Man, school might be important, but don't aim for the A's! Aim for your health and the things that are really important to you, not some stupid peace of paper and all that superficial shit! Go healthy, start meditating and take care! Good luck and get healthy <3
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Italy12246 Posts
Man what a story...get better soon! I'll be waiting eagerly for your stream
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Wow. Scary stuff, glad you made it through ok. We're all cheering for you to beat this like a scrubby NA ladder opponent. Get well soon!
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Hey Minigun, idk if you remember me from JSP but we spoke a bit about pain a few years back? as I had said I have chronic pain everyday due to a train accident/spinal injury and you told me about your Crohn's disease and the pain you experience, I believe back then you mostly kept that information to yourself but it was comforting talking to you about pain and all the shit that comes with it...
I'm really sorry to hear about your unpleasant experience's lately and the difficulties surrounding your disease. I hope things finally take a turn for the better and you get the help you need.
As for the hospital/DR's/pain and the stigma surrounding a persons pain I definitely empathize with you on that one. It is incredibly disheartening to get those types of reactions from the people who are spost to be there to help with pain and instead you just get judged and dismissed as some young person who doesn't understand pain/is trying to take advantage of pain meds when all you want to do is just not be in a living hell filled with pain that no one can possibly understand nor do most of them care to understand. It's sad that a person who's in pain has to sometimes be an aggressive dick about getting the treatment that is needed but in this society being upfront and sometimes dickish is what is needed to somewhat live normally as best you can...
I'm currently in a hole when it comes to getting pain assistance and it's driving me insane, the anger, the depression, the self hate that all comes from being in pain day in and day out and not having the necessary means to treat it is enough for someone to want to give up on life but I don't know... I hate hearing this from everyone but I guess they're right when they tell me to "try and be positive and dont give up; Things will get better eventually.." as hopeless as those words can sound, they are the words to believe in... I hope things can get better for you, like you said, do not be passive and agree with the medical people because they can have huge ego's and always think they know what's best but only you truly know what you need and you have to be forceful to get it, put a damn forcefield in the door and don't let them leave till they understand you're serious and you know what's best. Don't be afraid to complain to the higher ups, once they get complaints they may be more of dicks but their feelings are none of your concern all you should be concerned with is if they are doing the best they can to provide the right type of care for you, also don't be afraid to request a new doctor or new nurses if the current ones are lacking.
I know this letter is from someone with a spinal injury but I think it empathizes with anyone who suffers from chronic pain. I think you may find it helpful, this letter hit home so hard with me it also gave me a better idea on how to interact with people who do not understand your pain and what you're going through. I've even just straight up had people read it like my girlfriend/friends/family who for the life of them couldn't understand where I was coming from when it came to my pain.
A Letter to normals from a person with chronic pain
http://www.spine-health.com/forum/pain/chronic-pain/letter-normals-a-person-chronic-pain
Also, sorry for wall of text style of typing with bad grammar but it the point that matters.
Wish you the best! I hope I can continue following your SC2 career & stream.
Edit: One more thing, even though it's not advised with pain medication specifically pill form (All depends on what the pain medication is) but I've found that when taking my pain pills they seem to work with far greater efficiency if I disolve them in my mouth/under my tounge as opposed to swallowing them. Some of them taste absolutely horrid and some of them do not work by dissolving them in the mouth so do the research before hand. (I just had to find an alternative way to get the medication in my system because I don't metabolize the medication well [you can ask a DR to run that test to see if you properly metabolize the medication, I forgot the name of the test but I can find it if your interested in it] and I have a bad problem with throwing up constantly when I take my pain meds which causes me further pain)
I hope you find something I said helpful~!
Goodluck.
Latto
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you must be stronger than you thought, enduring through all of this, get better soon man
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I have some pretty bad anxiety issues, and I have the same symptoms as you. I'd be willing to bet that the eye pressure thing is all anxiety. But Im glad you're ok.
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Most people don't understand how hard it is to go through an experience like that, keep your head up. You're so lucky your mom was there to help you! It's ridiculous the way patients are treated and it's most of the time. There are good units and nurses out there but they are not the norm, that's for sure. Thank you for sharing that with us and I hope you make a fast and full recovery bro.
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Sorry to hear you've been in so much pain. Have always loved your stream and I'll see you there when you get back.
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Jesus....hang in there buddy. Hope you get better soon!
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one of the worst experiences i've ever had in my life was laying in a hospital bed in pain for 18 hours after I almost died in a car accident waiting for a nurse to check up with me.
this post doesn't have a lot of value, but just want to say i sympathize with you and hope your health gets better.
even though i got really mad at you on ladder for beating the crap out of me several times.
take care!!!
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Sorry to hear about your health issues. Although not nearly to the extent you describe, I have had similar problems. Hope you feel better soon and can get back to living your normal life. Please consider studying nutrition and exercise to keep your body in good overall health, if you are not already doing so.
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Chad, you're not going to lose fans because you haven't been streaming. Do everything you need to do to get better and keep enjoying apples <3
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1001 YEARS KESPAJAIL22272 Posts
holy shit what
I hope you get better man. Good luck. Health first!
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Chad I'm so sorry .. reading that was painful for me. You are a great person, and no one ever deserves to feel the way you did/do. I am rooting for you and hoping your health can return (both mental and physical) We all love you and this community will support you until there is no more SC2, So please please please, dont worry about that. Cross that one off the list and try to focus on your health. Love you~
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On May 16 2014 09:34 Axxis wrote:
Most people don't understand how hard it is to go through an experience like that, keep your head up. You're so lucky your mom was there to help you! It's ridiculous the way patients are treated and it's most of the time. There are good units and nurses out there but they are not the norm, that's for sure. Thank you for sharing that with us and I hope you make a fast and full recovery bro.
to be fair (i'm not defending the actions of mg's doctors/nurses necessarily), most people don't understand how taxing those jobs are. hospital staff in big cities are stretched extremely thin. if those individuals don't force themselves to methodically shut everything out and take care (e.g. forcing lunch or short breaks no matter what), there won't be anyone to do anything. the issues are never-ending and you eventually have to draw a line to keep your own sanity. the business certainly isn't providing necessary support.
general courtesy also generally breaks down for most people when any kind of pain is involved-- whiny cunts turn into nightmarish assholes to forcefully prioritize themselves at the cost of patients who need serious attention, leading to this kind of ever-present condescension among staff.
get better mg. get some kpins and ride the aftermath out.
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Hope you get well soon Chad! Crazy stuff in this world man, glad you're still here.
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Jesus dude this experience reminds me of when I had a couple surgeries a few years back, a very eerily similar experience involving being helpless when people weren't around, good/bad nurses and what have you. It sounds like it was much worse for you as well.
I'm sorry you or anyone else has to go through that; I certainly wouldn't want to again. Best of luck to you and a continued speedy recovery.
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Chad motherfucking Jones.
Feel better man. I read your whole blog and cringed at everything. I wish you a speedy recovery and I really hope you get better all around. Especially the anxiety. That's a horrible feeling to have day in and day out. <3
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Chronic diseases really suck. Sorry that on top of the horrible pain you had to drop classes. Good luck!
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Hey, thank you for sharing this account. I was actually a jerk for assuming you had just blown it off or slept in really late, but sharing these details about your struggles is really inspiring and I hope you find peace.
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Hey Minigun, Chad...
You don't know me, hell, I barely know you and I haven't really watched your stream that often but as I am part of the SC2 community, I'd love to help. Because I have also dealt with similar issues (intense pain, severe anxiety issues, digestive pain and generally feeling as if the world is ending), I know this should make sense when you read it.
I know that crohn's is horrible AND that doctors/nurses can be equally horrible. I truly sympathize with your experience and don't wish it upon anyone. That said, it's possible to change your life. It is possible to regain your health.
For one, you'll have to learn about the latest medical research and advances being done in the realm of digestion & crohn's. Unfortunately most gastroenterologist have not been keeping up with the latest findings and are not properly taking care of patients. (I know because I remember seeing over 5 of them and they all said: "oh, it's just in your head" when I was in a severe amount of pain.
The first step to getting better is going to be to learn about the latest research & findings on crohn's. The MUST READ books you'll want to read are:
- Gut & Psychology Syndrome by Natasha Campbell Mcbride
- Breaking The Vicious Cycle by Elaine Gloria Gottschall
Start with those two. Obviously there are a lot more but that's a good start.
The next thing you'll need to do is find a good functional medicine doctor in your area. They are the ONLY doctors that care about finding the cause of your issues and resolving them.
Read up on Dr. Mark Hyman, he's one of the more popular doctors in the industry.
You'll also probably want to do a L.E.A.P. test (look this up) in order to start healing your body. This finds what your body is reacting to and allows you to start avoiding it in order to start healing your body. (The functional doctor will assist you with this).
Last, but certainly not least, here's a bomb shell: Starcraft II does not cause crohn's... but it does aggravate it.
Here's how:
When you play long hours of SC2, you release stress hormones over a long period of time which severely hampers your digestion and causes inflammation. Over long periods of time (years), this wears away at your gut and helps promotes a leaky gut... which leads to intolerance and disease. It is a cycle that gets worse over time.
In addition, playing for long periods of time affects the thyroid (because of all the stress) and that reduces your stomach acid... which leads to digestive issues. Gaming for long hours also depletes all your nutrients & vitamins (B12, Magnesium) that is responsible for calming you down/dealing with stress.
That's one of the reasons why you'll feel uncontrollable anxiety (because your body can't handle stress at the moment... because you're missing essential nutrients). You'll also learn that your mind is directly linked to your gut which causes extreme anxiety. (It's nice to know that you're not going crazy... but the reason you're experiencing this is because of your gut issues).
I've been a gamer my entire life... and some people can deal with it better than others but for me, gaming long hours takes a toll on my body. It wasn't as bad when I was young but now that I'm a little older, I have to watch out how long I game.
These health problems happen so often among competitive players...
Remember that GSL player that had his lungs collapse twice?! Holy shit.. that's not normal.
And as much as I love SC2, it is one of the most stressful games. (More than FPS games... and other games) because you're constantly macro/microing. Doing 200 APM for 3-4 hours is insanely stressful on the body.
Compare this to an FPS game... where you walk walk walk walk, shoot, walk walk walk, shoot! walk walk walk walk.. wait... walk walk... run... (and you're only concentrating on one or two things at a time) and you could easily play an FPS game for 3-4 hours with relatively little stress.
It is my opinion that this is why you rarely see FPS players HULK SMASH keywords and why it is so common to see SC2 players destroy their gear out of frustration.
SC2 requires you to click about 2-3 buttons PER SECOND for 4-5 hours at a time and concentrate on an average of 3 things at once (macro, army 1, army 2/harass). It's actually amazing we can do it.
Unfortunately, for the sake of health (this actually IS a life or death thing), you'll have to change your life. Once again, I must re-state this... I have gone through a very similar experience to yours and I wish someone would have told me this.
1. Read the books I listed while you recover in bed.
2. Find a good functional doctor a.s.a.p. (if he does l.e.a.p. testing, even better)
3. Heal yourself before playing again.
All the best
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I feel for you bro ! My prays is with your health and recovering. <3
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Wow I felt ill reading this. Sounds like a really horrible experience, I think hospitals are perhaps my least favorite place on earth. Get better Minigun. This game will still be here so do you for a while man.
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Chad that sounded like an absolute nightmare. Thank god you're healing now. We have some great hospitals in Florida (especially down in Miami). Nobody knows your body more than yourself.
I'll be sure to watch your next stream session. Best of luck!
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Chad... that was something else. Godspeed, godspeed and I wish you a quick and smooth recovery.
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wow that was a hard read, really sorry to hear about all that. dont worry about your stream everyone understands you have to get healthy before doing anything else best of luck getting healthy man
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wow that sounds like a really rough experience. Hope everything is smooth from here on out and the worst is behind you.
Thankfully I have never had to go through an extended hospital stay like that before, I have a new appreciation for a couple of my friends I know who are nurses.
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Holy shit Chad. I genuinely will keep you close in my thoughts and I hope that these issues get sorted out one way or another. Best of luck on a speedy recovery, man. <3
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Hey man, sorry to hear about your experience. Hope you get better sooner than later!
I agree with you that hospitalized patients should always have someone with them, and you definitely are in control of your body in the hospital. As for the nurses, I believe it's the same in all hospitals, and I hope you took the time to complain to hospital management about it (writing a formal complaint or an evaluation form) to let the hospital know.
As for the eye, it depends what the 3 doctors have done, because it could be that you're seeing 3 different ophthalmologists and are doing the same thing, as, sadly, tests vary on each doctor but there's always a staple that all doctors do. There are many eye tests that range from simple physical eye examinations, refraction tests (cover one eye and make you read a Snellen chart), slit lamp examinations (shine a stapler-sized, not shaped light to literally check your eye surface), and even an eye ultrasound, among others. Of course these all have different indications for use.
In the end, people generally don't complain unless there's a reason to (even nerves can be valid, not saying you have just that, but that's on the doctor to figure out). But for any complaint, a general rule to help yourself (and your doctor before you see him/her) is to clarify:
1. Onset. When did this start? What were you doing when you noticed it start?
2. Location. Which eye? Just one, both, or alternating? Inside the eye like deep or on the surface?
3. Duration. How long does it last? How often does it occur?
4. Characteristic. What feeling is this exactly? Pressure, pain, numbness? Does it affect your vision? These all point towards different things.
5. Aggravating factors. What are you usually doing when this thing comes up? Is there a trigger?
6. Relieving factors. What makes it go away? Have you taken any meds for it?
7. Timing. When does it occur usually? During gaming, when you wake up, when doing nothing at all?
8. Severity. How bad is it? Does it make you teary-eyed, force you to close that eye, or is it tolerable?
I could go on, but I think I've babbled enough. Cheers man. My prayers to you.
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Seems like you're anxious because you feel you can't trust medical science/doctors after how they ignored your pain and how you were right. I can't really say anything to comfort you outside of: don't let your experience with one hospital ruin your outlook on all health science.
/armchair psychology
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I was watching a horror movie that takes place in the hospital and then I read this, and now I don't think I'm going to be able to sleep for a very long time.
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I really hope things get better man. No one deserves this, especially not you. Hang in there!
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About the eye...I was diagnosed with celiac disease 8 years ago, but bit took about 4 months of me feeling really bad to figure out what it was. One of my symptoms was really dry itchy eyes. I was putting eye drops in like every hour, and sometimes they were super sensitive to light, like I couldn't be outside without sunglasses.
Anyway I found out about celiac disease and stop eating gluten. My gut healed and my symptoms of malease went away, and my eyes stopped bugging me.
You may have some intestinal malabsorption from your recent adventures, and as a result, a vitamin deficiency. See if you can get that checked out, you may need a big boost of vitamin B and/or D, those are two common deficiencies that happen from malabsorption, and I believe both are somewhat important in eye health.
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Bosnia-Herzegovina439 Posts
GL. If you would take advice from a stranger please put your health and everything that means your well being on the first place then everything else.
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Your words really conveyed what an ordeal you went trough. You know it's bad when you're scared for your life. Wish you all the best Minigun, get well soon!
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It's really frustrating when doctors ask you how you feel and then doubt the answer... I wish you a speedy recovery.
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I don't really know what to say, but I hope that what happend to you and you warning others for the danger will help and prevent others getting as bad of a treatment as you got. I really hope that you can make as speedy of a recovery as possible and that you start getting better. Both physically and mentally, hope you can get back in the saddle and keep doing what you like(even if that isn't SC2) and that your eye problems gets figured out.
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Get well Minigun! It's all fine you couldn't play against Qxc. Don't push yourself to limits, give yourself time to recover and when you are ready do what ever you like if its starcraft or whatever.
You are best NA player imo and always enjoy watching you! GL HF
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Get well soon Chad and hope you find a treatment that works like some others have posted.
On May 16 2014 04:00 nkr wrote:
As someone who woke up during a surgery where they were sawing in my leg bones to treat my less than perfect legs, but not being able to move or speak but just enduring the pain, ending up with PTSD and all forms of mental issues resulting from it, I totally sympathise with your experience and pain. Stay strong.
Good lord... I hope you're at least financially set for life after that ordeal.
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Get well soon Chad!
Also, about that anxiety issue, just try to figure out what's wrong if you are in pain and see more than one doctor. I know people who tell you that it might be just in your brain or simply a consequence of the hospitalization can get frustrating, after all that happened you probably don't trust others with your health.
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Hey bro, i cant help with the first part, but as far as the anxiety goes, i too have experienced anxiety attacks. I know how you feel as far as that goes. I know its scary, and like you said it really does help to have someone by your side. Like you my mother was that person for me, and it really made me appreciate her and i realized i had taken her for granite. The first time it happened she stayed up with me all night talking about stuff until i fell asleep. I went to the hospital only to find out i was fine.
That was 2 years ago and i have been fine ever since. As you mentioned, acceptance is pretty important, and ive found so is laughing. My experiences have made me appreciate a good laugh so much more, not being afraid to laugh at myself has also helped me a great deal. Im sure it seems like the journey is long, but just take it a day at a time, and before you know it a month will pass, than a year and so on. Hope this helps bro, get well
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Wow what a nightmare. Really felt for you while reading that.
Those nurses (the ones who did not give a F about you) needs to get fired and replaced with compassionate nurses instead. I hope you recover fully! gl
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Get well soon, and continue to stay on top of your health situation! Your health is the foundation from which all your other joys/hobbies spring and it's worth taking care of. Hoping for a full recovery!
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Man, that is a horrible experience.. Hope you get well soon, all the best from the Netherlands!
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Hey man I hope you feel better!! Chron disease is really delicate condition I hope you take care well and take this time away to heal your eye and rest your heart, I will pray for you best I can do ^-^ dont forget to update us! and get well
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Jeez fuck. Hope you get well soon and grow stronger from this. All the best for you!
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That's terrible to hear Minigun! My father was recently in the hospital (for something much less serious) but he was mostly ignored while my mother wasn't there (thankfully she was able to be there most of the time). Its pretty awful that it goes down that way. Anyways, get well soon man!
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Holy crap, that's some serious shit.. O.O
I hope you feel better soon and get everything sorted out.
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Sucks, dude. I wish you didn't have to go through that but it seems you learned a lot from it, so at least there's that?
Get well soon, dude.
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I will be watching your stream for sure.
Take very good care of yourself and speed recovery!
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That blog touched me really hard. It was horrible to read.
Starcraft don't matter, your life does. We as a community can't help you and i'm sorry for this. You could run an empty stream i would be on it 24H/7 if it would help you financially or supportively.
I wish you all the best, the luck and whatever you need.
I strongly believe somewhere that TL is a family and that when we watch starcraft it's like we watching our children. I wish we could take care of our children better. I really hope you are going to get better.
Stay strong, Stay sharp and fuck starcraft, so no more excuse of not playing a game, we don't care. We care about your health. Get just well.
Sorry if it's not making good sense. It was an emotional response.
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Life is too short, get well and worry about everything else later. All the best Chad
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i don't believe that any progamer would willingly miss any game of this importance, and in your case, its fully understandable. please don't feel the need to apologise, as everyone else here has already mentioned, since there are legitimate circumstances which prevented you from showing up. get well soon, and i hope to see you challenging for wcs again in the near future
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I wish you the best. Going to write a blog about this with a bit more of my thoughts on the state of hospitals.
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horrible to hear you've had to go through this stuff. Chronic diseases are a really hard thing to come to grasps with.. And I wish you the best with that. I'm sure your stream will be just fine and your viewers will be loyal. Looking forward to the next time you're in good enough condition to fire it up. Thanks for sharing your struggles and letting people into your life.
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Chad, I hope all the best for you! You have been and will continue to be my favorite streamer. Whenever you're up for it I'll be tuning in! Love you man! Get well soon! =D
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those are some terrible nurses... i've had surgery before, too, so i (kinda) know how shitty it is (even worse when the nurses are terrible). get well soon
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fuck that's harsh!
hope you get better soon!
GL
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On May 16 2014 02:02 ROOTMinigun wrote:
I'm also a little worried about this feeling/pressure i have on my eye, I'm not sure if it's dryness or what. I've been to 3 eye drs, and they all say my eye is "healthy" but something isn't right, and nausea and lightheartedness are accompanying it. I'm afraid it's not going to get figured out, and that's where the majority of my anxiety attacks are coming from. I see a neurologist soon, and if he doesn't have any ideas either I don't know what I am going to do. I'm starting to think it's all in my head and I'm crazy, but it can't be....
Hi Minigun,
Don't know If you are going to read this, but I went through a similar phase: I went through a whole month of having the feeling of being slightly drunk, like if I was just a bit dizzy. This caused nausea and I always felt my eyes were dry and tired.
I get sinus infections really often, mostly because my nose was broken more times than I can count, so I thought it was that. I went to see one of the best doctors in that domain, specialized in the internal ear, which I though was affected by a sinus infection. I wont go into the whole psychological thing, but thanks to spending time on the internet, taking my temperature 10 times a day, I basically though I had aids or cancer or whatever. This got worse when no one could understand what I had, and I had a shit load of tests done.
Turns out It was indeed coming from my eyes: Spending 10-12 hours a day on the computer (work + play), isn't very good for the eye... As you spend long hours at the same focus distance, the muscle of your eyes get weaker, and It gets more complicated for them to focus at different distances. I don't actually know how this is called in English, but basically you need to go through eye re-education (painless and Easy) to get those eyes back into shape.
There is a pretty easy test to see if you have a problem like that: place your finger at like 10-15 cm from your eyes and then move it slowly all around so that your eyes do a complete circle. If there is a spot where your vision goes double (for me it was top right) then you know what your problem is.
Dunno if this helps but I went through a lot of anxiety before someone told me what was up ....
Good luck with the rest!
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The most important thing is that you are getting better Minigun. There might be some people that might leave because of inactive but I for one will donate to you as soon as I can. What we all need to do is help everyone.
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Damn man, really shitty to hear that, but like a bunch of people said, health is the most important, so do whatever you have to do to maintain it.
Glad to see you're still kicking and thank god for your mom. Try to keep us updated as things move along!
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Is morphine like a last-resort? Why didn't you get any of that?
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Thank you for all of the responses. I cannot reply to all of them but I can guarantee I read each one.
My stomach is healing up nicely. My mental state is my biggest concern. There is just a lot to deal with right now and having to drop two of my three classes when I was getting straight a's was probably the biggest let down for myself. It just seems every time I try to finish it, something ends up happening with this stupid disease.
That and the withdrawals from the medicine, my anxiety is through the roof...It's just a lot to take in right now. Reading this stuff helps though. I love you guys.
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Get well soon! Keep your head up!
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Get well Chad, you're a champ.
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Shit that sounds so rough chad. You were always one of my favourite streamers to watch and still will be whenever you decide to return. Take it easy and rest up! Get well soon!
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On May 17 2014 08:07 Plansix wrote:
Get well Chad, you're a champ.
agreed, Chad is a motherfucking champ.
On the painkillers end, my father is an anesthesiologist, and from stuff he's told me, (I am no doctor to be clear) they don't like giving out painkillers because they are highly addictive. Its not a faux pas to give them to people in the hospital, especially if they are in pain, but giving them frequently is not preferable because they can lead to dependency. This didn't seem to be one of those times though, since you were in 10/10 pain which calls for high level pain killers.
I am so sorry you had to go through that dude, you deserve much better than that treatment .
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Pretty chilling read, but ecstatic that you are improving now Chad. I'll emphasize some more that you're a champ!!!
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On May 17 2014 05:21 KenZee wrote:
Is morphine like a last-resort? Why didn't you get any of that?
Because the medicine he got Dilaudid ( Hydromorphone ) is iirc around 30x stronger than morphine and work on the opiate receptors in a slightly different way.
I was going to write a blog response to this but I might as well just post it here. I have written a few blog posts on my life and illness but never quite my experiences in hospitals. Miniguns experience isn't unique and happens quite often. I am a bit older than him I believe I am 29 and have had chronic Pancreatitus since I was 15. I have had multiple surgeries and procedures including a month long stay in the hospital when I got a blood clot in my lung because of my port a catheter ( basically a permanent IV site in my chest for easy access that runs up into my jugular vein.) And even when you have a legitamite reason to get pain medicine doctors are scared or dont care. Then nurses are understaffed and have to deal with shit all the time. I have waited 16 hours in a ER to just see a doctor in pain crying on the floor ( I suggest you dont go to The University of Cincinnati Hospital ER) I have waited much longer than minigun to get meds already orderded by a doctor. And I have even had a nurse refuse to inject me because she thought I was getting to much medicine. Its been 14 years since I have been sick. I have been in and out of hospitals for close to half my life now. My pain tolerance is huge I broke my ankle a few years ago and the doctor told me he didnt think my ankle was broken because I didnt look to be in pain. I get huge doses from the few doctors that know me. After 14 years I have gotten to know quite a few of them. I just wanted to back up his story. I have more to say and it is like this all over the world I have been in ERs in 3 different countries and almost all are the same understaffed and nervous about giving pain medicine even with a legitimate need for it.
Anyway get better. Hope you feel better.
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Looks like your gonna need a shield upgrade :D
Get well soon man.
FYI ... If you played terran you would be in my top 10 favorite players :D
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No need to apologize to any one,
You have been through more in the past few weeks than some of us will go through in our entire lives!
Stay strong and get well!
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Agree with you 100% Mr. Chad. You have to be assertive and downright demanding in situations like these. It's amazing how sometimes people just don't care and/or put forth the effort. Sorry for you troubled stay at the hospital and hope you get to feeling better!
I've had some anxiety issues in the past, definitely something you can't just get over. I always told myself things could always be worse, and eventually things did get a lot better, with some luck and hard work contributing of course.
Good Luck!! ♥
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I hope you get better soon! Best wishes for a speedy recovery
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On May 16 2014 04:09 Komentaja wrote:
First of all I'm gonna say that it's funny (and lovable) that you ended this tale with a "sorry"!
But you have to realize that with some diseases, you are going to be miserable. There's no getting around it. Pain meds can get you addicted and (believe it or not) in a worse condition in less than a year. Especially morphine. They can also interfere and combine with the other drugs you are taking (you mentioned one) and screw you up in that way.
I'd be feeling just as terrible as you were I'm sure but still, show some respect for the nurses/doctors. Mothers go through childbirth with horrible pain still to this day for a reason. Do not demand drugs vehemently, just keep telling the doctors/nurses if you're suffering. It's their area of expertise, not yours.
There was no interference with any drugs I was taking. Crohn's disease has a decent quality of life once it's controlled. I don't have to be miserable...
I do however have massive amounts of respect for nurses/doctors. Most have extremely long shifts, and do amazing things for many people. 50% of my nurses there were amazing, and I requested them every time I had a chance. 50% however were awful. It's not not respecting them, they were just awful at their job.
Yeah I'm sorry but simply saying "hey guys I'm still in some pain and suffering a bit", WILL GET YOU NO WHERE. I learned this. They do not know how much pain you are in, only you do. You have to be your own advocate. If you are not happy with the pain meds they are trying to give you, you have to be vocal. If it had been up to them I would have been on oral dilauded for the majority of the time there, which did not even touch my pain. I don't know if it's because my gut wasn't digesting, or if everything was just sitting in my stomach (I threw up large amounts of pure liquids a few times) and that's why oral meds didn't work well or what.... Sure mothers go through childbirth with horrible pain. My nights composed of staring at the clock to see when two hours was up so I could get another dilauded shot, I slept in one hour and 1/2 blocks, because that's how long the pain med lasted for. My tolerance for pain is not low, I have had severe crohn's disease for four years and taken 0 pain pills for it other than Tylenol. I am not new to pain.
I think that is horrible advice you are giving. They don't know what you feel. Pain meds are there to prevent you from suffering, and some nurses were denying me relief, from what was the worst pain of my entire life.
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So sad to hear about your terrible experiences Chad, i really wish you all the best and that you recover better than ever! <3
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Man you've been through a lot. I myself have severe panic attacks/anxiety/really bad depression and I know exactly what it's like to deal with that kind of thing. I had to stop going to highschool it got so bad (they let me finish from home). Now I'm pretty much homebound but I've read a lot of books on economics and the stock market and I've started taking courses online. These kind of mental problems are very hard to deal with because no one can ever understand unless they've felt it as well.
Having to go through what you did on top of what I have, I can't even imagine.
You are a very strong person Chad and you will do great things over the course of your life. Keep your chin up, this was just a setback.
Hoping that you'll feel better soon,
Stephen.
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Hey man hope you feel better. I haven't read other people's comments but about your anxiety.. I suffered from severe anxiety myself (took regular medication and my mother's severe panic attack medicine for about a year). I felt it really helped to talk to other people who were in the same situation. It was relieving to hear that others are going through the same thing and I was able to cope better with my own situation (especially if you think it really is all in your head). Just my two cents. Again, best of luck with all you are going through!
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They put me on a minigun of antibiotics and pain meds.
How terrifying and sad. We hope and pray for the best. Get well soon.
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Get well Chad.
Ironically, I'm going through a similar situation right now so I know how bad it can be. I was diagnosed with viral encephalitis (inflammation of the brain) in early April after suffering a series of really bad unexpected seizures (I'm not epileptic).
I probably didn't go through the same amount of pain that you did but a month in a half later I still have a long road to recovery ahead and I'm still unsure if I'll fully recover cognitively and be able to go back to school and work this fall.
I had to drop all my classes in the spring despite being a couple weeks away from completion and quit my school and summer jobs. Now I'm going to be in debt, behind on graduation and might never be as well as I was cognitively. Anyways, I hope you recovery swiftly, Chad. Keep your head up.
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Very captivating read Minigun, I hope you get better soon!
About the eye, not sure if I should write this, but here is a thought relating to this based on my experience. My girlfriend which I have been together with for +5 years is almost continuously having pains to a lesser or greater extent, within a large range of different symptoms. What many people question (myself included) is how is it possible for one person to be this sick all the time without having a "proper" diagnosis.
The first thing that comes to one's mind is that it is a psychological cause behind it. After this stretch of time I have however observed many things that I feel are hard to explain from a pure psychological view, such as her ability to attract a number of different infectious diseases (many of which I never heard of before and that mainly infects people 70+) or that she get pains in her muscles to the extent where she drops minor objects or migraine attacks that causes her to repeatedly vomit and so forth.
On the other hand I noticed that she often get her pain/injuries in streaks. Meaning that if she start to get bad she usually end up having a great variety of other pain issues in "pain periods". With this usually also follows that she gets depressed /sad /stressed partly due to the pain itself and partly because her inability to do the things she wants / aim to do (sometimes for months on end). Reversely there are periods where she is a lot healthier and more happy (which suspiciously tends to correlate with summer).
So I have these two extremes that both could explain her state. But what I observe in the end is always a blurry picture of the two, where it is impossible for me to untwine the cause to her pain. The two sides always co-exist and enhances each other, living in pain causes you to be depressed/stressed and being depressed/stressed/inactive enhances the pain you experience and create seeds for new pain.
The conclusion that I reached is that is often pointless to try separate them because the two are always entwined with each other and are equally real for the person experiencing them. You can never experience reality outside of your mind, that means that reality is whatever your mind tells you it is. Hence in the matter of pain is the only difference is how/if it can be treated.
So what I wanted to say in this very lengthy manner, is that from an outsiders point of view I think that your pain/stress/fear and general horrible situation in the last month seems a more likely explanation for the feeling you have behind your eye than the happenstance that you would get a seemingly unrelated disorder to your eye at the same time as all of this is going on.
Of course you should check it up once or twice again if it worries you. But if they really don't find anything I would start considering the possibility that it could be a creation of your mind. And that is very far from being crazy! I mean some people have bad hearing, other people cant see certain colors, people that lose their limbs can still feel them and so on, my point is that they all experience "reality" in a manner inconsistent with most of us, yet you would never argue that they are "crazy". And I dont see how this would be any different. It just means that should not be to stressed out if they cant find a cause for it, as it then is likely to go away once you get back to your everyday state of mind.
Hoped it was some food for thought, if nothing else I got to practice my english writing ^.^
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Get better soon. Everyone's hoping for your swift and healthy return.
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I recently had a hospital experience too. Not remotely as severe as yours, but the first in a long time for me. Stomach trouble and they misdiagnosed me completely. Fortunately the issue itself was very minor, but it still sucked and my anxiety was really bad for a while after that. Can only imagine how bad yours must be.
Glad to hear you had a great advocate with you in your mom. Advocates are so important and you're totally right, not having one can be a very real and serious problem. Also, if your anxiety stays high, there's no shame in seeing a clinical psychologist, especially after what you went through. It's sometimes stigmatized but it shouldn't be, and it might really help.
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i think i have the same problem! Doctor said i should just take warm baths twice a day . . does a real good job when u start throwing up for 3-4 hrs staright
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I have Crohn's as well and had a bladder fistula (was on Pentasa at the time and did not work at all) had surgery very similar to yours where they removed several inches of my large and small intestines. I had no issues or complications and went on Humira shortly afterwards. Basically, the combination of the two have caused the disease to pretty much completely go into remission for the last five years or so. So things can get better. Just make sure you pay attention to your body and be careful for the little flair ups. I find stress is typically the cause of them for me, so I just try to take it easy for a few days after and things improve. As far as diet I can eat and drink pretty what much ever I want, but high fiber diets (a lot of greens and legumes) works best for me. In short if you find a doctor you like and communicate well with him/her and eat right and take care of yourself things can probably improve a lot.
For the first few years after I was diagnosed I did not really manage it that well and I consistently felt really bad. I am 6'1" and was down to 133 lbs at one point, was skin and bones, am now about 185 with just a little bit of a beer belly. I really gained a new perspective on things after the surgery and I feel like my life has been given back to me.
Feel free to PM me if you have any questions or want to talk about anything at all
-Erich
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God... just got a trauma from hospitals by reading this.
Glad to hear you're getting better.
Wish you well.
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Wow. Poor Chad. Got love for Chad. Glad to see he is doing better!!! <3
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On May 17 2014 15:21 Onegu wrote:Show nested quote +On May 17 2014 05:21 KenZee wrote:
Is morphine like a last-resort? Why didn't you get any of that? Because the medicine he got Dilaudid ( Hydromorphone ) is iirc around 30x stronger than morphine and work on the opiate receptors in a slightly different way. Anyway get better. Hope you feel better.
Dude what
How could there be any pain whatsoever if it's 30x stronger than morphine? Unless it just wears off quickly or something.
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It's horrible what you've been through in the hospital. It's almost the same everwhere you go, if it's a restaurant a jewelry shop or sth or a hospital, if you are not 30 years+ or look like it you'll get no respect from anyone. It's the same here in Germany everywhere you go and I can feel with you on this, especially with the nurse/doctor stuff, been through it myself a few years back with a surgery.
I hope you get well soon and focus on your health before you focus on sc2 or anything else. Your fans will be there when you're better.
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god damn...
Thanks for sharing.
I have no idea about the eye, but it's probably because of the pressure/pain/tension. I had some constant pressure/light pain and I would feel my eye and head like they are under pressure. Sometimes my sight would go quite bad in a very short time and then recover to perfect in 15 minutes... it's very frightening to lose sight that fast and that badly.
I went to an eye doctor, he said the eyes are fine and it's normal for my age to get some eye problems (even though I had perfect eyesight and was like 23), he said it's probably from being allergic to something (was spring). I was 100% sure it's not allergy since I never have allergy problems and I got tested several years ago. I told him everything, and he was still talking lightly and joking and saying it's nothing. Fucker. The best part is, my mom said he's one of the best and people are saying he's a good doctor.
A while after that my sight went from perfect to bad in a very short time. So I completely agree with you when you say you have to be assertive with doctors/nurses, especially if you're kinda introverted (like me). If I had been adamant about it, I would probably not have lost my sight. I had a similar experience with a dentist. Next time I go to a fucking doctor, I'll rape them like I'm 3 ranks/leagues above them. Fucking idiots, they should listen to people when they say something, especially young people, since they don't have a reason to semi-bullshit like some older people do. (Some doctors are good though...)
I guess they're too used to people crying wolf all the time for everything, that they're not ready when the real wolf comes...
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Holy shit man don't even apologize for something like that... I would also recommend you never going to that angel of death hospital again by the sound of it..
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On May 20 2014 15:54 quirinus wrote:god damn... Thanks for sharing. I have no idea about the eye, but it's probably because of the pressure/pain/tension. I had some constant pressure/light pain and I would feel my eye and head like they are under pressure. Sometimes my sight would go quite bad in a very short time and then recover to perfect in 15 minutes... it's very frightening to lose sight that fast and that badly. I went to an eye doctor, he said the eyes are fine and it's normal for my age to get some eye problems (even though I had perfect eyesight and was like 23), he said it's probably from being allergic to something (was spring). I was 100% sure it's not allergy since I never have allergy problems and I got tested several years ago. I told him everything, and he was still talking lightly and joking and saying it's nothing. Fucker. The best part is, my mom said he's one of the best and people are saying he's a good doctor. A while after that my sight went from perfect to bad in a very short time. So I completely agree with you when you say you have to be assertive with doctors/nurses, especially if you're kinda introverted (like me). If I had been adamant about it, I would probably not have lost my sight. I had a similar experience with a dentist. Next time I go to a fucking doctor, I'll rape them like I'm 3 ranks/leagues above them. Fucking idiots, they should listen to people when they say something, especially young people, since they don't have a reason to semi-bullshit like some older people do. (Some doctors are good though...) I guess they're too used to people crying wolf all the time for everything, that they're not ready when the real wolf comes...
May I ask what is wrong with your eye?
I'm seriously concerned about it and no one is taking me seriously and it's pissing me off. There's something wrong and no one seems to care...
It's mostly the cause of my anxiety attacks. I feel it all the time and my body is telling me there is something wrong with my eye but I've seen 3 eye doctors....and I just saw an eye surgeon yesterday. I'm beginning to feel like I'm crazy...
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I can completely empathize with Minigun as I almost died having severe appendicitis. The head-surgeon at the hospital said he had never seen an appendix of that size (about 10-15cm) and was baffled how I wasn't in severe pain for many months. He told me I must have had it for at least 6 months, which is just insane because as you probably know, if the appendix bursts, you either get rushed to a hospital to have your intestines cleaned out or you die an agonizing death.
Well, actually I was in pain but it wasn't constant so I stupidly ignored it. I would get maybe 1-2 severe pain episodes a week. But suddenly, I just couldn't physically take a single bite, not even soup so was rushed to the hospital. The surgery went fine but the pain after surgery was something absolutely unbelievable. 10/10 pain as Minigun said. And after that traumatic experience I have also been experiencing the same symptoms as Minigun says (stress, anxiety), which I never really had until the surgery.
Oh and all that happened the day after my dad's funeral.
Fun times.
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Not sure if this has been mentioned before about the eye issue, but:
In addition to systemic and gastrointestinal involvement, Crohn's disease can affect many other organ systems.[30] Inflammation of the interior portion of the eye, known as uveitis, can cause blurred vision and eye pain, especially when exposed to light (photophobia).[31] Inflammation may also involve the white part of the eye (sclera), a condition called episcleritis.[31] Both episcleritis and uveitis can lead to loss of vision if untreated.
Source: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Crohn's_disease
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So glad to hear you're ok minigun! doctors tend to ignore patient's complaints only because there are just so many people out there complaining about every little discomfort... the same thing happened to me last summer too hope u recover soon, and able to come back stronger and better!
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Praying for you Minigun, you're gonna recover from this and these infections are gonna have to leave. you are an overcomer
Romans 8:37: Yet in all these things we are more than conquerors through Him who loved us.
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Take it easy and get better.
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Holy fuck that sounds horrible... I have a friend with crohn's disease but he never really told me much about it, and I never asked; I had no idea it could get that bad. I hope you're able to make a full recovery and get back into shape so you can kick some ass. Gogo Chad motherfucking power of protoss Jones!!!!!!!
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Hey Chad!
I still remember your streams from early WoL, I loved watching you play being #1 in NA and all. I deeply symphathize with you, and even though my health issues are really nothing compared to yours, i want to give some perspective, i would really love to help even a little bit.
I had a couple of chronic diseases, last one was a chronic prostate infection. Not that much pain, but after a couple of months it really wears you down. The doctor gave me antibiotics, 2 weeks later just dismissed me saying 'yeah that will stay with you for life, nothing to be done about it." That is exactly the stuff you want to hear, and actually i think he was right; if i had believed him i am pretty sure i would still struggle with that stuff. But i didn't, i read up on the disease and found out most of those so called prostate infections have muscular causes and strongly correlate with stress. It kind of struck me how your condition took a turn for the worse just as you had your important match with qxc. Could of course be a coincidence. I have the strong belief that your attitude towards your body is extremely important, and some time ago i changed my attitude concerning health and the body. You are young, and your body functions great; even with your issues, maybe 99% work fantastic. Nothing in science comes even close to creating something as amazing as pretty much any organ in your body. We think of ourselves as minds, emplaced in those fallible vessels that help us to get from a to b. Once trust is lost, many problems can arise. Of all the problems your body faces, it solves easily 99.9% by itself, most of them without anybody noticing.
I still find it difficult at times to trust my health, and that leads in my case to overly worrying, and paying attention to what is going on with it and usually exascerbating the symptoms. But i learned to push my body and marvel at what it can do. We are resilient creatures, we really are. You are a highly functional being, you are intelligent, good looking and young. You managed to become top 0.001 % player at the 2nd hardest RTS ever. In that sense your body is a fine tuned racecar, highly volatile and sensitive to even slight disturbances. Right now you are obviously in crisis and that should be your main concern, but in my mind looking for someone to solve whats wrong with your body, because your body is by far the best tool to heal itself. Obviously that doesn't mean you should not go to doctors etc., the guy recommending a functional approach makes a lot of sense to me. But I feel doctors just help you and your body to find a viable strategy to cope.
As scary the shit is you just went through, i believe you can at least help yourself a great deal by decreasing anxiety and stress. I love seeing you play, but i cant see anyone accomplishing anything in this game without being completely wired and tense (MAYBE if your name is stephano). I honestly don't see how playing sc2 at this level could help you with your health issues, but you be the judge. You are a great guy, sorry for the wordy post and get well!
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Maybe a form of Post-traumatic stress... I'm a doctor, so, you can ask if you have any question, at your service.
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I'm talking about your eye.
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Chad,
I hope you get a chance to read this. I work in a hospital as a Cardiac Sonographer, basically i perform Ultrasound Imaging on someone's heart, similar to when a pregnant women gets an ultrasound of her baby. I can tell you 100% i understand and AGREE WITH everything you said about hospitals. It is extremely sad to see that some of these RN's are even hired! As i was reading your post i cringed at the pain you were in and was just as pissed off with how the Dr. responded to your pain and how long it took for someone to come and help you when you asked for it. That is completely unacceptable. What i would recommend doing and its completely up to you, is writing a letter and sending it to the hospital. I would send the same letter 4 times. One to the Chief Executive Officer (CEO), Chief Nursing Officer (CNO), Quality Director, and the Nursing Supervisor or Manager on the hospital floor you were on. I could see how you kind of are done with the hospital and dont want to waste you time writing out your frustrations but trust me... IT HELPS in two big ways. It gets the matter talked about with the whole executive team and it helps get rid of incompetent nurses (If you remember the nurses names write them). Chad if you do decide to do this i'm extremely confident that your specific matter will be used as an example on how to NOT treat patients and to give you care that you rightfully deserve. I will be willing to get that information to you... give me name of hospital you were at in a personal message and i can get all the info you need if you want to pursue this. Anyway bro i'm sorry you went through so much pain! It breaks my heart man!!
As far as what your feeling with your eye's my friend had very, VERY similar feeling situation to your's. He plays starcraft as well but he would always play in the dark (As i think you do). His eye's started getting bad and when he saw his eye Dr. the Dr. told him he needed to take a 2 week break from computer games and anytime he got on the computer he needed to have the light on or atleast a lamp with good lighting. Im no Dr. but i personally would transition into better lighting when it comes to playing Starcraft 2 It really does strain your eyes when you play in complete darkness. My friends eyes are slightly better but whenever he is using an electronic device he has to have sufficient lighting.
Hope you get a chance to read and sorry again for what happened to you!! Hope you come back even stronger and heal well!
Rey
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Chad!!!! We missed you man!!!! OMG the stuff u've been through....horrible, horrible experience! =( stay strong Chad!!!
---> Dude I can't help you with your pain but in regards to you missing out on your straight A's, I can tell you that I know how awful you must be feeling. I was in my last year of law school when i broke my arm playing soccer (over-extended my elbow). Had to rest for half a year. It sucks so much! But there's always light after the dark days. Always try to find peace and love in the little things in life and as time passes by, I'm sure u'll eventually get those straight A's that u damn well deserve. For now, just don't give up on seeing more doctors to figure out the problem with your eyes. Maybe take a mini-break from sc2 for awhile (pun not intended). Get some much needed time with nature together with your loved ones. That'll take care of your stress levels fo sho. Missed your awesome stream dude. Hang in there Chad. For Aiur. We're with you. <3
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Good God. I don't even... Uh... get well and then get a lawyer.
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Come post on JSP some time, we still love you.
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i'm so sorry you had to experience that in the hospital dude. you're a great player and one of the best personalities this community has. i'll still support your stream. i hope you stay healthy, and enjoy life to the fullest. def keep playing sc2, i assure you, you have the support here; i had no idea what you've been going through, so thanks for the update.
stay in touch <3
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my wife almost died a few years ago because i thought she is in good hands at the hospital. i swear, this will never happen again, if it ever will happen again, i don't leave her alone anymore, until i know, she is in good shape again.
i wish you all the best minigun.
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Just read every single word. This whole experience was heart wrenching. I truly hope your health can stay consistently high. You are important to Starcraft and the community and I will be sure to cripple my support for you as a fan.
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My best wishes Chad, keep getting better.
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didn't read anything but your post Chad, but just wanted to say that I hope you stay strong and get through this crap. I had a really serious issue revolving around a blood clot in my subclavian vein in my left arm (thoracic outlet syndrome, resulting from heavy weight lifting). fortunately my hospital stay was great, i had amazing care the entire time but the effects of repeated surgeries and damage to multiple vessels had me not only believing i would never lift again but that I was doomed to pain and discomfort (constant swelling and drainage issues in the arm) for the rest of my life, as well as high risk of reclotting the region of the vessel that was damaged. i suffered from panic attacks and anxiety issues for nearly 8 months after that, but i made it through and reached a level of health surpassing the shape i was in prior to the diagnosis. stay strong man, you'll get through it and it'll all just be a bad memory
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Well, I'm late to the party, I blame splitting off liquiddota =P
But, for what it's worth coming from a random guy who you've never met on the internet I wish you the best Chad. You've always been a fun, nice guy and going through this sort of thing isn't fair. No one knows your body like you know your body and if something is off or you're in unbelievable pain you do need to speak up about it. Your health is more important than anything, never apologize for putting your health first. The people that matter will understand and when you do decide to come back you'll find open arms.
Keep fighting the good fight and get well soon.
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On May 20 2014 22:48 ROOTMinigun wrote:Show nested quote +On May 20 2014 15:54 quirinus wrote:god damn... Thanks for sharing. I have no idea about the eye, but it's probably because of the pressure/pain/tension. I had some constant pressure/light pain and I would feel my eye and head like they are under pressure. Sometimes my sight would go quite bad in a very short time and then recover to perfect in 15 minutes... it's very frightening to lose sight that fast and that badly. I went to an eye doctor, he said the eyes are fine and it's normal for my age to get some eye problems (even though I had perfect eyesight and was like 23), he said it's probably from being allergic to something (was spring). I was 100% sure it's not allergy since I never have allergy problems and I got tested several years ago. I told him everything, and he was still talking lightly and joking and saying it's nothing. Fucker. The best part is, my mom said he's one of the best and people are saying he's a good doctor. A while after that my sight went from perfect to bad in a very short time. So I completely agree with you when you say you have to be assertive with doctors/nurses, especially if you're kinda introverted (like me). If I had been adamant about it, I would probably not have lost my sight. I had a similar experience with a dentist. Next time I go to a fucking doctor, I'll rape them like I'm 3 ranks/leagues above them. Fucking idiots, they should listen to people when they say something, especially young people, since they don't have a reason to semi-bullshit like some older people do. (Some doctors are good though...) I guess they're too used to people crying wolf all the time for everything, that they're not ready when the real wolf comes... May I ask what is wrong with your eye? I'm seriously concerned about it and no one is taking me seriously and it's pissing me off. There's something wrong and no one seems to care... It's mostly the cause of my anxiety attacks. I feel it all the time and my body is telling me there is something wrong with my eye but I've seen 3 eye doctors....and I just saw an eye surgeon yesterday. I'm beginning to feel like I'm crazy...
Teeth problems combined with high blood/eye pressure and general bad health. I'm lucky because I think the sight will improve once I fix my overall health a bit (it got better for a short time a couple of times, so I'm lucky), but stuff in life keeps me busy... I guess I might be somewhat avoiding it, but I should be taking care of it asap... and I stopped training/doing sports for a long time, so that doesn't help at all.
I don't know much about your eye problems, but my idea is if you keep other problems in check or fix them and improve your overall health, a lot of other problems and symptoms will go away or lessen.
Good luck to you, I hope you're getting better!
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I really hope you will get well soon, I'm praying for you. Cheer for your mother, this experience must be difficult for her.
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Sounds like Obamacare is working as intended! Aren't you thankful?
Hope you get better soon dood!
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Hope you recover quickly, and thanks for sharing your experience. I completely agree with what you said about hospital nurses being incompetent, my mother recently went through heart surgery. Her experience afterwards while recovering was similar. I just cannot believe how some of these nurses keep their jobs.
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I really hope that you are getting better Chad. I do follow your stream whenever I can and I do enjoy your style a lot. Please make sure that your health comes first and take all the time you need to get really well.
All the best from Ireland!
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Dominican Republic614 Posts
hope you are better now, but can you let us know what causes this?
did the doctor tell you what you cant eat? what triggers this deseases?
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Wow, that was an unexpected read for sure. I will keep that in mind the next time I know someone is in the hospital. I also assumed that hospitals had good care overall.
I look forward to your stream and I wish you the best of luck with WCS, SC2, your disease, and more.
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Chad, you're the man for being strong. It's an honor that you share your times with us. You can count on us to stick with you and show support. Everyone wishes for you to get better with a speedy recovery. We'll be rooting for you.
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Best of luck to you on your recovery. As you can see everyone on TL is behind you. Come out stronger on the other side
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best of luck minigun, hope you are doing well and getting better with each passing day
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I sincerely wish you the best of luck for the future, i feel really bad for you and hope you get better soon!
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Get well brother Nothing else matters. Have a speedy recovery
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On May 20 2014 22:48 ROOTMinigun wrote:
May I ask what is wrong with your eye?
I'm seriously concerned about it and no one is taking me seriously and it's pissing me off. There's something wrong and no one seems to care...
It's mostly the cause of my anxiety attacks. I feel it all the time and my body is telling me there is something wrong with my eye but I've seen 3 eye doctors....and I just saw an eye surgeon yesterday. I'm beginning to feel like I'm crazy...
Hey Chad, sorry to hear about your experience. Reading it really will make me be more assertive and proactive around doctors, as I also tend to just trust in them and in what they say more than I should.
With respect to your eye, it really sounds like a psychological/stress-induced problem. This is most likely why eye doctors are not able to diagnose you. Severe stress can cause significant health issues, especially pressure around the head area and/or headaches. You also mention that the pressure is tied to your anxiety attacks. For this, you may want to consult a psychologist, especially in the wake of the extreme trauma you have undergone in the past couple of months.
I wish you all the best, and get better soon.
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