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So again I feel a bit sheepish that this decision came right after the post asking for advice on writing these battle reports that I've been writing for a while... but to cut to the chase, I'm going to quit really playing SC2.
No, I'm not saying I'm never going to touch SC2 again. I'll still play casually, and probably will keep supporting Esports scenes and such. However, yesterday I was thinking about shit, and came to the conclusion that I need to stop playing SC2 so seriously. I've used so much time on wishing I could improve, get to Masters, and just generally practicing. I don't think these are stupid things to do, quite the opposite if you really love the game. But I honestly don't play SC2 to enjoy playing it anymore. It's sometimes as if I have hopes to become a pro or something, just blindly practicing to get better, but at the end of the day nothing has changed. I didn't play for fun, I didn't play for a concrete purpose. I sorta just played.
Being in high school, I still have a lot of time to think/act on what to do for my future, but recently the little passion that I have within me for creating video games was rekindled. I love video games. I always have. And I've also had a fantasy to create games for a living for the longest time. But how can I even hope to get a job in making games if I don't actually spend my stupid time trying to make them? I instead waste away my time playing a game that i don't even play for the enjoyment. I just play it because that's what I do. And now I need to change my focus to do programming and such, whatever i can. Playing SC2 just to play it isn't going to get me anywhere, while programming and doing what I love to do very well may.
I do like writing these battle reports, and I think that I will continue on with those. BUT. I won't be doing these daily anymore, since that takes up a ton of time (both to actually enough to have a good game and to write up a battle report that's worth shit). Writing weekly will be more manageable, and since I have more time I might also be able to up the quality of the reports.
But yeah... I just can't play SC2 anymore without being so half-assed serious about it. It eats away at my time and I don't even enjoy playing it so much. I love the game, don't get me wrong. But I don't have fun. All of the time I play SC2, if I used to that start working on my own project to make some small video game, I'm sure that it would turn out wonderfully. I have such desires of making games, and this may be a step in the right direction. Although it's very hard to make myself change, especially for the better, it finally is time for me to just let it go.
God I feel like I'm so bad at writing stuff when i just list off my thoughts as they go... Once again I'm not totally gone, but I'm just distancing myself from SC2 because I think I need to do it.
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See you next time!
 
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Yeah, if playing the game begins to feel more like work or an obligation than something you want to do for fun, that's a sign to at least take a break if not quit entirely. My advice would be to take a break for a bit, and stop doing the battle reports if it feels like an obligation to do them. If you still don't feel like playing SC2, you could try a race switch, which has the double benefit of being new, and also you expect to suck, thus lowering expectations and instantly making the game less serious.
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I had that exact feeling a month ago and just kinda stopped SC2. I only play like 1 game per week just to make sure I can still play the game if I ever want to.
The game just eat up so much time and attention. You need to play and study your game and watch tournaments and read stuff up etc. and if you are casual with the game, you ain't going to be any good and can't enjoy any matches because you have experienced a higher level.
I hope you will still do some battle report though, they were great
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I was seriously into broodwar from about 2001 til about 2008-09 and I had played it off and on before and after that. It was my passion, my antidrug, my competitive outlet, my online friends, my gateway to forums and knowledge, esports, etc. I played ridiculous amounts of the game and then sc2 came out and squashed it all away. Sc2 took over and was fun for about a year or so because of all the patching and novelty. Even though deep down we all knew the game engine was weird and the game wasn't as deep or interesting. I rarely play sc2 and bw is long gone. I rarely even watch any esports anymore. It's all good.
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I've been noticing you ever since you began writing battle reports (May or June was it?). Before you, there were others here on TL who set out on the journey that you set out of writing a "daily progress blog". I don't recall single one of them lasting more than a week, if that. I always wondered "how long is this guy gonna keeping doing this daily battle report thingie?" And to be honest, you lasted FAR longer than I expected, you came FAR farther than most. As someone who have written battle report blogs in the past (check out my blogs) I know how time consuming it is to write one, much less if you want to write a good one about a good game. Although I don't play or watch sc2, I have a great deal of respect to people who write battle reports, and you sir have earned mine, for whatever that's worth.
Just want to say good job and congrats. You came far man, you came very far.
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Well we should always try to remind ourselves we play it for fun.
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id like to say i still play this for fun but do you know what really takes the fun out of it all . . the chat. Why cant you disable ALL ingame chat? What gets me more mad is reading idiotic lines from the opp if im winning or losing. i shouldnt care, i dont really but no matter what is said i feel i need to respond and its all futile. i just dont want to see any in game chat aT ALL this would improve the experience for me 100%. its all a game, bronze masters . .does it matter? No of course it doesnt. Even looking at the pro scene its not THAT lucrative considering the up and away kind of lifestyle and coinflippy styles. Anyway i digress, its only a agame, if ur lucky to get it quickly and progress, excellent! if not, if gives you something to play for. My fear is that if i did reach masters . . what then? All i know is ill have to play a hell of a lot more to maintain it and get up that ladder . . that doesnt sound all that appealing to me
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So who's the girl?
Haha  I really enjoyed reading these from time to time. I admire your dedication to this blog and it was fun learning about some gameplay strategies through a source other than VODs.
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Anyone can start a project, but it takes a lot more to maintain it. Props to you for going as long as you did.
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Noooooo, I wanted to see you hit Masters. 
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Good call, I dropped it too for the same reasons. Needed something to fill the gap, and Dota 2 was there for me. Maybe you'll find something else.
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Yea, I've stopped playing less, I realized that the game itself isn't that fun and the fun comes from 1v1 competition so I have started focusing on games that require less throughput (LoL/Dota). I personally prefer Dota but don't really play it right now because it doesn't have a ladder which is a deal breaker for me so I am laddering on LoL and having way more fun with way less stress, transitioning to playing with a team is extremely difficult though.
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Wow! I can see myself in this writings, i love this game, and practice a lot, but the fact that i dont enjoy playing is making me follow your steps, why do something 4-6 hours a day, if i spend most of the time being angry about ladder?
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i quit too. It just takes a lot of time and effort to compete with others so you'd better have a good reason to want to do so...
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Sad to see you stop. I enjoyed this series. Good luck at your games! 
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