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Ender985
Profile Blog Joined August 2010
Spain910 Posts
Last Edited: 2013-08-05 16:19:25
August 05 2013 16:16 GMT
#21
For me, when I feel a bit like this, I rewatch Fight Club. Specially the first half, on how society has emasculated us when we are genetically designed to fight against our own problems rather than waste our time sobbing in the shoulders of strangers. About how comfort is runining our internal drive, and how sometimes it's worth it to actively seek to be unconfortable to keep things going. It still hits me hard everytime and puts me back in place.
Member of the Pirate Party - direct democracy, institutional transparency, and freedom of information
csikos27
Profile Joined May 2011
United States135 Posts
August 05 2013 17:06 GMT
#22
be strong my child
biology]major
Profile Blog Joined April 2010
United States2253 Posts
August 05 2013 17:33 GMT
#23
I feel you on that, although not to the level you describe. Sometimes I find myself in my bed, pointlessly going through reddit/tl and a few hours pass by and I feel like complete shit. I am not sure how you are supposed to get out of these kinds of ruts. For me I had to change or I would 100% ruin my life and be covered in debt with no way to pay it back. Maybe for you it could be something similar. Honestly man, there are others out there who are going through similar things as you, but you won't see them or meet them.

If you are really able to not enjoy anything in life, then I would suggest a therapist and try to get it sorted out that way. How long have you felt this way btw? Because the length of these depressive moods is critical for diagnosis.

Most helpful thing for me were making behavioural changes. Waking up early in the morning to do work, only using my bed to sleep (no more surfing the web aimlessly and jerking off while in the bed), exercising on a very regular basis. These kinds of simple things actually changed my mood and productiveness.

Good luck
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Burrfoot
Profile Blog Joined July 2012
United States1176 Posts
August 05 2013 18:47 GMT
#24
Jut make/steal/horde/save as much money as you can and figure it out later.
http://us.battle.net/d3/en/profile/Davlok-1847/career
sorrowptoss
Profile Blog Joined June 2011
Canada1431 Posts
August 05 2013 19:53 GMT
#25
Physical activity is the key! Get outside and run through a part of your town you've never seen before, feels nice
Rhaegal
Profile Blog Joined July 2013
United States678 Posts
August 06 2013 09:02 GMT
#26
On August 06 2013 04:53 sorrowptoss wrote:
Physical activity is the key! Get outside and run through a part of your town you've never seen before, feels nice



I notice when I'm exercising I'm a lot happier. I have a gym membership, just don't use it much because of severe social anxiety and low self esteem.
http://www.twitch.tv/agonysc
Penev
Profile Joined October 2012
28475 Posts
August 06 2013 11:11 GMT
#27
On August 06 2013 18:02 Rhaegal wrote:
Show nested quote +
On August 06 2013 04:53 sorrowptoss wrote:
Physical activity is the key! Get outside and run through a part of your town you've never seen before, feels nice



I notice when I'm exercising I'm a lot happier. I have a gym membership, just don't use it much because of severe social anxiety and low self esteem.

Based on the comments you made in this thread I'd say you have a low dopamine level but it could be another neurotransmitter or several even. Exercising (and cognitive therapy) helps but if it persists it might be advisable to raise it artificially because it could develop into a (more) hefty depression. But you can absolutely not take my word for it; You have to talk to a psychiatrist. What does your therapist tell you about this?
If you don't like the gym, seek other ways of exercise. Something like running is a lot better than lifting anyway and you don't really have to be around people doing it or does your social anxiety prevent you to "feel anonymous" outside?
Also, stop trolling; You only get negative responses and those don't help you. Especially if you already tend to have a negative worldview. It also diminishes the chance of people helping you because for all I know, you could be trolling with this blog as well.
I Protoss winner, could it be?
Calm
Profile Joined September 2010
Canada380 Posts
Last Edited: 2013-08-06 13:13:20
August 06 2013 13:11 GMT
#28
Yeah, it's some form of depression imo. Try taking Vitamin D (hoping it's Seasonal Affective Disorder). I've heard that anyome living north of Florida will be deficient. But try everything you can to avoid anti-depressants. Most have sexual side-effects, difficult withdrawal, and sometimes permanent effects on your sexual performance. My doctor was too quick to put me on them, and I regret it.
Penev
Profile Joined October 2012
28475 Posts
August 06 2013 15:07 GMT
#29
On August 06 2013 22:11 Calm wrote:
Yeah, it's some form of depression imo. Try taking Vitamin D (hoping it's Seasonal Affective Disorder). I've heard that anyome living north of Florida will be deficient. But try everything you can to avoid anti-depressants. Most have sexual side-effects, difficult withdrawal, and sometimes permanent effects on your sexual performance. My doctor was too quick to put me on them, and I regret it.

A good doctor, preferably a psychiatrist, would sent you to the hospital to have your blood tested before deciding on any drugs. The fact that you doctor didn't is enough to file an official complaint imo. He/ she should've also sent you to a psychologist and have you try therapy first. Was it a psychiatrist? I find it astonishing that "normal" doctors take these kind of decisions on their own or at all really, and that they're allowed to (i know they are).
But your right, some anti-depressants (the kind that slows down the reuptake of serotonin) can have sexual side-effects (not necessarily but common) but if your problems are caused by too low dopamine and/ or norepinephrine levels you'd probably get a prescription for a "bupropion based" drug. Those do not have these kinds of side effects (on the contrary). Oftentimes these drugs are prescribed alongside the serotonin reuptake inhibitors as well; To counter the negative effects.

To the OP: Chances are your vitamin D level is too low because your symptoms will probably keep you inside the house too much so you should idd have that checked. Low vitamin D levels are common among non treated (!) patients. It would be great if replenishing it would solve your problems but don't expect it to do so.
And you should try all other things first before taking anti depressants like Calm says but if you do, again, have it prescribed by a psychiatrist.
I Protoss winner, could it be?
biology]major
Profile Blog Joined April 2010
United States2253 Posts
Last Edited: 2013-08-06 17:49:09
August 06 2013 17:47 GMT
#30
On August 07 2013 00:07 Penev wrote:
Show nested quote +
On August 06 2013 22:11 Calm wrote:
Yeah, it's some form of depression imo. Try taking Vitamin D (hoping it's Seasonal Affective Disorder). I've heard that anyome living north of Florida will be deficient. But try everything you can to avoid anti-depressants. Most have sexual side-effects, difficult withdrawal, and sometimes permanent effects on your sexual performance. My doctor was too quick to put me on them, and I regret it.

A good doctor, preferably a psychiatrist, would sent you to the hospital to have your blood tested before deciding on any drugs. The fact that you doctor didn't is enough to file an official complaint imo. He/ she should've also sent you to a psychologist and have you try therapy first. Was it a psychiatrist? I find it astonishing that "normal" doctors take these kind of decisions on their own or at all really, and that they're allowed to (i know they are).
But your right, some anti-depressants (the kind that slows down the reuptake of serotonin) can have sexual side-effects (not necessarily but common) but if your problems are caused by too low dopamine and/ or norepinephrine levels you'd probably get a prescription for a "bupropion based" drug. Those do not have these kinds of side effects (on the contrary). Oftentimes these drugs are prescribed alongside the serotonin reuptake inhibitors as well; To counter the negative effects.

To the OP: Chances are your vitamin D level is too low because your symptoms will probably keep you inside the house too much so you should idd have that checked. Low vitamin D levels are common among non treated (!) patients. It would be great if replenishing it would solve your problems but don't expect it to do so.
And you should try all other things first before taking anti depressants like Calm says but if you do, again, have it prescribed by a psychiatrist.


psych is all pills, no 1 got time or money for extensive therapy. Good insight on bupropion though, one of the few anti depressants that should not cause any sexual dysfunction. Other than that, some cognitive restructuring alongside some behavioural therapy should pose improvements. If not, then you have some hormonal imbalances that need to be treated with drugs.

Behavioral changes:
Exercise #1 priority (going to the gym scares you and it might be terrifying but do it anyways)
meditation (start 10 min a day)
Regular sleep everyday, and use your bed only for sleep/sex and nothing else
Surround yourself with natural light, and get some fresh air whenever possible
stay close with family/friends and confide in them

Cognitive changes:
http://www.webmd.com/depression/features/cognitive-therapy

^ article on cognitive approach to depression (some general things you can try)

Combine BOTH cognitive and behavioural changes for a month. If no improvement go to drugs.
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YouthSC
Profile Blog Joined October 2010
United Kingdom355 Posts
August 06 2013 19:19 GMT
#31
Fall in love.
The more I practice, the luckier I get!
ilovekimchi
Profile Joined February 2013
United States18 Posts
August 06 2013 19:23 GMT
#32
A body in motion stays in motion mate. Start exercising and you'll start feeling better about yourself. If your degree isn't doing you good consider going back to school, joining the military, or learning a trade.
Djzapz
Profile Blog Joined August 2009
Canada10681 Posts
August 06 2013 19:44 GMT
#33
On August 05 2013 08:11 Rhaegal wrote:
From an outside view, one would think I had a good life. I go to university for free, I actually get paid to go (mother's work pays for half, grant pays for the other half + refund), get good grades with almost no effort, and have a good family.

But, I feel so out of place in society. My main issue is that nothing appeals to me, be it television, SC2, reading, hanging out with friends, or anything really. Most of my day is spent just refreshing reddit and tl, with no ambition. School means nothing to me because I can't see myself doing anything with my degree.

I don't see myself as a normal person. I look at people with drive and ambition, who care about things like their hygiene or their future, and I'm just perplexed because nothing in life seems to matter to me. I gain pleasure from so few things. I wish I could choose something in life, say writing, fitness, or Starcraft, and commit myself to it, but I just can't. Honestly, I just troll internet forums all day as the attention I get from it is the only thing that makes me smile.

Is this how most people are, utterly lacking in desires, but they force themselves to go in with life? Or am I not a member of society as I have always feared/suspected?

I'm pretty much like that. I don't have any answers for you though.

You just go through life doing your best to find ways not to be bored, maybe have a little bit of fun here and there, until it ends. Then again some people have suggested that you may need professional help, so maybe I'm doing it wrong.... admittedly though, much of my problem is the fact that I don't deal well with having responsibilities.
"My incompetence with power tools had been increasing exponentially over the course of 20 years spent inhaling experimental oven cleaners"
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