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We rode my dad's 4-wheelers up there a couple years ago andd there were air-traffic control towers, T-Mobile towers, Verizon towers, and a several other unnamed towers, but apparently this mountain blocks television. You may remember this mountain from the news last year as the first of many many many fires that burned the western United States to the ground.
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Anyway, I've been slowly working through "Sliders" on Netflix. I remember this show with fondness from when I was a kid. I now see that the dialogue makes George Lucas look like Shakespeare, the special effects are just a hair better than those found in the original Doctor Who, and the plots are not exactly without holes, but it helps me relax before bed. Also, I feel vindicated for saying those high-waisted shorts were ugly when they were trendy back, in the early 90s.
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No.
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Kari Wuherer, being the most attractive Slider does not excuse your choice in leg-wear.
Sometimes I start to doze off. Do you know the feeling of falling asleep when you are trying not to fall asleep? (Watching TV, Driving, having a conversation with an old person, etc? I never avoided sleeping in school, so I don't know what that feels like, but I'm told some people do.)
First, your eyes close, just for a minute, and you shake yourself awake and say "No no no, I am in control. As time goes on, however, you inevitably close your eyes again, and for a little bit longer. You know the frustration of waking up an hour later, having missed the last bit of the program you were watching / road you were driving on and realizing that you will have to watch it again / spend the rest of your life in a wheel-chair. You Try and try but you just can't seem to stay awake.
Playing Starcraft is just like this, for me. I know my 3rd-6th gases were late the last 75 games, but this one is going to be different. I build up my resolve that I'm not going to make that mistake this game and I make the refineries and forget to put guys in it. I realize this after make 3 more rounds of marines and am still not able to afford to start my + 2 weapons five minutes after I first attempted it. My mechanics are total garbage and I just can't fix them.
I played this ultra-greedy Protoss on Daybreak, and I was doing all kinds of damage dropping all bases at once. If I had kept it up, it would have been an easy win, but I got distracted by my sky-high resources and eventually just let him replenish his tech/probes and a-move for the win.
The very next game was against a Protoss on Daybreak, and I was determined that I was going to both be active on the map AND spend my money.
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40 supply lead
So far, so good! Let me look at my base really quick to see why I can't afford any ghosts and ahve 1k minerals in the bank...
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Oops.
Why do I suck so hard? Why can't I stay aware of what I am doing for more than 12 Blizzard minutes? How is it that I get caught out of position EVERY TvT and lose my huge economic/supply advantage? How is it that I forget to re-hotkey my bio and vikings after a production round every TvP? Why am I still shocked when I can't afford Thors when I knew mutas were on their way?
For 15 years, I have wished I could stand over my own shoulder as I play and just slap myself every couple of minutes and say "WAKE UP, DIPSHIT!" I have APM alert on in SC2 Gears, but the "Low APM" warning has just become background noise, I don't even hear it anymore. I begin each game trying to keep the beat of my fast-paced cheery Ska playlists with my actions, but after 3 songs, I'm back to doing things at the pace of a DMV clerk. Maybe I just need another 15 years of practice?
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Remember when she was flat-chested but her music was as amazing as her looks? No, you don't. Because you were five.
Why can't I wake up!?
I desperately want to stop sucking at this game.
