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Hello, My name is David and this is my first blog. At 15 I started smoking to fit in (22now) with the cool kids that were giving me attention, I also started smoking pot. I would only smoke socially whether it be cigs or weed until my girlfriend of 3 years left for me the cook at Wendys <.< In the coming weeks I wound up smoking a pack a day and around a gram a day. I lost all of my "friends" because I was depressed severely and even tried taking my life once. It would've worked if not for a girl that was interested in me whom I had given a key randomly stopped by. She found me foaming at the mouth and unresponsive so she took me to the Hospital, THANK GOD!
Two years ago my mother passed away from lung cancer and I realized that I couldn't keep up my habits and lead a healthy life so I quit smoking cigarettes and brought my pot use down to about twice a week and everything was going smoothly. I moved across the country a year later (a year ago) and didn't know anyone so I started smoking weed out of boredom. I'm back up to a gram a day and about a half a pack of cigarettes a day. The time has come once again to quit and i've been trying for a week.
I started playing Sc about a year ago after getting into watching tournaments. 2months ago I decided to play more and try to improve instead of messing around in Bronze. I've reached top 8 plat and it's now become a challenge to win. I don't have ladder anxiety per-say. However, I put so much effort into my games that I get very stressed out, especially after a loss. Hands are sweaty, body is shaking, mind is racing and after a few games I cave and have a smoke or a bowl. or both  !
I have decided that Monday is my quit day. I have also decided that I will replace my smoking habits with serious StarCraft practice and continuing my fitness goals which may come in another blog. I am writing this to help myself quit by keeping a log of my progress on quitting smoking, quitting smoking pot and overcoming my "ladder anxiety" which is really just fear of becoming so stressed out that I smoke. Thanks for reading and I will be keeping this updated almost daily.
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I think quitting is the correct decision. Go to a clinic though, like any kind of quitting help place. They really help, rather than quit easily, it makes it a lot harder to quit when you are alone, humans are strong together.
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gl man! im thinking about quit smoking pot for several moths ( i dont smoke ciggs tho) but ive never set a "quit day" ^^.
good luck again, quitting pot is hard ( at least for me)
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Good luck, man. I'd personally recommend trying to quit cigarettes first, since it's a lot easier to quit if you can still smoke something (and being high will make you less miserable), and then try quitting weed a month after, but there's definitely nothing wrong with trying to stop both.
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On January 13 2013 05:17 corpuscle wrote:
Good luck, man. I'd personally recommend trying to quit cigarettes first, since it's a lot easier to quit if you can still smoke something (and being high will make you less miserable), and then try quitting weed a month after, but there's definitely nothing wrong with trying to stop both.
nah, thats the problem .. u dont smoke weed pure i guess ( ^^ ) .. so evertime you are smoking a bowl u will start fresh with quitting tabacco. both or nothing IMO
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good luck man. You should keep updating us with your blogs so you can see your improvement over time as well too
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On January 13 2013 05:20 IAMFAPMAN wrote:Show nested quote +On January 13 2013 05:17 corpuscle wrote:
Good luck, man. I'd personally recommend trying to quit cigarettes first, since it's a lot easier to quit if you can still smoke something (and being high will make you less miserable), and then try quitting weed a month after, but there's definitely nothing wrong with trying to stop both. nah, thats the problem .. u dont smoke weed pure i guess ( ^^ ) .. so evertime you are smoking a bowl u will start fresh with quitting tabacco. both or nothing IMO
At least in America, most people smoke bowls of just weed, though I've heard that Europeans do it differently.
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well, i quit smoking bowls years ago.. but i used to smoke them pure which is very rare in austria. i thought most ppl mix it with tabacco.. guess i was wrong ^^
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usually I reduce my smoking habits due to my shifts, considering that I have to go 20 floors down and back again, wasting my breaks and lunches. It's not much on my end, but at least it's a start.
as for you, I wish you the best of luck .:D
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Thanks for the support everyone ^_^! I'm going to start playing Sc2 again today and only smoke half the usual amount in anticipation of tomorrow. Very nervous to ladder as it's been awhile and I was having a hard time before I took this little break to think through my plans for quitting. It was either all sc2 and learn to deal with the anxiety and stress. Or not play Sc2 at all to avoid those to make quitting easier. The goal is 25-30 games/day if not more, I don't go back to work until Valentines Day  . 1 month to go smoke free, 1 month to get Diamond, 1 month to become a better version of myself I'll put a blog up after half of my games, GLHF everyone <3
Excuse me for not giving you ANY of my Sc background :o *ahem* If any of you are big djWHEAT fans you'll remember a show called Epileptic Gaming. I used to watch every episode, great times. Then being a religious djWHEAT fan I followed him into Sc2. I quickly found myself wanting to start playing the game because it seemed to take much more skill and effort than other games i've played. Being a Wheat fan and watching tournaments/streams and becoming an IdrA/Destiny fan (not for the bm but the way they approached the game) IdrA mechanically sound and Destiny the creative side I chose Zerg right off the bat. I had no idea what I was doing and was in Bronze fooling around for quite some time until a couple of months ago when I decided it was time to put forth maximum effort.
In Platinum the game became very hard to manage with my 60 APM and I ran head first in to what I later found to be ladder anxiety O.O! I was frustrated, confused and irritated by my lack of skill and so to combat the anxiety I would smoke retarded amounts of pot and a cigarette after almost every game. In doing this, my average APM over the course of my last 10 games had doubled from 60-120. I have much more understanding of how the game works, better mouse control and the keyboard dexterity i'm going to need to change my mindset and get over all of these petty human emotions. Which are dragging me down and slowly forcing my hand to slowly killing myself :/. NO MORE I SAY! I am dedicating myself 100% to this goal and if i'm lucky i will be streaming at the beginning of March :D
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Another blog that I find quite touching, keep us posted David.
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Good news Enders. I'm going to be blogging every day to help cope with the withdrawal symptoms and to look for help and support Thanks for reading <3
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