Consequently, my material possessions are pretty dilapidated. While my peer's annual gifts have increased in value, mine have decreased. Now my peers have iphones, luxury vehicles, expensive apple computers, and luxury clothes yet I have few if any of these items.
I have a bicycle that weighs well in excess of 40 lbs as my transportation, some sort of 90's nokia phone as my communications device, and a 2006 laptop which acts as my portable mp3 player.
However, my family is certainly not destitute. They themselves have nice stuff. My mother has a plethora of luxury handbags. They own countless apple devices and my dad is contemplating the purchase of a 5000 dollar bicycle.
This leads to my psychological dilemma. Do I have the right to be pissed with my parents for not giving me shit? Understandably, my very posting of this blog will make readers immediately reply
"THEY GIVE YOU FOOD, STFU YOU SPOILED BRAT."
"JUST GET A JOB IF YOU WANT STUFF!"
But I hope this blog can transcend the mere notion of wanting stuff.
My parents argue I get nothing because "Other parents give their children stuff because they just want to make the children leave them alone. They buy their children these possessions so they don't need to care about them." But I'm not convinced. How is my parents' refusal to purchase these indeed somewhat unnecessary items a symbol of love and appreciation? I'm confused as fuck. While Chinese culture paints me as the spawn of satan for desiring any more than what my parents have given, I can't see why I'm held to such strict standards while others are not.