EPTSome days I just want to go out, go to a bar, go to whatever, meet new people. I wasn't like this 4 months ago. I was the person that said: "Naw, I don't want to go out, I don't enjoy it". I think I finally learned what the problem was. I wasn't 100% comfortable with myself. Not that I felt like that. I didn't feel confident. I wrote a blog about it some months ago. I was going to change it, and I feel sooooo much better now. It finally came together. I feel good about myself.
I'm like fuck it nowadays. I don't really care what people think about me (to some degree!). I still feel like the same person though. A quiet guy that has his moments of not so quietness. In a good way. It's that 'fluctual' thing about me I wrote about.
Someday someone is going to read this blog, and be like, HOLY SHIT that's 'POiNTx'. My 'ex' (urgh) knows about it, she doesn't know where I post my blogs, but she would be able to find it if she wanted to. It has become like an open diary for me. It feels good to have anonymous people read it and give their reactions. But still I don't feel like sharing it with people I know though. I am not THAT confident (yet?). ONE DAY someone will find out (or maybe someone already did :o). Maybe that person would be me.
Love is addicting. And it's not bad that it is. Humans survived over the millennia by this.
I has become a 'StreamOfThought' blog once again. I like the format myself because it allows me to really write down what I think about. Some sentences contradict another, and that helps me notice what's really bothering me.
Thank you again so much for reading.
A random thought I had some weeks ago:
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Imagine an alien planet. On the planet live aliens, very much like us, but still very much not like us. They are intelligent, build tools, go to space and that kind of stuff. They have a natural sense that can sense radiation (like gamma rays and x-rays). Their planet is very radiated so it developed naturally on their body. They can sense the frequency, the strength, the spectrum. It's also how they navigate the world, their world is very dark so they can't use much of the 'for us' visible spectrum. They listen to this radiation much like how we listen to music. So they have different kinds of 'radiation music'. And some like other types of 'radiation music' then others. Whole subcultures get formed and shit. They go to radiation concerts where aliens play with radiation emitting objects. You get the point. Now go write a book about it, I want to read it.
[EDIT] I am an idiot, I forgot to change the title -_-
