I don't want to explain everything. To be honest, I'm not sure if I could. It started about 2 months ago. My friend and his girlfriend (who by association and talking and me hanging out at their apartment, became my friend) broke up. I had heard mention of this a few days earlier, but had forgotten.
I called his girlfriend to find out where he was, but I had already done the damage - She started crying.
I did the only thing I knew I could do to help her feel better - Offered her my time in exchange for her thoughts. I didn't expect her to call me because we only knew each other on a friend to friend basis - nothing too deep or personal. We've always been nice to each other, and I may have noticed something strange at first, but I ignored it long enough and it went away.
Well, at first it was a simple text conversation about what happened. I don't know when it happened, but there came a moment where we stopped talking about him, and started talking about other stuff. He still came up, but it became less often. I came back from my vacation, and we decided to hang out. Then we hung out again.... and again.... but then she got scared. She had only been broken up with him for a few weeks, it didn't feel right. I was ok with that, and told her I could give her space.
She went back to him. Tested her feelings over and over. She would tell me that we couldn't talk because she wasn't suppose to talk to me because he didn't like it - but then she would talk to me anyway. This went on for 2 months which in retrospect isn't that long.
Then one night we talked a lot. One of the longest conversations I've ever had in my life. I asked her simple questions, and she told me the answers. But I guess that wasn't enough because today she said we couldn't talk again.
At this point, I knew that I could do that again. I have plenty to keep me busy and stop me from thinking about her for awhile. I feel like she would probably end up talking to me anyway, but I knew something had to be done. I knew that if she came back, she might go back again, and I felt like a line had to be drawn.
Before I did what I did, I made sure that I understood that she might hate me for years to come afterwards. That she would never be with me like I had hoped - but in the end I don't know if she can actually do it. I think she's too scared, and she admitted it to me. So I did what I did because I knew that she would hopefully find someone better, or better yet, maybe one day she would forgive me, but I'm not anticipating the latter.
I'm still not sure I did the right thing, but you never know. I just hope things get better in the future for her. Maybe this will be his wake up call. How ironic would that be?
But really guys, this shit sucks. I haven't cried in years.
Don't want it to end sad, haha.
What matters is that the Truth has been told to those who needed it. Anything after that happens was bound to happen eventually.
Haha take the distance man, she is nothing to you yet, you've live all the way up until there without her. Be a man, live alone, and guess what, she will run to you eventually because that's how women are, they want what don't want them.
On October 06 2012 21:00 Krystal wrote: Sorry to hear bro, sounds pretty crap
On the plus side, you like Thrice, so you are an amazingly awesome person. Be proud of that
Thrice has always been one my favorite bands. I remember when Vheissu came out when I was in high school, and hearing For miles for the first time. Such a bad ass song. Dustin's lyrics are always so good too. The dude is really smart - and it's funny because he uses a lot of Christian themes, yet as an atheist I still relate.
On October 07 2012 00:10 Dalguno wrote: Yeah I'm not exactly sure what you "did."
Dig the second song though!
Stand and Feel Your Worth is bad ass. I love that beginning intro on the rhodes, then it comes back. Especially the part where it gets really quiet in the middle then goes into the screaming section.
I go on for hours about Thrice songs. I believe the word he speaks about in the song is the word of Truth. My friend told me something a few weeks ago that made me realize that what I did was the right thing:
I was once young, too. You have no idea if she's being classy, being crazy, or being afraid of you. Eventually you have to take these things on the chin and not make the same mistakes in the future.
EPT
