and so I became someone I never wanted to be.
My mind was never clear,
always clouded by a thousand different elements,
a thousand different distractions.
I lost sight of the light
at the end of the tunnel,
and I lost sight of my soul.
I once had a dream,
but I decided to somehow turn it into a nightmare,
my life could have been easy and simple,
but not simple to the point that I would die of boredom,
but smooth enough that I could challenge myself everyday.
I could have lived life with a clear vision,
I could have lived out my dream,
Smiling, laughing, being the best person
with the strongest moral character,
that I could possibly have.
But instead I decided to pretend I hated life,
pretend that I wanted my life to end.
I chose to drag out my days,
with a big frown on my face and sunken eyes,
instead of truly enjoying my life.
I forgot how to love,
Because I only taught myself how to cheat.
I forgot how to live,
I forgot how to live my life from the inside,
Instead of being an observer
and watching myself from the outside.
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