Tonight's goal isn't to do a lot of analysis or anything. Moreso, the goal is to simply play a whole bunch of games. I'd really like to do a different opening that I have traditionally gone, but I have a 14 gas 14 pool build so drilled into my brain that I honestly don't think it'll be worth my while to play a bunch of games without simply sticking to this build.
With that in mind, the build I'll be going for tonight is 14 gas 14 pool ~20 hatch, and then going from there.
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Lotta Zerg tonight, yeesh! lol  I'm actually really happy with how things are going. It's going to take a few more nights of ploughing through games like this before things really click, though, I think. On the plus side, I've been matched with a few gold opponents (and actually beat one!), so I know my matchmaking rating is improving. More importantly, I feel like I'm improving, and even when I lose, I lose in very clear ways that I can learn from, so it's not so bad!
Yay!
 
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There are lots of things I want to do. Stuff that I know is good for me, that will be beneficial and help me grow. I've downloaded a shit-ton of interesting developmental books (mostly science, math, success and social interaction books). I've also bough a lot more apologetics, physics and math books + exercises. Finally, I have all of my Chemistry course-work to re-read, multiple sermons and bible studies to work through, and even drawing materials and tutorials. I have articles and battle reports I want to write, imaginary tournaments to organize, Rubik’s cubes to practice, music to learn and produce, Breakdance to train, friends to keep up with. Plus a myriad of household chores and duties pertaining to moving out of my flat in a week.
Most of those are exercising mental muscles. Especially, the math, I've been wanting to make myself practice math regularly for a good year now. Just think of all the benefits that would bring, how well my mind would grow through that regular exercise. Consider all the ways I can't even imagine my life would be enriched if I disciplined myself to do all that stuff I've listed!
And you know what I actually do when it comes to allocating free time? I watch porn and play/watch starcraft/other computer games.
That's it! Why? Because I'm addicted. Over, and over, and over again I've over-dosed my mental reward system and formed a positive feedback loop with those two activities, such that I can't get any reasonable dopamine stimulation (governs motivation and reward) without either games or porn. I'm a dependant addict; though there's all this great stuff I'm just bursting to do, the only thing I look forwards to is one of those two. This is something that's difficult to talk about, and there are lots of people (especially those who spend almost all of their free time on the internet like me, and lots of TL) who don't want to face those problems, let alone admit that there is a problem and that they need help (again, maybe it isn’t).
Y'know what, this gets a blog post of its own.
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