Quick update, I stopped for like 2 days after writing OP but there's always something. I get in a bad mood or I just dont wanna worry about other aspects of my life. So once again here I am been up since friday drinking with no food in me (did the same thing during most of the week)
Every part of my body feels so shitty, my dick looks more like a clit then anything else (for those of you who dont know speed causes intense shrinkage) I feel dirty all over ive been sitting on a leather lazy boy for 2 days playing completely drunk league of legends and facebook scrabble (im on vacation again) and I feel so empty uggh, a few handfulls of cheerios every once in a while is not proper nourishment. I guess human nature is that we are stupid and self destructive or maybe there is just something wrong with me. All my blogs are total downers lately it sucks but I needed to let something out because I was freaking a little bit. Fuck I keep feeling insects on me and seeing stuff in the corner of my eye move. At one point I turned my head and I couldnt see my arms and it disoriented the shit out of me. Owel just need to eat something and try to pass out i guess, I know I'm in no real danger.