EPTI’m still here.
Currently playing: Gorillaz – El Manana
Those are the words that I chose to attach to my current state of mind. My headspace has been weird for the last few days/weeks/months/years. I don’t know. So me and the boys decided to go downtown after some heavy drinking, check out the nightlife. That didn’t go well. I’ve almost given up on the social lubricant of everyone’s choosing. All it seems to do is turn me more inwards and awkward when I’m around people I don’t know. Of course, when I’m around people I know I’m crazy and talkative and all the great things a human being should be.
Currently playing: Gorillaz – Dirty Harry (Paul Mac Remix – Radio Edit)
Okay, the sad song is over, and a more energetic one is starting. I can feel my mood shifting. As with many times before I seem to have realized what I need to do in order to turn my life around. I need to go out and talk to people and meet people. The realization that I’m not very good at talking to people is obvious when you consider that I don’t talk to people. Ever.
Having said that, shit is scary man.
I have dreams all the time that reflect everything I’d like to be in life. It’s usually me, in a fancy bar being suave around the ladies.
And then aliens invade.
Currently playing: Gorillaz – Glitter Freeze ft. Mark E. Smith
Speaking of dreams, they are amazing. Considering how boring life is in general, I have experienced through dreams the following things.
- An Alien invasion
- The zombie apocalypse
- The end of the world
- Being Rich
- Taking Part in a Survivor for kids show that took place in an apartment.
- Being an international spy
- Flying
- Having Superpowers
- Flying some more
- Battling demons
The sticking point every time though is the reflection I see in the muddy dream waters. The person that is me and everything I want to be. In a way it’s a good thing.
It gives me a goal.
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