EPTThe last few weeks I've been talking with a Korean girl. We're both students, although in different classes, and she comes almost daily to my room, where she hangs out with her girlfriend and my roomate; I strongly suspect this is, at least in part, because she is somewhat interested in me. Anyhow, we kinda hit it off and we've flirted a lot. You know, yeah, the usual, I'm pretty sure im not reading this the wrong way. I've hanged out with her and her friends and they also seemed to think that we've got something going on.
Last night she came, with my room mate and the other girl I mentioned, at two A.M. after going clubbing for a bit, and asked me to go to another room with them for some drinking rounds. Long story short we found ourselves at 5 A.M. in my room, her friends left (after a lot of Korean gossiping that I think had to do with some 'tension' between her and me), and my roomate is cruising in deep sleep now. Knowing that she had chosen to stay, and that she came at 2 A.M. to drag me elsewhere, and that we had been flirtatious for two weeks, and that she repeatedly told me that she liked me on QQ, I decided to pull her close and kiss her.
Wrong move. I was met with a pair of cold lips and a complete desire to ignore that this had just happened. I mean, she acted like it really hadn't happened, all the while acting flirtatious and what not. So I'm getting mind fucked at that point, completely at a loss at what is going on, and I ask her what is up. She tells me, in no particular order that: My roomate is there, that in Korea you "can't do that", that it was too sudden, that she isn't sure. I, being a bit drunk, and actually a bit pissed off that this is happening start telling her that I don't think its fair to act in such an unambigous manner and then bail out and that well, it is my problem, but that I'd like to know where she stands on this whole thing; I finish with a literal "this is bullshit", which is OK since her english is poor (we talk in chinese). Please understand that for me its natural to assume that a girl is intersted when she spends so much time around, flirting, and comes to my room at late hours to drag me for some drinks.
So I just say "fuck this" and ask her to leave the room, thinking that well, this is it. Well, wrong again. I wake up today to find her in the room, again. Now my mind is really breaking into little pieces, and to add insult to injury I'm hungover and really god damn tired. I was pissed off and just ignored her, told her I was sorry for being a bit of a dick (although I think being upset was justified). Next thing I know there are three more korean girls in my room and I think that the issue has been raised between them. I just wouldnt show up at some one's room after the very akward moment of "making the move" and getting rejected. On either side, really. If she wasn't into me I really don't get why she'd come, and I certainly wouldnt seek her out. Now I think she's confused (and upset) as to why I'm pissed off, which is even more confusing. It's like the ball is back in my court, when I was pretty convinced that wasn't the case anymore.
The trouble is, and this is the real trouble, that I actually like this girl. I mean, I like her because she is kind, funny, cute, if a bit naive, and because im intrigued by her.
Really, what is going on?
