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Profile Blog Joined January 2009
United States4549 Posts
September 27 2011 03:34 GMT
#1
If the topic of relationships with parents hadn’t been brought up… if I hadn’t randomly asked the girl to my right whether she was close to her mom starting a chain of answers leading to you… I guess we all wouldn’t have seen those ten minutes of you completely crumbling as you revealed that your mother passed away just a few years ago. God, it’s crazy isn’t it? Pain - the initial surface wound does scab and eventually heal over but the deeper bruise and scar it leaves just never, ever goes away. It took all of ten seconds for that pain to resurface for you, and watching your eyes suddenly flick toward the ground, your fingers awkwardly grab at each other searching for the strength to push it back down, but failing because goddamn when that pain decides to spring back up there’s no stopping it… As the tears inevitably came and we all became quiet, all I could think was, how, how were you so strong? These past four years I’ve dealt with depression and phases of hibernation because I just couldn’t handle things, and while suffering is relative, the grief following something like the death of someone so close is something I’ve been fortunate enough not to experience yet, and I can’t even imagine what I’d do… If I’ve struggled so much with these problems I have now, how much more would I have completely fallen apart if I had to face something of that magnitude? How broken would I have been?

To you, who never once showed such pain except for those few minutes today… for always smiling and being one of the brightest, friendliest faces on campus despite it all… such strength is so incredibly inspiring and beautiful. To face such adversity and still work so hard, still smile so warmly at everyone - I only hope I can do the same in the times to come ahead - through both the good and the bad.

****
TranslatorBe an Optimist Prime, Not a Negatron // twitter @smixity
Liquid`Nazgul
Profile Blog Joined September 2002
22427 Posts
September 27 2011 03:39 GMT
#2
amen
Administrator
Sermokala
Profile Blog Joined November 2010
United States13849 Posts
September 27 2011 03:48 GMT
#3
when I clicked on this blog I wasn't ready for that.

I can't really say words but this has affected me I don't know what else to say. I lost my uncle recently and I always felt the same.

blog of the year award. make it. for this.
A wise man will say that he knows nothing. We're gona party like its 2752 Hail Dark Brandon
Torte de Lini
Profile Blog Joined September 2010
Germany38463 Posts
September 27 2011 03:56 GMT
#4
Strong words.

(5/5)
https://twitter.com/#!/TorteDeLini (@TorteDeLini)
Dalguno
Profile Blog Joined January 2011
United States2446 Posts
September 27 2011 04:07 GMT
#5
There's no person I respect more on TL than you. Well written and a good sentiment. Respect to you, and thank you.
"I'm gonna keep making drones cause I'm a baller, and ballers make drones." -Snute
Fontong
Profile Blog Joined December 2007
United States6454 Posts
September 27 2011 04:16 GMT
#6
Right on...

My girlfriend's mom died about 6 years ago or so, but it's so easy to see sometimes that it might as well have been yesterday. Especially when her dad had surgery for lymphoma earlier this year...sometimes there's just nothing you can say to make things better.
[SECRET FONT] "Dragoon bunker"
Temporarykid
Profile Blog Joined November 2010
Canada362 Posts
September 27 2011 04:20 GMT
#7
My mother and I were never particularly close, we still aren't.

But I wish I had a mum I could talk to, one who'd always be there for me.

Thank you for making me take a moment out of my day to reflect on what could have been. Very short but powerful words.
ㅈㅈ
Chairman Ray
Profile Blog Joined December 2009
United States11903 Posts
September 27 2011 04:28 GMT
#8
bkrow
Profile Blog Joined October 2010
Australia8532 Posts
September 27 2011 04:29 GMT
#9
Thank you for sharing this.

We all appreciate it.
In The Rear With The Gear .. *giggle* /////////// cobra-LA-LA-LA-LA-LA!!!!
Grobyc
Profile Blog Joined June 2008
Canada18410 Posts
September 27 2011 04:50 GMT
#10
Quality poster star doesn't just reflect on your translations
If you watch Godzilla backwards it's about a benevolent lizard who helps rebuild a city and then moonwalks into the ocean.
RogerX
Profile Blog Joined December 2010
New Zealand3180 Posts
September 27 2011 05:12 GMT
#11
Thank you, wonderful blog, amazing words.

10/10
Stick it up. take it up. step aside and see the world
Indrium
Profile Joined November 2010
United States2236 Posts
Last Edited: 2011-09-27 05:12:57
September 27 2011 05:12 GMT
#12
God damn it I already had a nervous breakdown tonight I do not need more stuff that makes me emotional.

Thanks for sharing. Seriously. (Not sarcasm because I still feel like even the seriously came off sarcastic.)
DivinO
Profile Blog Joined July 2009
United States4796 Posts
September 27 2011 05:19 GMT
#13
Thank you for sharing.
LiquipediaBrain in my filth.
CaucasianAsian
Profile Blog Joined September 2005
Korea (South)11575 Posts
September 27 2011 05:26 GMT
#14
Damn...
Calendar@ Fish Server: `iOps]..Stark
p4NDemik
Profile Blog Joined January 2008
United States13896 Posts
September 27 2011 05:29 GMT
#15
Sheds a humbling light on any of the petty things I've been fretting over lately. You're lucky to have a friend like that.
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Noev
Profile Blog Joined January 2010
United States1105 Posts
September 27 2011 05:30 GMT
#16
Really well said, thanks for this it made all the difference in my night
duk3
Profile Joined September 2010
United States807 Posts
September 27 2011 05:36 GMT
#17
Thank you for this.
Time flies like an arrow; fruit flies like a banana.
Ciryandor
Profile Blog Joined May 2010
United States3735 Posts
September 27 2011 05:50 GMT
#18
People can find strength in the strangest places. Once you find it, hold on to it. And when you find that someone takes that strength from you, be grateful and repay their trust. :D
에일리 and 아이유 <3 - O Captain 박재혁 ・゚✧*:・*゚+..。✧・゚:*・..。 ✧・゚ :・゚* ゜・*:・ ✧・゚:・゚:.。 ✧・゚ SPARKULING ・゜・:・゚✧*:・゚✧。*゚+..。 ✧・゚: ✧・゚:*・゜・:・゚✧*::
flamewheel
Profile Blog Joined December 2009
FREEAGLELAND26781 Posts
September 27 2011 06:27 GMT
#19
I am with p4 on this one. Don't feel like I can complain anymore.

Thank you.
Writerdamn, i was two days from retirement
Kamais_Ookin
Profile Blog Joined May 2010
Canada4218 Posts
September 27 2011 07:03 GMT
#20
5 out of fucking 5.
I <3 Plexa.
Gummy
Profile Blog Joined October 2010
United States2180 Posts
September 27 2011 07:20 GMT
#21
Thank you!
¯\_(ツ)_/¯ There are three kinds of people in the world: those who can count and those who can't.
Wolf
Profile Blog Joined April 2010
Korea (South)3290 Posts
September 27 2011 07:57 GMT
#22
Thanks Smix. Thanks for letting me read this.
Commentatorhttp://twitter.com/proxywolf
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RosaParksStoleMySeat
Profile Joined December 2009
Japan926 Posts
September 27 2011 08:35 GMT
#23
And we all remember... "Hey, maybe my life isn't so bad after all."
]343[
Profile Blog Joined May 2008
United States10328 Posts
September 27 2011 08:42 GMT
#24
Remember--we still haven't hit rock bottom yet. Thanks
Writer
Firesilver
Profile Joined December 2010
United Kingdom1190 Posts
September 27 2011 08:51 GMT
#25
Inspiring words Smix. 5/5
Caster at IMBA.tv -- www.twitter.com/IMBAFiresilver -- www.youtube.com/FiresilverTV
Numy
Profile Blog Joined June 2010
South Africa35471 Posts
Last Edited: 2011-09-27 09:58:40
September 27 2011 09:57 GMT
#26
On September 27 2011 12:48 sermokala wrote:
I can't really say words but this has affected me I don't know what else to say. I lost my uncle recently and I always felt the same.

blog of the year award. make it. for this.


I know the feeling. I lost my grandfather end of last year and I think I've never really felt the same since before. It sounds cliche but you really don't realise how much you care until something is out of your life.

Cheers to staying strong, don't fall into the trap of thinking it's just for other people. Look after yourself too.
Probe1
Profile Blog Joined August 2010
United States17920 Posts
September 27 2011 10:09 GMT
#27
Well written and a little moving

Every time I see Numys name I think Nony.
우정호 KT_VIOLET 1988 - 2012 While we are postponing, life speeds by
Numy
Profile Blog Joined June 2010
South Africa35471 Posts
September 27 2011 10:18 GMT
#28
I don't have cool horsies next to my name though ;(
chaosTheory_14cc
Profile Blog Joined December 2010
Canada1270 Posts
September 27 2011 15:58 GMT
#29
Thank you for the wonderful insight. Very nicely written, I commend your friend for being so strong. I lost 2 of my grandmothers during the same year, about 2 years ago, and even then, I still can't imagine what it would be like to lose someone as close to me as my mother.
BLinD-RawR
Profile Blog Joined April 2010
ALLEYCAT BLUES50107 Posts
September 27 2011 16:06 GMT
#30
I miss my dad.....I've never shown it,every time I hear my mom say "You are just like you're father",I just have the urge to say it,but I never do.

just a hollow smile,but I think she understands...
Brood War EICWoo Jung Ho, never forget.| Twitter: @BLinDRawR
TL+ Member
Impervious
Profile Blog Joined March 2009
Canada4198 Posts
September 27 2011 16:09 GMT
#31
On September 28 2011 01:06 BLinD-RawR wrote:
I miss my dad.....I've never shown it,every time I hear my mom say "You are just like you're father",I just have the urge to say it,but I never do.

just a hollow smile,but I think she understands...

I can relate to that, and it's been 8 years.....
~ \(ˌ)im-ˈpər-vē-əs\ : not capable of being damaged or harmed.
Cuddle
Profile Joined May 2010
Sweden1345 Posts
September 27 2011 16:45 GMT
#32
Every time I see a new Smix blog my expectations shoot through the roof and I have never, EVER, been disappointed.

5/5
Xiron
Profile Joined August 2010
Germany1233 Posts
September 27 2011 20:26 GMT
#33
I get that exact same feeling of helplessness and desperation sometimes when I'm drinking and someone is talking about his/her mother. But then I drink some more and it goes away.
In this moments I always got Metallica - All Within My Hands on my mind. Maybe because I listened to that song 8 hours straight when my mom died.
"The way of life can be free and beautiful. But we have lost the way. " - Charlie Chaplin
Rekrul
Profile Blog Joined November 2002
Korea (South)17174 Posts
September 27 2011 20:48 GMT
#34
the best forms of writing are always brought forth from raw emotion

good stuff smixy
why so 진지해?
SaLaYa
Profile Blog Joined September 2010
United States363 Posts
September 27 2011 20:58 GMT
#35
5 fucking stars all they wall.
Cornell 2014 // eYe_am_SaSsY
ymir233
Profile Blog Joined June 2010
United States8275 Posts
September 27 2011 21:26 GMT
#36
To laugh at the good things and to bear the sad things. It's what we have to do.

Let's hope that there will always be more good things in the future.
Come motivate me to be cynical about animus at http://infinityandone.blogspot.com/ // Stork proxy gates are beautiful.
Lemonwalrus
Profile Blog Joined August 2006
United States5465 Posts
September 27 2011 22:08 GMT
#37
Puts shit in perspective. Thanks.
Zariel
Profile Blog Joined December 2010
Australia1285 Posts
September 28 2011 00:04 GMT
#38
What doesn't kill you makes you stronger!

Accepting pain is a different story, the human mind is very cruel to us in dealing with pain.

Drinking/taking drugs will only help oh-so-much, it merely just puts your mind off the pain temporarily then hits you back double for it.

Remember, you are who you are. Your late family/friends last wish was for your happiness and well being.

Here's a song for everyone.

sup
atmuh
Profile Blog Joined November 2010
United States246 Posts
September 28 2011 02:30 GMT
#39
very powerful
nilcox
Profile Joined March 2011
Sweden24 Posts
October 10 2011 20:25 GMT
#40
Very powerful words, been reading all your blog posts and it has made me very sad.

I come from a broken home and I've been through very hard times. I've been up and I've been down and I tried to stay strong but its hard. I've always been a very empathetic and sympathetic person and it hurts me more then anything else in my life. I cant stand watching people suffer and I want to help everyone but I cant. I get overwhelmed and stall.

Everyone deals with there problems in different ways, I love music and I put it in songs. Gaming is also something that really helps me. The escape of going into a video game or just writing a song is unprecedented and is probably why im still functioning as a human being.
OmniEulogy
Profile Blog Joined July 2010
Canada6592 Posts
October 10 2011 20:30 GMT
#41
inspiring words smix.
LiquidDota Staff
See.Blue
Profile Blog Joined October 2008
United States2673 Posts
October 10 2011 20:46 GMT
#42
On September 27 2011 14:29 p4NDemik wrote:
Sheds a humbling light on any of the petty things I've been fretting over lately. You're lucky to have a friend like that.


That pretty much sums it up. Your friend sounds like a remarkable person.
Kyuki
Profile Joined February 2008
Sweden1867 Posts
February 08 2012 17:30 GMT
#43
I came across this for whatever reason, and it just hit me in the face *BAM!*... I cried abit and then decided I had to atleast tell you how very well written this blogpost was and how it truly touched me.

Thank you
Mada Mada Dane
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