EPT
I only have one more class that I need to do well in to finish replacing my old shitty grades with better ones so I can transfer into a university (I'm at a community college). Everything was set up. I had four classes this semester including this Chemistry class that I need to take. Basically my grade point is somewhere in the lower 2's and will jump up to like a 3.6 or so if I get an A in the class. So it is very important I get this class before the winter so I can do my transfers for next fall.
This afternoon I get a call from my school. Some lady from the Math and Science department telling me my Chemistry class got cancelled. After calling the counseling office and some other people at the school I find out that 1/3 of the Chemistry classes got fucked because some teacher decided to not teach one day before class started. So now I can't take that class and fix my grade before I fill out my transfers making it almost impossible to get into the universities I want to.
Apparently there is a very slim chance where some people might drop the class and I can maybe get a spot in another one. Unfortunately I already have my work schedule set and my other three classes that I have to work around. So even if one class opens up, it might not be at a time that I can make.
Anyways this set of a bomb inside me. The past couple weeks have been amazing. I've just been getting a lot done and then going to Raleigh was incredible. So having this huge thing happen to me while everything has just been so good made me freak. I started just yelling and throwing things. My neighbors actually came over to see if things were ok because I was just belting as loud as I could. I broke my little nightstand thing after throwing it into my dresser (I'm very thankful I didn't throw it through my wall). I also took all my notebooks and papers and just chucked them at my wall. My room was a complete mess. There was trash, papers, clothes, etc. all over. It took roughly an hour to clean up.
It felt so good to just not give a shit and break things. It's been so long since I've been angry like this and it felt too good. Maybe I am keeping the anger inside too much to avoid going down the path I was on before.
tl;dr- Stressed out like crazy because my entire future depends on a class I need to finish and my school cancelled it.
Keep your chin up man. Everything always turns out okay in the long run.
