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DoctorHelvetica
Profile Blog Joined July 2008
United States15034 Posts
July 28 2011 00:55 GMT
#1
I've been doing great over the last month. My urge to self-harm is all but gone and the drugs I was taking (venlafaxine) are now out of my system. No longer am I having delusions or thoughts of death. I've lost friends in this experience. I lost my best friend. He told me I was a selfish idiot, that he didn't care if I died, and as torn up as I am about that I realized there were a lot of people in my life that didn't understand what I was going through and that I needed to cut the negativity out of my life.

I'm still a bit lonely. A lot lonely, but I'm content. I'm in a great relationship right now, starting school soon, looking for work instead of moping around, I think things are starting to turn around. I've picked up some bad habits (I've started smoking to replace drinking/cutting) but I feel fine.

So I know a lot of people have sent me PM's and worried and I didn't respond to many. My inbox was pretty much bombed and I read a lot of what people sent me and it meant a lot so I just want to thank everybody who showed concern. I'm doing fine. I'll probably play mafia again here soon. I'd even say I'm pretty happy right now.

****
RIP Aaliyah
Torte de Lini
Profile Blog Joined September 2010
Germany38463 Posts
Last Edited: 2011-07-28 00:58:42
July 28 2011 00:58 GMT
#2
yayfor Dr. H D: ~<3
https://twitter.com/#!/TorteDeLini (@TorteDeLini)
Varpulis
Profile Blog Joined February 2011
United States2517 Posts
July 28 2011 01:01 GMT
#3
<3

great to hear that you're doing better.

A friend who doesn't care about your wellbeing isn't a good friend, so good riddance, i'd say.
For he is the Oystermeister, lord of all the oysters.
SonuvBob
Profile Blog Joined October 2006
Aiur21549 Posts
July 28 2011 01:01 GMT
#4
Glad to hear it. :D
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DoctorHelvetica
Profile Blog Joined July 2008
United States15034 Posts
July 28 2011 01:01 GMT
#5
we had been growing apart and his reaction to my suffering for years was just to mock me really
i should have seen it coming
RIP Aaliyah
Probulous
Profile Blog Joined March 2011
Australia3894 Posts
July 28 2011 01:08 GMT
#6
Welcome back!

Long road ahead, but we are all sure you can walk it.

Good luck mate
"Dude has some really interesting midgame switches that I wouldn't have expected. "I violated your house" into "HIHO THE DAIRY OH!" really threw me. You don't usually expect children's poetry harass as a follow up " - AmericanUmlaut
unit
Profile Blog Joined March 2009
United States2621 Posts
July 28 2011 01:16 GMT
#7
so great to hear that you're better, :D:D:D love ya bro keep going
Archas
Profile Blog Joined July 2010
United States6531 Posts
July 28 2011 01:20 GMT
#8
If you ever try to commit suicide again, Doc, I'll kill you.

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Welcome back, man.
The room is ripe with the stench of bitches!
MoonBear
Profile Blog Joined November 2010
Straight outta Johto18973 Posts
July 28 2011 01:24 GMT
#9
Stay strong <3
ModeratorA dream. Do you have one that has cursed you like that? Or maybe... a wish?
ShaperofDreams
Profile Blog Joined December 2008
Canada2492 Posts
July 28 2011 01:24 GMT
#10
Oh wow first time I heard about this. I'm glad you're better man! The universe is stock full of potential and possibility, your future is gonna be awesome!
Bitches don't know about my overlord. FUCK OFF ALDARIS I HAVE ENOUGH PYLONS. My Balls are as smooth as Eggs.
ghrur
Profile Blog Joined May 2009
United States3786 Posts
July 28 2011 01:25 GMT
#11
Oh thank god you're okay. Glad to have you back. :D
darkness overpowering
Trozz
Profile Blog Joined November 2008
Canada3454 Posts
July 28 2011 01:27 GMT
#12
Thanks for the great news. :D
You are my favorite font.
I like your blogs too.
A build is not a guess, an estimation or a hunch, a feeling, or a foolish intuition. A build is a dependable, unwavering, unarguably accurate, portrayer of your ambition.
BroOd
Profile Blog Joined April 2003
Austin10831 Posts
July 28 2011 01:28 GMT
#13
Good to have you back.
ModeratorSIRL and JLIG.
pheer
Profile Blog Joined July 2004
5391 Posts
July 28 2011 01:28 GMT
#14
That is very great news DH. Something uplifting to do if you're lonely or bored is listen to good music really loud, or watch documentaries that make you feel good about the world. You know I've got enough of both to get you started; just ask
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tonight
Profile Blog Joined November 2006
United States11130 Posts
Last Edited: 2011-07-28 01:31:07
July 28 2011 01:30 GMT
#15
Stop watching all those horror flicks, dude.

Great to hear you're doing well.
if I come without a thing, then I come with all I need @tonightsend
DoctorHelvetica
Profile Blog Joined July 2008
United States15034 Posts
July 28 2011 01:33 GMT
#16
On July 28 2011 10:30 tonight wrote:
Stop watching all those horror flicks, dude.

Great to hear you're doing well.

part of what has made me happier was that i've been watching more horror films!!!!!!! i love them they make me happy it isn't depressing at all
RIP Aaliyah
XsebT
Profile Blog Joined June 2009
Denmark2980 Posts
July 28 2011 01:47 GMT
#17
Super nice to hear you have positive attitude now.

<3
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conTAgi0n
Profile Blog Joined November 2009
United States335 Posts
July 28 2011 01:48 GMT
#18
Oh man I'm glad to hear you're doing better, I was actually really worried when I read that other blog you wrote.

Always enjoyed reading your articles when I was still lurking btw, good stuff.
Bereft
Profile Blog Joined February 2010
United States1007 Posts
July 28 2011 01:50 GMT
#19
Glad to hear your update :D.
Corinthos *
Profile Blog Joined February 2006
Canada1842 Posts
July 28 2011 02:29 GMT
#20
welcome back.
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