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Lately, I've been wondering if what I'm doing is right, especially with school and whatnot. I'm studying for a Bachelor's of Business Administration. I'm nearing the end of my first year. I feel like I've run out of steam. What if I can't be an accountant or create a successful business? What if I'm not good enough to be profitable? I wish I'd thought of this earlier.
I know it's silly to think this way, seeing as I'm 19 in less than 12 hours. It's kind of hard not to. What if this isn't right for me?
I don't want to be the person who goes through life struggling to make ends meet. It isn't fair to him or me.
I'm concerned. I've always had such high expectations but now I'm attaching my self-worth to a letter grade and a GPA.
I'm not even sure if my goals are attainable.
I'm not even sure I know what they are.
Maybe I'm whining. I'm sure that's probably it. I can't talk to friends about it because I'm still better off academically than most of them have ever been.
Sometimes I think there's no problem whatsoever, that he and I will have a perfect life. That it'd be silly for no one to pay me to do their taxes. I'm kind of awesome, so why wouldn't they? But then the nagging sensation at the back of my mind comes to the front and lets me know that I'm being silly and it's impossible.
Does anyone else ever feel this way?
How can motivation be regained?
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No, no one else ever feels bad. If you search 'losing motivation' you will not find any other threads on TL, or the internet for that matter. Especially not in the last two days.
+ Show Spoiler +Happy birthday  You'll feel better if you don't overthink it. Just live life.
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On March 08 2011 08:39 Chef wrote:No, no one else ever feels bad. If you search 'losing motivation' you will not find any other threads on TL, or the internet for that matter. Especially not in the last two days. + Show Spoiler +Happy birthday You'll feel better if you don't overthink it. Just live life.
Thanks for the happy birthday. I appreciate it.
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If you have the right attitude and are WILLING to work hard then most definitely you make eventually make stuff work with your life/career even if it doesn't end up being exactly what you are planning. Thinking about your future is good but undue worrying is bad.
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I always have these periods of demotivation where I wonder where I'm actually heading towards.
I believe that whenever you make a decision, it's the right one. At least in the context that you made it in. Stand by your initial decision to go for the Bachelor's. Even if it doesn't feel right now, you should remember that you chose this path because you had faith in yourself to be an accountant or create a successful business.
Happy Birthday too!
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I'm in a real rut right now too in terms of motivation, except I'm in the last year of my BA. Just sort of going through the motions. Writing some super uninspired essays for the standard B+ mark of "congrats, you're not a moron". :/
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Having a degree regardless opens a massive amount of job options. You might not realize that now at your age, but even if you continue and get a degree that doesn't really fit what you want to do, you can still apply at a ton of jobs just for having a degree. It's not like after you are done school you are auto fucked.
Talking to other people that are in the same boat as you helps too. You can maybe look at it in a satirical sorta way. Also, winter drains the fuck out of you. Every march I always want to end my life because I lack vit D and it's just soOoOsoooosoooOOSOOoOooo long.
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I know exactly what you mean. I'm currently a jr in high school, just starting to take standardized tests and look at colleges. I'm always so worried that I'm just not good enough for the schools I'd want to go to. I mean, my best friends are all Harvard/ MIT material and I do pretty well in school, but nowhere near their level. It's a crappy feeling not knowing if you have done enough to have a good future.
The only advice I can give is that you have confidence that you have put in as much effort as you can and that you love what you do. From hearing the stories of people who started their own businesses/ looked for careers, It's not an easy task and I guarantee you may have setbacks, but you just have to soldier on. As long as you are determined that you want to achieve your goals, I can bet you will do so, or at least find another passion along the way.
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Talk to an academic counselor. Forums like this are nice to give you a confidence boost but I think most of the time it's only a superficial boost. Talk to someone real who has seen many students like this and is willing to offer solid advice and help ... or refer you to help.
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I know exactly where you're at right now. I'm currently in my first year of comp-sci and up until xmas I was 100% motivated and had a blast. I'll throw in a quick explanation about the swedish education system here:
We have four "reading periods" each school year aptly named 1,2,3 and 4. They all last for three months and you have two courses each reading period. We're currently in RP 3.
Anyway this reading period I'm having physics 3 and object oriented programming. Nothing I've had problems with before really (physics and programming in general) but these two classes are you owning me hard right now. I have the final test in both of them in about 1½ weeks and I'm hardly sleeping right now due to the stress, but at the same time I lack the motivation for studying.
So last night I woke up at 3am, after a good three hours of sleep, and started thinking about school. Do I belong here? Is this what I want to do? CAN I do this? And you know what, I realized that the question to all those questions were yes. And I think that as long as the answer to those three questions is yes then you're fine. So sit down. Think hard about these three. If you answer "no" to even one of them I think you have your answer. If the answer is "yes" then you have the motivation deep inside you and everything will be fine.
Hope this helped you! It's 5:30am and I'm gonna get the first of MANY cups of coffee. Then I'm gonna study. Because the answer is still "yes".
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