EPTSo this morning I woke up at 6:15am, finishing off the longest 24 hour shift in my life. I cleaned the base and washed down the Ambulance. I grabbed the radio, told Medic Center I was signing off and got a "10-4". I packed my gear into my little Honda and began my 2.5 hour commute home. Today is the day I go in with my fiancée and speak with the doctor.
I made a quick coffee stop at Tim Hortons and then hit the highway. The 2.5 hour drive seemed to take forever, although it was a little quicker today, I probably sped a little more than I usually did, I was anxious and nervous to get home. Since we got the news, I've been praying every day. I pray that it's nothing, I pray that if it is something, that it go away and that the man upstairs can have me instead, I pray we are still able to have a baby, but the most important thing is my fiancées health.
The appointment was at 10:00am, I got in around 9:20. She was getting ready, I stayed in Uniform. I logged on, applied for several jobs that were closer to home as I waited for her to straight iron her hair. We get to the doctors office and seem to wait in the waiting room for what seems to be forever, I consider showing up for appointments 20 minutes late just to get in on time. Her name is finally called and we go in, and wait some more..
The doctor finally came in and explained that what they have found was abnormal cells, they are going to have to do a biopsy and have them tested. She said in many cases this is still a "gray area" for either HPV/Cervical Cancer and that the body still has a good chance to fight it off. I pray some more to myself as I'm listening to the doctor speak. The doctor assures us everything will be as with 90% of these cases.
Needless to say I am a little relieved, still won't be happy until the results from the biopsy are back. I feel like I can breath a tiny bit easier. From the moment we got the initial call to now, I've been a mess, I've thought about it everyday and have had nobody to talk too. I couldn't show her I was upset, I was her pillar that she could lean on.
I'd like to thank everyone at TL for their kind words in the initial post and I just wanted to update everyone as to what is going on. Thank you everyone, so much.
- LI
