So this started last week. I just can't fall asleep and it's just getting worse. Last night after work I went to the gym to burn off some energy thinking that would help me to fall asleep. Oh how wrong I was, when I got home I was physically very tired but mentally I was not tired at all. I fell asleep at 5am this morning and got up at 8am. Night before that I got around 5 hours of sleep. That's pretty "normal" for me right now, I avarage about 4 hours of sleep each night.
I've been thinking alot during all this freetime I've suddenly gotten to figure out what the hell is wrong. First of all its the fucking midnight sun. When I tell people about it they say "oh wow, sun 24/7 that's gotta be nice" and no... no it isn't. I'm a person who prefers my room to be pitch black when I sleep and I dont mind if its really fucking cold in my room aswell. but imagine trying to fall asleep, with just a thin sheet covering your window, while you see this outsite:
Not me or anything near where I live, but that's what it looks like
The second thing I've identified as a problem is that a friends husband to be died last week. they're a young couple and have a 2 year old son. I don't know how much this has affected me subconsiously but I don't feel like this is the problem. I dont find myself worrying for them while trying to sleep, even if I might think of them a couple of times during the day.
So here I am at work, I've got 7 hours until I'm done for the day and if this night is like every other night I'll fall asleep for 30 minutes tonight, wake up and then beeing unable to fall back asleep. Shit sucks >.<