EPTI decided to take a journal entry that I wrote at some point in the past few months and use it for one of our songs.
"Did you ever have one of those days...
Did you ever have one of those days where you wake up and hate yourself for no god damn reason?
You get up and look in the mirror you just want to smack your reflection, right in the face.
You think to yourself...
'Man, I'm fat
I'm so out of shape
Why did I break up with Her?
My Job sucks
I don't even like half the people I call friends
I just surround myself with people for the sake of not being alone"
It's when all your actions come full swing
When you realize the full consequences of the past six months
And they make you start to believe...
'If I can't love myself, how can anybody love me?'
'If I hate myself, how can she not hate me?'
And you know in your mind that it's all bullshit.
Everyone has those moments,
Self-Pitty.
Self-Hatred.
Depression.
Regret.
They're all just human emotions.
Having them doesn't make you special.
Having them doesn't make you unique.
Having them means you're the same as everybody around you.
Human.
You know or you don't,
Everybody around you is experiencing, or has experienced The same exact thing.
And they would be perfectly willing to talk about it with you if you just Asked.
But you won't. And they won't.
You'll all keep it secret.
You won't tell anybodoy.
You'll think to yourself, "Nobody wants to here this stuff. They'll just think I'm overreacting."
They'll think the same things to themselves, too.
That's just how shit works."
