EPTIn my last blog: http://www.teamliquid.net/forum/viewmessage.php?topic_id=111589 I told how I came to realize that I was Gay. In this blog I will the tale of how I came to embrace what I am.
Part 2:
It was about two years after I found out about my deranged sexuality. And my first day in high school, far from home and I didn't know a soul. But from deep within I knew there had to be others like me there, and I had to find them. Because I was to be gay every single day. I was going to be a full fledged openly gay man.
And I was well prepared, all summer I had googled and studied every inch of every gay man I could lay my eyes upon. And the day before school started I cut the sleeves off my all my t-shirts. The future was surely all glitter and glamor, all my dreams were ahead of me. But then again, this was also a sad chapter in my life. The beginning of my first of many addictions, and the one I still struggle with to this day.
Lip gloss.
But my addictions are another tale, I will tell about my first day in High school.
Oh I remember it vividly, walking down that hall, with my head held high and my confident stroll thru the halls to where I was going to meet the other students. I could feel the stares and they made me stronger, prouder. Gayer.
Now I had decided to be about ten minutes late. As I wished to enjoy a grand entrance with everyone's eyes upon me. When I finally came into the filled classroom I limped my wrist and said
Oh my oh my! am I a wee bit late?
A magical moment of attention occurred, everyone surely noticed the glitter in my hair, but it was quickly shattered when I was told to take a seat. I took my sweet time, eventually deciding to sit next to a big wide hunk that looked like a weight lifter, a big bear. But when I sat down he gave me a look, a frown. It caught me off guard, but I quickly gave him a little wink. Touché I thought.
But the wink was to be my undoing.
Eventually the day just breezed on by, nobody said a word to me. On my way home I was in despair. All I could think was... Did I put enough lip gloss on this morning?
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