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				me: i did my best to do everything you wanted me to do end my medical leave alreadyuni: your best wasn't good enough LOLOLOLOL
 me: are you fucking kidding me?
 uni: your shrink says you're still batshit fucking nuts
 me: wait what she didn't tell me that
 uni: honestly start on the pills already
 me: but but but
 uni: anyway you can try again after six months if you like
 me: FFFFFFFFFUUUUUUUU-
 uni: pwned
 me: UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU-
 uni: lolol
 me: UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU
 
 Anyway, I need some full time employment or volunteer work to occupy this half-year, per university orders.  Pay is not an issue.  Step one is sending out all the summer internship applications I was thinking about with a note saying "by the way i might be able to start a little* before summer actually starts"; it's probably not going to happen but fuck it, it can't hurt.
 
 Failing that, I need something to do besides classes, which I will take one or two of.  Where do I start looking?  Something technical would be nice, maybe I can put the quantum physics or abstract algebra or whatever-fuck else I learned to a little bit of work.  But volunteer work or basically anything else comes above flipping burgers or working retail but I *guess* I could do that too.  I'm basically finished with a freshman year at a fairly reasonable college, so that's the skill level we're looking at.
 
 I don't really know how to go about doing this.  I was told this morning that I would not be going back.  It's all very suck.
 
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						spend the next 6 months on fixing whatever it was that made you unable to attend a university.
							
							 
							iNcontroL
							  
						USA29055 Posts
						 
 Then attend the university.
 
 Also how the fuck do you make a blog when MSL finals are going on? You must be fucking retarded.
 
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				As you've shown, people will read it.
 So, why not?
 
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				it's only the pregame stuff
 some bad kpop going on, although it graduated to yelling people
 
 anyway i can't spend all the time on working with the shrink, they are more or less requiring me to find a full time volunteering / work position
 
 why are you reading blogs?
 
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						If I told you you'd go crazy.
							
							 
							iNcontroL
							  
						USA29055 Posts
						 
 WOOPS
 
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				Take it seriously. Get yourself right in the head. I was the victim of a batshit crazy person like you! GO GET MOAR HELP!*SHUN*
 
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				build a lifesize replica of legolas. This will solve all your problems.
			
		
		
	 
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				why do they think you're crazy?
			
		
		
	 
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				quantum physics sounds interesting..
			
		
		
	 
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				they suspect depressive disorder / anxiety disorder possibly mild autism spectrum disorder
 also something that they refer to "general failure disorder" which i tried looking up but failed
 
 one of these is a lie
 
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				just concentrate on this msl 
			
		
		
	 
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				Okay, now that MSL is over (legendary game three) can anyone dispense some real advice?  Even if you don't have any specifics advice for where to start looking would also be nice
 betaben, that link looks awesome but it looks like it's for somewhat short-term stuff (weeks) and also it's super duper expensive
 
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				Troubled children centers. You will realize exactly how lucky you were, and you will care enough to get up each day and do hard work for free. They're always looking for volunteers, especially male role models.
			
		
		
	 
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