A few minutes after the game has ended, I start "cooling down" and I realize that maybe, my opponent was just better, maybe I did mistakes myself, maybe.... and I stop whining.
Even If I try to think "it's ok, it's just a game", I can't help myself to feel bitter. Sometimes, it's a problem because I end up bitching at my friends or whining on Ventrilo which annoys everyone else.
I'm not someone angry "IRL", I like to laugh, I would say that I'm a "nice guy". That's why my friends don't really take it seriously when I tell them "you're such a fucking noob, quit dota forever plz now".
So why is it that I'm such a douche on the internet, and why is it that, even when I know it, I can't improve the way I behave towards my opponents or friends.
Don't get me wrong, I'm not trashtalking so much (heh, just a lil' bit), I just feel sad that games have such a big impact on my spirit.
Did you ever feel like that ?
And how did you work on it ?
Should I just say "ok from now on, I'll never ever whine again". Or is it something so deep in my brain and blood that it's a done deal and I'll never change ?!