I would like to start off by apologizing for all I have done this past
week; I feel I owe you an apology. The article I wrote was wrong in
many ways, and I didn't mean to hurt the good name of anyone I may
have offended. It was childish and immature, and doesn't at all
represent the kind of person I would wish to be thought of as.
I realize the slanderous remarks were out of line, and I am ready to
accept any consequence for my actions. They were made out of
bitterness and anger, and I should have thought rationally about the
situation before I hit the "post" button and showed my disrespectful
attitude to the world. In reality, I am not the arrogant,
irresponsible person the article portrayed me as, but rather just a
normal person with normal aspirations. The posting of the article was
an anomaly, of sorts, I've never even thought about doing something
like it before.
I suppose, though, you may be wondering why I even wrote it in the
first place. It wasn't to hurt anyone, or damage the reputation of
anyone, but rather as a way to express my thoughts and feelings to
anyone who would listen. The remarks, I made, however, should not have
been said, though I was so disillusioned by my loss that I made them
anyway. I probably shouldn't have made it to the finals anyway, and I
should have been grateful that I did. Instead, I was immature and
bitter, instead of accepting the results gracefully and with humility.
Though I am young, and still have a lot to learn about the world, I
realize that every action must have its consequence. Thus, I am ready
to accept any consequences of my actions. Acting out-of-line and
slanderously is definitely something to be punished, and I would
understand any recommendations in light of my recent behavior.
Please don't think of me as I am portrayed in the "article" I wrote.
The posting was a product of my rage, as a resentful way to
rationalize my loss; I wanted to win so badly, I should have just
accepted the results. All I want right now is a time machine so I can
visit myself in the past and tell myself to seriously consider what I
may do. I am disgusted at what I had done, and I still don't know
exactly why it happened in the first place. I think about what I would
like to be thought of as, and it is definitely not how I am shown to
be in the article.
Additionally, and perhaps most importantly, I would like to apologize
to anyone I may have hurt or offended, and especially my piano
teacher. She has worked so hard to help me grow musically, and I will
never forget her lessons, both at the keys and at life. I am
especially sorry to have sullied her good name, and hope you realize
that everything that has happened was my fault; she is completely
innocent in this affair. I am ashamed that I betrayed her trust, and I
am especially worried that you will think less of her for something I
did. I ask you to direct all of that at me, for my teacher deserves
nothing less than respect and praise and I am the one responsible for
the article.
Additionally, Thank you, all who were involved, for keeping your cool
through the whole affair.
On a positive note, however, it could be said that every cloud has its
silver lining. I hope this experience will be a new beginning for all
of us, especially for me. This ordeal has taught me so much about
life, and is an invaluable lesson. Everything that happens to me helps
me grow, and this experience showed me always to be humble, always to
be respectful, and never to let my personal views cloud my thoughts. I
have learned so much from this past week, and hope to learn much more
in the future - though in a much more positive way, of course!
Finally, I would like to thank you for taking the time to read this
apology. Please know that it is heartfelt, and I sincerely apologize
for all the wrongs I have caused. It will never happen again, I will
make sure of it.
With sincere apology~