Off-Topic General Discussion - Page 2062

I'm like this too so I can get your feelings Wave (the whole natural anxiousness, feelings of a wasted youth and inertia that makes it easier to waste what remains of it by moaning instead of making a point, up to the inability to really shake myself without external intervention (won't say "help", that'd make it sound way more dramatic than it is, and than you want to perceive it too)), but you say it yourself: you don't really act unless someone makes you, and you lack someone to talk about these things with (I guess either you don't want to "burden" your wife with it, or it doesn't feel better to talk them through with her).
I don't talk about it much either because I don't want to annoy my friends with it nor feel like I'm using them as outlets for my issues (plus some of them wouldn't care or would straight out call me emo, which wouldn't necessarily be unfounded), but it certainly helps just to know that there's someone you can discuss it with if you ever feel the need.
I assume between the pebble and your studies you don't have much time for yourself, let alone for others, and that your social life is a bit meagre? If so, it also means that it's not necessarily all within you: the current situation makes it seem worse, but once you'll be out of that maybe you'll think that it didn't lie with your life but only that particular period and that you don't find yourself all that bad.

It's impressive how much simply going out and meeting some people can switch your perspective when the situation seems dire by yourself.

Tbh I think a lot of (I'd say "most" but personal experience and stuff, it's a demographic thing anyway) people have the same issues you have, it's that they don't necessarily talk about it, especially publicly, and your anxious nature makes it worse for you. I wouldn't exactly call you "a wreck of a human" though.

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