With the aid of mindfulness, I have successfully started the process of combating severe anxiety and depression issues which led to a suicide attempt a few months ago. After being depressed for over 15 years (on and off) I now feel better than I ever have before, and mindfulness is the reason for this.

I would NEVER lie about that.

Jockmcplop

United Kingdom10021 Posts

May 21 2019 15:56 GMT

#1591

I've asked ff to replace me out if i'm not lynched. Have fun. Sorry I couldn't handle it.

Jockmcplop

United Kingdom10021 Posts

May 21 2019 16:04 GMT

#1598

On May 22 2019 01:02 Holyflare wrote:

Show nested quote +

We're not horrible, we're just making sure you weren't! In fact we're trying to make sure you're ok.

Please don't replace. I'll call you confirmed town all game if I have to.

No hard feelings to any of you, you're all just playing the game the way you're supposed to, but I also can't use mental health as a bargaining chip to get called a townie cos that's bullshit.

My heart rate was elevated for the entire walk home from work. I'm fine though. I like the logic and stuff that goes with this game but maybe I have hangups about rejection (or something like that) that makes me freak out when accused. Obviously that doesn't go well with playing mafia.

Jockmcplop

United Kingdom10021 Posts

May 21 2019 16:08 GMT

#1603

On May 22 2019 01:05 Holyflare wrote:

Show nested quote +

Stick around and we'll figure it out together at least? Would like to try, this game seems fine.

Nah. Don't be sad though. I can see warning signs and its only day 1,only my 4th game. Frankly even bringing up anxiety issues like this feels like it will be a problem in the future. What about when I am actually mafia? There would be an inferred emotional blackmail thing going on that i REALLY don't feel comfortable with.

I'll still hang out and obs alot probably...

Jockmcplop

United Kingdom10021 Posts

May 21 2019 16:09 GMT

#1605

I join further games in the future when I've got a better grip of what's going on or if there's a newbie game with coaching. The confusion probably doesn't help.

Jockmcplop

United Kingdom10021 Posts

May 22 2019 06:23 GMT

#2065

Sorry for breaking the rules I didn't even think at the time.

I can continue to play but its up to you guys really. I don't want people to think they should lynch me and not bother because of what I said, that would suck hard and be unfair

The other option is I stop posting altogether for this game, which I'm absolutely fine with.

Jockmcplop

United Kingdom10021 Posts

May 22 2019 06:26 GMT

#2068

no not really yet, just the night post.

I'll play but won't be here as much (Not during work).

Jockmcplop

United Kingdom10021 Posts

May 22 2019 06:27 GMT

#2070

Also I have a job interview today and a band practice tonight so it'll likely be early morning/tomorrow by the time I actually start posting.

Jockmcplop

United Kingdom10021 Posts

May 22 2019 06:31 GMT

#2073

Thanks!
Its a 5 grand payrise on what I have now for doing the same thing :O
If I get it I'll be buzzing.

Jockmcplop

United Kingdom10021 Posts

May 22 2019 21:24 GMT

#2405

Yeesh I got so much catching up to do.

I'll be reading for about an hour or something then I'll try and help :D

Jockmcplop

United Kingdom10021 Posts

May 22 2019 22:20 GMT

#2409

Reading VE's filter is like watching this

Jockmcplop

United Kingdom10021 Posts

May 22 2019 23:27 GMT

#2420

On May 22 2019 04:22 Artanis[Xp] wrote:

Show nested quote +

Fuck you why does this make me think you're town

This has been my favourite part of the game so far if these two are mafia.

Jockmcplop

United Kingdom10021 Posts

May 22 2019 23:28 GMT

#2421

I think they might be

Jockmcplop

United Kingdom10021 Posts

May 22 2019 23:32 GMT

#2422

On May 22 2019 15:39 wherebugsgo wrote:

Show nested quote +

JOCK YOU'RE BACK :D I'm actually really happy cause I got sad reading that huge mess and I was really enjoying playing with you.

BTW idk if you saw this earlier but let's hydra next game (or maybe you can hydra with someone not as shitty as me). I kinda wanna hydra cause my solo scum reads are garbage and I need to work on that, plus it's super fun to chat about the game with someone you know is seeing it from a similar in-game perspective

I'm definitely up for this bugs :D

Jockmcplop

United Kingdom10021 Posts

May 22 2019 23:33 GMT

#2423

HF is pretending like lynching iGrock will make everything fall into place but I don't think that's true at all, I think he just wants rid of iGrock.

Jockmcplop

United Kingdom10021 Posts

May 22 2019 23:34 GMT

#2424

And don't you and Artanis even try and make me feel bad for scumreading you when you were nice to me earlier.

Jockmcplop

United Kingdom10021 Posts

May 22 2019 23:42 GMT

#2426

Like hf and artanis' interactions with each other are just plain weird. HF scumreads artanis very briefly and then immediately townreads him and doesn't really mention him again.

Its like he wanted to get it out of the way early, land on a townread and move on.