EPTI've really liked this one girl, I've known for many years. On the list of chicks that I've liked. She has always been number one on that list. I never once imagined in my life, I would get with her in anyway. I did once before though. But it was in the bar, and she was really drunk and I could tell she was "awkwarded" out by it. This was on Halloween. I have not hung out with her since then. Until last night.
Despite the awkwardness I'd say we've become "better" friends in the past year. We talk over msn frequently. I've become a much more better person over all. I really believe this has helped my case. I used to be very shy before, and mentally ill. Mainly depression. Women don't like depressed men...
I'll get on with the story already.
Last night, me and my friend decided to go a movie so I randomly asked her if she wanted to come with us. I figured she would make up some excuse, and not come. But she said I'm not sure and told me to call her. So I called her when the time was right, and once again I expected her to make up an excuse for not to come. However, she didn't. She said she'll come but shes bringing her friend. I was fine with this. Besides we're all just friends...
The movie ended and she asked what we were doing. We said nothing. So they invited us to go the bar with them. We did. The plan was to only go for a beer or two. However, after drinking 1 beer. Drinking another 11 seemed fitting.
Anyway, we all got hammered. We ended up back at her house. However, she passed out right away. I was bummed out because I always hang onto that slight glimmer of hope that she'll be interested in me.
So I watched a movie, and was going to go to bed... Then I realized how fucking cold it was on her couch. With no blanket... So I woke her up, and asked her if she had a blanket. (She was passed out in a chair.) Long story short, I ended up walking her to her room. Then I asked her for a blanket again and she just pulled the blankets aside and was like "Just sleep with me".
I was surprised but really happy about it. However we're just friends, and I really didn't think anything would happen yet. She laid there and she was shivering, and she was like "I'm freezing..." so me being the smooth cat that I am. I was like "I'll warm you up" and put my arm around her, and pulled her close. Once again I didn't expect her to go for it. But she did. So we laid there, with me holding her. I then decided to go for it... I started rubbing her arms. One thing led to another.
I eventually removed her bra, and began fondling her in many great ways which I will never forget. We began making out, and she really enjoyed it when I would reach up to her neck and grab it and squeeze it lightly. She was really into everything. Especially when I would bite her neck. I was on top of my world at that moment. My heart was racing a mile a minute.
Epic Win.
However, she wouldn't let me put my hand down "there" if you know what I mean. Every time I would try she'd grab it and stop me, and pull my hand back up and make me touch other parts of her very fine body. She wouldn't tell me why either...
I didn't get it, I could tell she wanted it. The way she was moaning, the way she was kissing me, and the way she shuddered every time I'd do something to her. Then I tried again... This time my hand got further... and I felt it... She was wearing a pad.
She was on her period...
Epic Disappointment.
We woke up together, and I figured she would be awkwarded out again. However, she wasn't this time. We joked around a bit, and she was like "God, I'm so tired. You kept me up all night" in a joking tone. It was all good. No awkwardness. No "What the fuck did I do last night!" look.
Next weekend. She will be mine. Oh yes. She will be...
This really could not have come on a more perfect time though. Me and my girlfriend of a year and a half have broken up. So I was pretty down in my dumps about life.
The feeling of "win" inside my mind right now is amazing...
With me luck TL. With how next weekend goes.
