EPTI seem to be writting into the blog section regulary, eh?
Well, this time, this time Day[9] made me to do it! I know I am not the first one and probably not even the last one who creates such channel for themselves in an attempt to find like-minded people to socialize with and enjoy SC2 with.
However, to get to the point of this little rambling of mine - I've watched that daily and I realized how alone I am in terms of StarCraft 2 buddies. I mean, yes, I do have people in my SC2 contact list, but how many of them are actual buddies? Maybe seven of them. But, two of those disappeared into WoW, one of them, an awesome Protoss player and a nice guy overall, is way too busy with his own practice as well as with his own team, another one, great and funny guy who also plays Protoss, I can hardly get to see online due to timezone difference between us, while another of my friends, yet another Protoss who has actually helped quite few people, play like three times a week and again, timezone factor gets in the way, so I often miss him. And the another one, finally a non-Protoss, but a Terran player, is quite young and sometimes I just want to kick his butt for doing the weirdest crap whenever I play him! Don't want to forget my dear Zerg friend, who however became quite frustrated with Zerg, so he hasn't touched SC2 for a while.
Someone I spoke about not having friends actually made a comment on that; quite funny one too. + Show Spoiler +
Putting it in spoiler simply because I hate even mentioning it - but basically, he couldn't believe I struggle with finding friends while being a girl playing SC2, apparently it shouldn't be a problem for me to make friends. I responded along the lines that I'd just hate to be befriended because I have boobs. Rather, I would prefer people to be friends with me because they'd enjoy the same thing as me. He kinda laughed at that. Oh well.
I could easily find myself when Day[9] spoke about not getting into SC2 because of ego. These few SC2 friends I made along the way know how good I am/was at kicking myself for losses or even losing motivation to actually play at times. Sometimes, I'd just log on SC2 and watch others play. Or, watch my favourite Protoss players' stream. (I actually would have three Protoss heroes - HuK, iNcontroL and Ryan Rushia - <3 you guys) instead of actually playing anything! Fear of failure, fear of loss. Yes, so common, isn't it? Those who read my blog regulary know about my goals as well as my love for this damn game.
I've been trying to fight that negative side of mine, to my pleasure, with some success already! However, I simply want to get further into it, play more, which is where I believe that if I actually had someone or even small group of people to hang out with would help me to make even bigger progress, both as a SC2 player as well as my overall mindset I've been trying to work on.
I'm a Bronze player.. however, I haven't laddered for so long, instead, been practicing in public games on ladder maps for the sake of variety of opponents and skill levels. I'm actually looking for few friends, who'd like to spend time with me, hanging out, chatting, practicing and even sharing insights together. I'd like friends who'd not look at leagues and points, saying I am piece of scrub. I would love to meet someone very enthusiastic about the game, so I could lend that enthusiasm and positive energy whenever my motivation and self confidence is low; as well as be there for the other person should they need that. Friends always look out for each other. I don't want 'just' a practice partner, but actual buddies. Making things together, playing, training. I don't care if you are Bronze or Masters - just be friendly, positive, nice and love the damn game. :-)
I always thought how much fun it would be to hang out on skype with SC2 buddies. After all, I think I now know why many of really good players are always so motivated and positive - they do have a backup in form of their teammates, where they do exactly the same thing I'd love to do - they hang out together, talk together, practice and screw around together! Sadly, the only day I am free to talk over skype is Saturday. To explain - I'm a parent to 7 years old kid, and he goes to bed early during week. While on Saturday, he's allowed to stay up quite late, so me talking, yelling, laughing and sharing some good times over skype wouldn't be a problem for me.
Of course, we could be hanging out during weekdays through SC2 and regular messaging to do all of these things as well.
I have to say how much effort it took me to actually write this message. One of reasons I have very little friends is - I'm simply shy person. Always concerned how the others would see me, judge me and perhaps hate me. Heck, the other day, when I had a practice game and teammate of my dear friend joined to observe, I told my friend to tell him to go away, because the very idea of having someone to see me screw up majorly would be a reason for me to be nervous like hell, instead of me telling his friend simple 'hi' and perhaps befriending him as well.
But, my urge to find friends and to not be alone in this huge SC2 world is stronger now. After all, Day[9] made me to do it so I finally tried to come out of my shell to look out for a friend or two...or three...
Either way, if you took time to read this wall of text, I appreciate that. Hopefully, this little lonely Toss won't be so lonely anymore after this - just give me a shout.
