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I need a place to vent out, and the internet is the best place to do it. Here is goes.
For the past like MONTHS, everything has been screwing up for me. Like everything. My life is just like sAviOr's slump in 2007.
Real Life:
- Grades are sht, but I put more effort into things then before, and History class is really getting to me..... Im like a A level student but now im like C with Ds and random As here and there. Then some 2 months ago I just stopped caring.
- Family: Getting in arguments with my mom because of my work ethic dropping. Finances arent as great as they used to be (but not like really bad). See I wouldnt mind this if my dad wasnt a big...[insert word for not co-operative most of the time here]
Online:
- Honestly, I think this site is a great place. But i dont know why but every time I try contributing stuff here it fails. Example, Not one person that viewed my last thread replied. NOT ONE.
- IF you have been reading my other posts.... Iv bean losing online in sc left and right recently, and iv been trying everything I can to get my groove back.. but it isnt working. Normally this wouldnt be a problem except 1. i really REALLY want to become pro and 2. I feel like my skill has really decreased or hasnt even gotten up AT ALL since September 2008. (the only actual thing that I learned was about how you need 2 gas if your going 2/3 hatch muta).
Iv been told that... iv been really dissapointing looking/acting lately.
The only good side I see right now is that I have some great open minded friends (but only at school, besides my neighbour). And I know this isnt depression... thats for sure.
Iv literally tried everything I could think of to solve my problems... I feel like this song:
I need advice. Please.
EDIT: I removed the youtube vid. Im really serious. i dont troll....and I was fine last semester when I had just as much work to do and I was still loosing in sc.
 
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Don't worry. Just try to live your life as best as you can. In the end it doesn't even matter because you'll eventually get out your little "slump."
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in the end, it doesn't even matter.
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I think most of us have been through something similar at least one time before, I know that I have.
All I can really say is that you just have to bite the bullet. Enjoy the things that are still good and grind through the things that are bad.
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United States1106 Posts
it all comes back to you in the end
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Your life sucks but realise once you get out of school that..
in the end it doesnt even matter
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Idk if you're a senior or what, but I had major senioritis the past 2 months before I graduated and it turned out just fine. Don't worry about grades, in 10 years when you're working at your job you're not going to remember that math test you bombed. Just have fun in school, try new things, go out.
As for SC keep playing. I could barely keep my D status for like 2 months and then something just clicked in my brain and my game sense and macro just randomly improved and I rattled off a 20 game win streak. It was weird, and now I'm still playing at a way higher level.
Simply put my mom's awesome and my dad's a douche, and I just keep thinking that I have 3 months until I'm completely free (in college). So just count the months, days, minutes until you can get out of your house... I've been doing it for like 3-4 years.
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On June 07 2009 07:31 DeathByMonkeys wrote:
Idk if you're a senior or what, but I had major senioritis the past 2 months before I graduated and it turned out just fine. Don't worry about grades, in 10 years when you're working at your job you're not going to remember that math test you bombed. Just have fun in school, try new things, go out.
too bad those bombed math tests will have a hand in the job you end up with :D
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Did you change anything in your life when u started "slumping"? Like, when I started to drop grades in school it was because I lost focus when I began playing poker. (so what I am asking, are your focus on other things then school and your life in general)
I know one person started to lose grip of his life when he started to play a lot of starcraft..
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All Good Things Come To The End 
I read your blog
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just try to take everything one step at a time and things will sure look up.
Good luck with your life.
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On June 07 2009 07:34 paper wrote:Show nested quote +On June 07 2009 07:31 DeathByMonkeys wrote:
Idk if you're a senior or what, but I had major senioritis the past 2 months before I graduated and it turned out just fine. Don't worry about grades, in 10 years when you're working at your job you're not going to remember that math test you bombed. Just have fun in school, try new things, go out. too bad those bombed math tests will have a hand in the job you end up with :D
Not necessarily... I got like a 45% on some of my math tests and still managed an A in calc and am expecting a 5 on the AP test. The frequency of these bombed tests matters. But the moral of the story kids is don't freak out about tests and stay up studying all night because it's not going to matter in the long run... unless it's your MCATs or some shit.
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On June 07 2009 07:22 EsX_Raptor wrote:
in the end, it doesn't even matter.
Screw you, I was going to come in here and type this exact same thing the second I saw "Linkin Park." Kennigit is a true genius.
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It sucks dude. I know exactly what you mean. Somtimes, life it all seems so pointless, you know,
nothing's worth aspiring to. It's kinda like there's no future worth fighting for.
Thats how I started recreationally doing various kinds of depressants and hallucinogens;
hash, LSD, cocaine, amphetamins, you know, all that kinda shit. Also party drugs like
exstacy, speed and stuff, but meh. When the effect blows over, life's still so pointless.
Eventually though, my parents caught on to what I was doing, and told me to clean the fuck up
n get a grip of my life. I abided their wishes on the surface at least, but whats said and what's
done are two different things. I kept on my downward spiral of apathy and drugs.
I was probably close to fucking myself up completely back then, with the growing debt and
thugs looking to make me pay what I was owing. I managed to keep them off by selling for them.
Dealing was pretty good for me, really. I met this really hot chick at a club who gave me the best
orgasm I've had ever for just a couple tabs of E, and you know, that was only one of the good
effects the new forced job I had gave me. It really helped me meet a lot of cool people that have
since helped mold me into what I am today. Of course, back then they were all fuckers who
needed party-drugs to keep going all night, and like 99% of them I've never seen again, but
those that has stuck around, were the ones saving my life, dude.
Eventually, shit hit the fan. My parents had gotten enough of my (I thought it was, at least) well-
veiled masquerade, and tossed me out, saying that I'd not show my face back there untill I had
ended my pathetic habits. It was then, when I was cut off from the comformities of a hot shower
nearly every morning and things like that, that I realised what a good life I had abandoned.
Me, the drug-crazy night-life dealing, thug-hunted freak decided to cut it all off and get
a life for myself, free of the fake friends wanting free drugs and the abusive dealers and their
thugs. With the help of a few of the real friends I'd made through dealing, I was able to trick
the entire fucking drug scene. You see, one of the guys was working as an assistant to a news
editor, and another was a journalist grad, and with their help, we cooked up a fake death note. I
really hope none of the people I used to deal for are reading this site though.
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On June 07 2009 07:14 Sonu wrote:
- Honestly, I think this site is a great place. But i dont know why but every time I try contributing stuff here it fails. Example, Not one person that viewed my last thread replied. NOT ONE.
- IF you have been reading my other posts.... Iv bean losing online in sc left and right recently, and iv been trying everything I can to get my groove back.. but it isnt working. Normally this wouldnt be a problem except 1. i really REALLY want to become pro and 2. I feel like my skill has really decreased or hasnt even gotten up AT ALL since September 2008. (the only actual thing that I learned was about how you need 2 gas if your going 2/3 hatch muta).
Do you honestly expect people to go crazy over your last thread?
"WOO HOO ANOTHER D-/D PLAYER COMMENTATING ON GAMES WHICH I BARELY EVEN WATCH NORMALLY, HELL WATCH WITH COMMENTARY FROM A PLAYER WHO KNOWS NEAR NOTHING ABOUT STARCRAFT"
Like seriously dude, you just made a thread about how bad of a player you are and another one about how you are quitting starcraft; you do realize that you are talking to pretty well the same audience right?
I am sorry to hear that you are feeling down and you have problems in your life (btw every single person just incase you weren't aware), but don't expect immediate gratification every time you do something (such as starting commentaries) because things don't always work out that way.
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On June 07 2009 09:08 Resonance wrote:Show nested quote +On June 07 2009 07:14 Sonu wrote:
- Honestly, I think this site is a great place. But i dont know why but every time I try contributing stuff here it fails. Example, Not one person that viewed my last thread replied. NOT ONE.
- IF you have been reading my other posts.... Iv bean losing online in sc left and right recently, and iv been trying everything I can to get my groove back.. but it isnt working. Normally this wouldnt be a problem except 1. i really REALLY want to become pro and 2. I feel like my skill has really decreased or hasnt even gotten up AT ALL since September 2008. (the only actual thing that I learned was about how you need 2 gas if your going 2/3 hatch muta).
Do you honestly expect people to go crazy over your last thread? "WOO HOO ANOTHER D-/D PLAYER COMMENTATING ON GAMES WHICH I BARELY EVEN WATCH NORMALLY, HELL WATCH WITH COMMENTARY FROM A PLAYER WHO KNOWS NEAR NOTHING ABOUT STARCRAFT" Like seriously dude, you just made a thread about how bad of a player you are and another one about how you are quitting starcraft; you do realize that you are talking to pretty well the same audience right? I am sorry to hear that you are feeling down and you have problems in your life (btw every single person just incase you weren't aware), but don't expect immediate gratification every time you do something (such as starting commentaries) because things don't always work out that way.
but not even a single reply? not even a 1 liner saying that I suck or anything?
life is so frustrating right now -_- and yes i know every has problems.
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Belgium6776 Posts
For starters, stop listening to linkin park D:
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First of all, I recommend you get rid of the idea of becoming a StarCraft progamer. It's probably not going to happen any time soon and playing to much SC is going to drag your grades down. Put more emphasis on school. This way, you'll be more relaxed (good grades, parents not complaining) and this might help you in SC after all.
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didn't read your post but
FML too
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At least your IP didn't get banned from ICCUP for no reason at all. FML!
EDIT: NVM I just realized ICCUP is down, MY LIFE ROCKS
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Oh come on, Linkin Park vid? This has to be a troll post; why is no one else seeing through this? A guide was just posted for gawsh sakes.
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On June 07 2009 09:43 Pyrrhuloxia wrote:
Oh come on, Linkin Park vid? This has to be a troll post; why is no one else seeing through this? A guide was just posted for gawsh sakes.
i edited it .. im being serious man
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On June 07 2009 09:29 Xeofreestyler wrote:
For starters, stop listening to linkin park D:
Lol true story
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If you're tired of being what they (your parents) want you to be, you should make decisions based on what you want in life. However, just be prepared to live with the consequences
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On June 07 2009 09:43 Pyrrhuloxia wrote:
Oh come on, Linkin Park vid? This has to be a troll post; why is no one else seeing through this? A guide was just posted for gawsh sakes.
You're pretty dense to think it's a troll post.
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On June 07 2009 10:08 Xusneb wrote:If you're tired of being what they (your parents) want you to be, you should make decisions based on what you want in life. However, just be prepared to live with the consequences
acutally my parents are one of those "as long as u have a sucessful career" type
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Just try to get your real life in order before you try anything online
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go out have have fun with friends
???
problem solved if your happier your grades will get better
assuming your not a troll
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Okay,
First up, buck up, we've got your back. As long as you're an okay guy and don't bitch about shit thats rather important (compared to a lot of people on these forums). Just don't complain about unnecesarry things.
Second,
I watched your commentary, downloaded it, watched it in full. I'm sorry man, but it was shit. Like, so terrible. Just... so bad. I hate to tell you this shit at a time when you're down, but I feel like i have to after your last post. Your commentary was just... unbearable.
Lastly, you seem like an alright guy, don't get yourself down. People have it way worse than you. Buck up, be a man.
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fyi: real life>online life.
(ducks and covers)
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it'll be ok
just focus on the here and now
what are you gonna do
u won't go anywhere by focusing on things that have already happened
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Start gambling.
Feels great when you win. Tomorrow: game 2 lakers vs magic. throw some money down. if you lose, just fml more, but if you win, go buy yourself lap dance.
Then on monday, go to class with head held high and do some maths.
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quit sc abit, train irl.
See you in 2 months
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I'm not trying to be mean, but if you only just learned within the last nine months that you need two gas to go 2 or 3 hat muta...you have quite a ways to go before becoming "pro". :X
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On June 07 2009 13:16 BreaK wrote:
Okay,
First up, buck up, we've got your back. As long as you're an okay guy and don't bitch about shit thats rather important (compared to a lot of people on these forums). Just don't complain about unnecesarry things.
Second,
I watched your commentary, downloaded it, watched it in full. I'm sorry man, but it was shit. Like, so terrible. Just... so bad. I hate to tell you this shit at a time when you're down, but I feel like i have to after your last post. Your commentary was just... unbearable.
Lastly, you seem like an alright guy, don't get yourself down. People have it way worse than you. Buck up, be a man.
thank, i think u helped the most. I actually didnt want to write this blog post but i needed to vent.. and i really dont want to talkt to my rl friends right now. and i know it was horrible (my commentary), guess I was to emo for one.
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Read the "power of now" and you will become much happier.
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Wow I can't believe you added an 'online' section about how bad your life is, get a grip before you're really beyond redemption.
You realize that this online life is one you choose and change according to your wishes, you can't simply do this in real life, I'm just going to assume you're <16. I suggest you just start playing games for fun, since they seem to be causing you a lot of frustration, which is the opposite of what you want with games. Just buy call of duty 4 or something. Technically procrastination in schoolwork is usually due to an instant wanting for gratification even though it's damaging in the long run, try to change your routines.
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im not under 16, but i think i tried to hard to contribute When I first read the guidlines for TL, I was like "alright I gotta contribute"... i think i tried a little too hard. :S
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