EPTToday was my last exam (physics). All was successful until i had to leave uni. Since my cats broke another headphones(my dad's) i had to buy another ones. So i go to the mall, and everything goes perfectly fine until..
i see my ex's mother walking towards me with a shopping cart. I panic and immediatly notice my ex is walking right beside her. Then this unthinkable feeling goes up my back, like an adrenaline rush and i start shaking badly. I made a quick eye-contact with her mother, but turned around almost instantly and grabbed another route.
so i went all they way to the shop shaking with my heart beating so bloody fast that i thought it was going to pour out through my mouth. I successfully bought the headphones, but on my way back to the car i was really careful not to bump into her(i didnt know where was she heading). People was looking at me really weird because it looked as if i was being chased by the cops because i was looking every way while still shaking.
i could make it to my car and leave.
however i hate this bloody feeling because im not supposed to feel so fucking much about her, i mean its almost 7 months since we broke up, yet i still think about her all the bloody time even when i go and meet other girls i cant take her out of my head. I feel angry about her, i dont know why. And to make it worse her fucking boyfriend is "a friend of mine".
Now that im on vacation i dont have to see him nor any reminder of my ex. I even blocked him out of messenger, deleted his phone and everything. I want nothing that reminds me of her. Oh and when i get home he phones me and ask if i saw her ex on the mall(i think she saw me... shit). I only remained silent and then he said: ok, lets talk about another thing. school chat blabla.
i might sound a bit emo but this shit almost ruined my day. Now im going to a party with my old old school friends (3rd grade oh yes). I hope i can get my mind off that stuff, and meet someone who's funny and interesting.
No girl pic, atm everything reminds me of my ex. Next blog ill give you 2x girl pics.
bye
