Well, I did not experience any cathartic event that would suddenly change the trajectory of my life and skyrocket it into unknown heights after a way too long downwards spiral. Still, I feel like recently a ray of light has appeared at the end of the tunnel. I am not sure if it is caused by an actual improvement of my situation or just by me finally coming to terms with my situation. At least I have an argument for the former: Never again tripple digits!
I let myself go and I am still under 100kg. I am positive that I will reach sub 95 soon as well. To put this into perspective: While 95kg would be seriously overweight for a lot of people, I (an many around me that do not care) would agree that I would be far from fat at this weight. At the very least, I would not have to worry about my appearance (only about a couple 100 other existencially important atributes).
The train has almost reached my destination, so I will have to cut this note to myself short. I am still afraid that my slow but steady upwards trajectory can go straight towards rock bottom any moment, but I just felt like I needed to note that it has not for a significant amount of time.
P.s. The Tunnel took an unexpected turn, but there is light here as well. Additionally, there is a glimmer of hope as well. It will probably dissolve sooner or later but I am just glad that it sustains my upwards trajectory right now.
P.s.s. updates sooner or later...