hopefully maybe will find some understanding and/or support over here
To make long story short, i'm playing chess. And it requires practice. Well i'm a beginner. I play it for 2 years or so though, not to regularly lately because of work and need of money. How come is that when I play for some time, go through understanding some concepts, everything seems to start going alright, but even if I miss one day I already start to see a difference start playing differently and got to remind myself everything from the beginning, faster but still... like pushing a 1 Ton Rock over the hill. And seriously even though I might feel that it keeps getting a little bit smaller ( the hill ) every time I put work to it the effort is tremendous.. especially if you got to the same thing all over again and again and again ... really makes me throw up sometimes
I'm writing this/asking because I know that there are a lot of people who are really decent at coaching/managing theirselves and believe that compare to me, just know a lot.