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TuElite
Profile Blog Joined March 2010
Canada2123 Posts
Last Edited: 2012-11-13 05:22:36
November 13 2012 05:22 GMT
#1
The following is just random rambling, due to depression and having listened to too much "More Of Me" by Joe Budden while walking alone at night.

Title is unrelated as well, just a Joey quote from Welcome To Real Life off of MM4 that I liked.

Everyday I wake up torn by the thoughts of weather I should strive to enjoy the world, improve it, or destroy it.

What's my place in society ? How can I fit-in and achieve happiness when I don't like it and do not belong.

Why is everyone, including you and me, so fucking self-centered. How do we exploit our own people and neighbors for money ? Why do we exploit literally everything else ? Animals... Poor, peaceful animals... Oceans, forests, minerals, soil... Our planet, it's inhabitants, exploited for monetary gains.

Why don't we stop all of this ? Because NO ONE is truly for all of this, that cannot be.

"If slaughterhouses had glass walls, everyone would be a vegetarian." - Sir Paul McCartney

Everyone knows though, everyone has seen the Youtube documentaries and videos, yet didn't take actions to change the system. I know I've seen it and felt ashamed yet I still eat meat. Meat. What the fuck does meat even mean ? The correct word is animals.

Everywhere you look, you'll see disgusting and shameful acts being done for profits. Our dear to heart capitalistic system, such am achievement! But it can't be just that, can it ? Money,m the root of all evil ? I'm not sold on that. Something else is inherently wrong in people. Can education cure it ? Apparently not, the most highly educated countries are the dirtiest. Places where everyone would jump at the opportunity to exploit his own neighbor.

Fucking bullshit. And I want no part in it.


I can't handle stress, I'm bad with responsibilities. That makes for a less than impressive Curriculum vitae.
The moment I used to be the happiest (?), or maybe rather... The more, "comfortable", is when I used to stay at home, not go to school, not work and do nothing but browse the net, talk to people, watch movies, play games, etc.
I'm like a kid. All I want is to fun. Fun,, right now. The immediate. That's all I seem to care or plan for. Oh and to learn, I like to learn, on my own.


She's always with me, just not physically.
Aching for that contact to be, dying spiritually.

**
Always Smile - Jung Nicole - Follow Nicole on Twitter @_911007 and me @TuElite
Qwyn
Profile Blog Joined December 2010
United States2779 Posts
November 13 2012 05:35 GMT
#2
You can't change the system when it controls the indoctrinated masses, garnering their support...You can't change the system until the brink of revolution, when the disillusioned break away...

But you can change yourself. And the best way to do that is to form your OWN opinions. Not adopt a party standard. Not someone else's bias. Make sure to fix firmly in your mind what YOU think.

Your place in society is what you make it. Sprinkle a bit of luck in with your efforts, and you might be remembered for something ultimately trivial. But when we all die alone, you tend to realize that truth - is merely coming to terms with your own mortality and inability to dictate the principles of reality.
"Think of the hysteria following the realization that they consciously consume babies and raise the dead people from their graves" - N0
obesechicken13
Profile Blog Joined July 2008
United States10467 Posts
November 13 2012 06:00 GMT
#3
On November 13 2012 14:22 TuElite wrote:
Why is everyone, including you and me, so fucking self-centered. How do we exploit our own people and neighbors for money ? Why do we exploit literally everything else ? Animals... Poor, peaceful animals... Oceans, forests, minerals, soil... Our planet, it's inhabitants, exploited for monetary gains.

This will eventually happen anyways if I don't say it but there's probably some biological reason that came from evolution.

"If slaughterhouses had glass walls, everyone would be a vegetarian." - Sir Paul McCartney

Everyone knows though, everyone has seen the Youtube documentaries and videos, yet didn't take actions to change the system. I know I've seen it and felt ashamed yet I still eat meat. Meat. What the fuck does meat even mean ? The correct word is animals.

I actually haven't seen the videos despite what my username would suggest. I do not care at the moment and I like meat.

Everywhere you look, you'll see disgusting and shameful acts being done for profits. Our dear to heart capitalistic system, such am achievement! But it can't be just that, can it ? Money,m the root of all evil ? I'm not sold on that. Something else is inherently wrong in people. Can education cure it ? Apparently not, the most highly educated countries are the dirtiest. Places where everyone would jump at the opportunity to exploit his own neighbor.

There's nothing "wrong" with something if we're programmed and taught to do it. There are plenty of good people though. I've lost my wallet several times and every time found it again in a lost and found.

I can't handle stress, I'm bad with responsibilities. That makes for a less than impressive Curriculum vitae.
The moment I used to be the happiest (?), or maybe rather... The more, "comfortable", is when I used to stay at home, not go to school, not work and do nothing but browse the net, talk to people, watch movies, play games, etc.
I'm like a kid. All I want is to fun. Fun,, right now. The immediate. That's all I seem to care or plan for. Oh and to learn, I like to learn, on my own.

Just as you've learned the language of your society, so too have you learned its ideals. That life is meant to be lived with another human being. That you must work hard in school, and make an honest living.

I remember in sociology the professor talked briefly about how social deviance could be caused by people failing to meet the expectations that society had put on them.
I think in our modern age technology has evolved to become more addictive. The things that don't give us pleasure aren't used as much. Work was never meant to be fun, but doing it makes us happier in the long run.
bokeevboke
Profile Blog Joined May 2010
Singapore1674 Posts
November 13 2012 06:11 GMT
#4
random rambling too:

I feel the greatest evil of humanity is greediness. I see it everywhere, everyone wants more and more, bigger and bigger. I'm fucking fed up with all my friends and relatives being obsessed by more things, money and stuff. Someone can call me a loser, but, how am I loser? am I wrong for not wanting those things, not having desire at all. But, worst of all, society does, and its to be normal, thats fucked up.
Its grack
TheEmulator
Profile Blog Joined July 2010
28095 Posts
November 13 2012 07:44 GMT
#5
Those last two lines must be dedicated to Nicole.
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peacenl
Profile Blog Joined November 2009
550 Posts
November 13 2012 19:18 GMT
#6
You guys should watch "Penn and Teller's Bullshit" show, it covers a lot of conspiracy, wrong general beliefs and false thought systems. No wonder when media exclusively feeds us this stuff every day while good things never get any exposure.

By no means am I willing to say that they are always right but the evidence is based on such simple logic that it makes perfect sense a lot of the times.
- One does not simply walk into a bar and start calling the shots.
- Failure doesn't mean you are a failure it just means you haven't succeeded yet.
Recognizable
Profile Blog Joined December 2011
Netherlands1552 Posts
November 13 2012 19:41 GMT
#7
What point is there to get mad at nature, our human behaviour? Would you get mad at a tree when it doesn't have grow any apple's?

Kudos to someone who recognizes where this is from.
Anyway, we are different from animals and we can definitely change the way we behave. If you are disgusted by how people behave, try to either change it, ignore it, because getting mad without taking any action has no use.
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