Title is unrelated as well, just a Joey quote from Welcome To Real Life off of MM4 that I liked.
Everyday I wake up torn by the thoughts of weather I should strive to enjoy the world, improve it, or destroy it.
What's my place in society ? How can I fit-in and achieve happiness when I don't like it and do not belong.
Why is everyone, including you and me, so fucking self-centered. How do we exploit our own people and neighbors for money ? Why do we exploit literally everything else ? Animals... Poor, peaceful animals... Oceans, forests, minerals, soil... Our planet, it's inhabitants, exploited for monetary gains.
Why don't we stop all of this ? Because NO ONE is truly for all of this, that cannot be.
"If slaughterhouses had glass walls, everyone would be a vegetarian." - Sir Paul McCartney
Everyone knows though, everyone has seen the Youtube documentaries and videos, yet didn't take actions to change the system. I know I've seen it and felt ashamed yet I still eat meat. Meat. What the fuck does meat even mean ? The correct word is animals.
Everywhere you look, you'll see disgusting and shameful acts being done for profits. Our dear to heart capitalistic system, such am achievement! But it can't be just that, can it ? Money,m the root of all evil ? I'm not sold on that. Something else is inherently wrong in people. Can education cure it ? Apparently not, the most highly educated countries are the dirtiest. Places where everyone would jump at the opportunity to exploit his own neighbor.
Fucking bullshit. And I want no part in it.
I can't handle stress, I'm bad with responsibilities. That makes for a less than impressive Curriculum vitae.
The moment I used to be the happiest (?), or maybe rather... The more, "comfortable", is when I used to stay at home, not go to school, not work and do nothing but browse the net, talk to people, watch movies, play games, etc.
I'm like a kid. All I want is to fun. Fun,, right now. The immediate. That's all I seem to care or plan for. Oh and to learn, I like to learn, on my own.
She's always with me, just not physically.
Aching for that contact to be, dying spiritually.