EPTBe Like Grass
Youth has not passed me by. That is one thing I realized as I sat in the field in front of my house; not only does it symbolize the simplicity of my life, but also a security among those that I can call my own. Youth has not passed me, and I have not passed it. I see people rush into adulthood, as I turn 18 almost hypocritically - I do not hate my own age, but rather I hate the supposed "abilities" that come with it - I know that the perks that I will receive for turning 18 will only be marred by what others will put on me. Though I should not be so depressing about a large milestone in my life (I turned 18 on October 15th), I cannot help but think that now things aren't different, but it is hard to think that others will not use this as a stepping stone for their own good and not mine.
In truth I believe that most of us are too intent to grow up, we do not cherish childhood for what it is. I sense that people cherish their childhood as a fond, lingering memory, but they do not take childhood for what it should be. Childhood should be a time of punishment-less mistakes, a time of unbridled exploration without comprimisation, and foremost a time that should feel like forever and should not just be a spec in hindsight. Youth should play a larger role in our lives, it shouldn't be some place to ditch our less than happy memories, it shouldn't be a place for humans to place their trashed old behaviors, and it especially should not be something to ditch as soon as we turn 12. I see this a lot on TL, and it bothers me.
There are three types of these activities that I see, but I'm only going to say two, and am only going to focus on one of them (the rest will be for other blogs, while the other one is up to your imagination):
- Talking matter-of-factly about how the world is
- Pre-Judging with a lack of respect paid to other philosophies
and while one can say that these are immature activities, or activities that everyone does, I see this a lot from the young crowd on TL (myself included). I see that people here don't tend to sway, bend, or even compromise about items here. Many act as if they know exactly what has happened, speak matter-of-factly about less than common occurneces, and state how right they are even in ways that aren't overbearingly pretentious; it is not sickening, it's saddening. It seems like people simply throw away that simplicity, that innocence, without a care to how little they actually know. This isn't just a TL thing, this is an entire real world thing. This isn't just about random history
I feel that the biggest issue that I see, especially at my age (18) is a form of faux-intellectualism that we know a lot. Not in math or science, or in the use of language, but in philosophy, psychology, and in the wisdom that is bestowed upon people only by life. I see this a lot in kids my age, and thats because we are just that, kids. We should be more willing to keep to youth, to the innocence of ignorance and learn at least enough to know that we should not just throw away the past like an old pizza box. This is what I mean by people taking advantage of me because of my age, this paniced, "YOU ARE 18, WTF DO I DO," response by kids younger and kids older, because in truth I am just a kid. We pre-judge how people should be, we believe we know how things are, and this predisposes kids my age to be more like children than the adults they so long to be. I've grown, been cut down, then grown again, and maybe, just maybe I'll be more of a kid tha na child because of it.
TL, forgive my pretentiousness in this blog if you find it that way, this is just something I've felt since turning 18 this week. It feels weird to be an adult, and yet I realize I have not changed at all from the day before I turned 18, this is to mimic that feeling in words.I kept this short so you all don't have to hear my ramblings. Also there will probably be a fun blog for this weekend
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