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Youth, Dreams, and Everything In Between. - Page 10

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Sabu113
Profile Blog Joined August 2009
United States11071 Posts
August 24 2012 07:05 GMT
#181
This was well written. Nice blog.
Biomine is a drunken chick who is on industrial strength amphetamines and would just grab your dick and jerk it as hard and violently as she could while screaming 'OMG FUCK ME', because she saw it in a Sasha Grey video ...-Wombat_Ni
ShiniSama
Profile Joined November 2011
United States103 Posts
August 24 2012 09:41 GMT
#182
5/5 very well written, a lot of this relates back to me and how I feel as well. 24, had a dream, and abandon it. The only real difference is I was forced to abandon it because of an injury with my arm. Everything since then is just gone and I am struggeling to find something else. I still have starcraft heavily in my life, playing it (only casually since I know nothing can come from it for me anymore) and watching it. Its is sad, and I'm sure many people feel the same way because they have had the same dream.
EZPZ
Boundz(DarKo)
Profile Joined March 2009
5311 Posts
Last Edited: 2012-08-24 10:09:23
August 24 2012 10:08 GMT
#183
Are you me? Same age, not exactly the same dream but it was the game that shaped mine, too. It's been in our life for so long now, more than half of our entire life - but slowly fading away. With the conclusion of bwOSL and Violet dying... what more can you do than just cry? Oh I've cried, alot.

But onto new dreams eh, we're still young. I still want to devote my life to something. And I need it to be starcraft related. Perhaps we'll run into eachother on the SC2 ladder? ._.


Edit: please don't let the BW section turn into a place where all the now-grown-up losers cry out. we made this place! and no, I did not enjoy writing that.
firehand101
Profile Blog Joined March 2011
Australia3152 Posts
August 24 2012 11:40 GMT
#184
Well I am just so happy for you in this blog...or at least I was until I read how much you cared about it 'as a dream' ; but I will get to that later.

I think you should be overjoyed with your experience here. You went from being fat and unhappy with yourself to getting the attention and friends you always wanted. The goal you set for yourself changed you as a person; all for the better. As you said, you got skinnier, had girls in your life, and I could imagine everything just kept going up from there.

You should be proud man! You pulled yourself up from a hard situation and you had a great time, all thanks to that dream. I guess that can also be the flip side. As you describe it, this meant a lot for you, and I guess not accomplishing it is disheartening.

But. Dude. If you just take a second and look up at where you are now, you have everything you wanted BUT that, which I think is a darn good effort! There are many of us that go through life not accomplishing our dreams. You tried yours, and although you didn't complete it, it gave you a great jump start on life.

So I guess my advice is, don't get caught up in it and don't look back. You are still so young and have so many other things to do. Not everyone can be a pro gamer. And btw, the MAJORITY that are have a hard life and earn very little...and if they don't make it big after spending 10+ hours a day on their machine, they have limited places to go afterwards.

Making it to pro gamer status is challenging, don't be disheartened if you fall short. It takes unbelievable dedication and courage; which many of us don't have.

Just take this as a learning experience, as hard as it may seem. Things are always looking up, and just take each day as it comes. Not all of us can be successful at pro gaming, but we can all be successful at life if we are willing to be happy

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NagAfightinG
Profile Joined March 2011
United Kingdom270 Posts
August 24 2012 12:21 GMT
#185
Fuck dude, that was heartbreaking.
We live like animals thinking of the afterlive
FoxerGames
Profile Joined August 2012
Australia120 Posts
Last Edited: 2012-08-24 23:21:04
August 24 2012 13:58 GMT
#186
http://www.youtube.com/embed/FzSR_TFMirs

I think this video sums it up well... It is heart breaking when you see a kid and thought to yourself I used to be like that with all dreams and hope...
I didn't want to work so I didn't.
niteReloaded
Profile Blog Joined February 2007
Croatia5282 Posts
August 24 2012 14:12 GMT
#187
Such a great blog, thanks man

The subject of abandoned dreams is darn powerful. We should all risk more.... dreams are sacred.
jfourz
Profile Joined August 2009
Ireland421 Posts
August 24 2012 15:21 GMT
#188
thanks for sharing
it is said that your life flashes before your eyes just before you die. that is true, it's called life.
SatelliteNoodles
Profile Joined June 2011
220 Posts
August 24 2012 16:28 GMT
#189
Amazing.

GIVE ME COMMAND... - Yell0w ­­­
acgFork
Profile Blog Joined May 2011
Canada397 Posts
August 24 2012 17:07 GMT
#190
Ever since I read this, I've been thinking about it in the back of my mind. I'm kind of going the same thing, although my dream wasn't to become a progamer.

Would you mind if I made a short film based on this story?
acgFork 208
Hellburn
Profile Joined December 2011
Switzerland229 Posts
August 24 2012 17:49 GMT
#191
It's a game
Make a city go BOOM = > http://oxid-city.antiville.fr/ !
Osmoses
Profile Blog Joined October 2008
Sweden5302 Posts
August 24 2012 19:27 GMT
#192
Best blog.
Excuse me hun, but what is your name? Vivian? I woke up next to you naked and, uh, did we, um?
kawoq
Profile Joined November 2005
Guatemala357 Posts
August 24 2012 21:05 GMT
#193
thanks for sharing, hope you find a new dream soon...
"It is not a shameful thing to be unable to reach the goal. It's becoming afraid and running away, even before considering the fact that the road is long and rough, that is truly cowardly." by - Lim Yo Hwan aka SlayerS_Boxer from "Crazy as me"
Aerisky
Profile Blog Joined May 2012
United States12129 Posts
August 24 2012 21:54 GMT
#194
On August 24 2012 22:58 FoxerGames wrote:
http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=yATI48dcsMU

I think this video sums it up well... It is heart breaking when you see a kid and thought to yourself I used to be like that with all dreams and hope...

Wow all of these replies are also giving me this sort of...nostalgic/wistful feeling >.<

That song is really good...looking it up, it a gives the same sort of feeling and idea...
Jim while Johnny had had had had had had had; had had had had the better effect on the teacher.
nesteaplunger
Profile Joined April 2010
70 Posts
August 25 2012 01:17 GMT
#195
I'm just a lurker but this blog really got me too. Really well written and very sad. The looming "death" of broodwar feels like part of me is dying too. But broodwar will never die, it lives on in all of us.
Dontkillme
Profile Joined November 2011
Korea (South)806 Posts
August 25 2012 01:41 GMT
#196
It is a hard decision to make, wanting to become a starcraft progamers, Dont know how to respond to a sad thing like this
Bomber & Jaedong & FlaSh & SNSD <3
HornyHydra
Profile Joined February 2011
Taiwan222 Posts
August 25 2012 09:05 GMT
#197
This story is fucking incredible, awesome read man.

PS: You forgot to name your girlfriends "Felicity"
Prime ♥
ruiyang
Profile Blog Joined April 2010
252 Posts
August 25 2012 12:50 GMT
#198
What an insanely well written post OP. Im still chasing dreams and sometimes it makes me wonder why i didnt go for the normal everyday dude lifestyle.
Ack1027
Profile Blog Joined January 2004
United States7873 Posts
August 25 2012 20:34 GMT
#199
Pubbanana,
As someone who was here when you were active I immediately remember you and what your online persona on TL was like. I don't know you personally or remember the exact things you posted but I can remember you were a really cool contributing member to this site and to BW progaming. Your posts were almost never nonsense and were always fun to read.

As an ethnic korean who routinely bashes on translators here and translation works done, I can say now without any pretense or bullshit that I seriously thought you were korean. That's it, you fooled me, and hopefully i can convey this point without trying to make it about me but wow holy shit when I read you weren't even korean that blew my mind. You even posted like a korean. Reading how determined you were to become what you dreamed to be gave me chills.

This really hit close to home for a lot of people I think, because a lot of us like me are the same age as you, and had some variant of the progamer dream. As for the issues outside of starcraft like your sister, life experiences, who you are today.....I can appreciate what you wrote and respect it for what it is.

Take care. I hope you find the desire to live life like back then when nobody knew.
WinterNightz
Profile Blog Joined August 2010
United States111 Posts
August 25 2012 21:30 GMT
#200
dammit, now I'm crying. ;_;
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