EPTYouth, Dreams, and Everything In Between. - Page 8
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cray
United States28 Posts
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lnstantly
United Kingdom23 Posts
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OhSix
United States252 Posts
On August 24 2012 04:14 Nikoras wrote: Hey man I know how that feels. I lost my job this week and seriously thought about ending it all. I even prepared everything. The one thing that's keeping me alive was thinking about last year at MLG Providence when I walked out of the booth and the crowd was cheering for me...Honestly, enthusiastically, cheering. Not because it was the polite thing to do or because it was expected of them, but I showed them something they liked and I got to live the dream for one sweet instant. I think everyone dreams about a moment like that or some level or another, but I was able to experience that for a moment and if not for SC2 I'm sure I'd be 6 ft deep right now. Glad you're still here with us. (: I remember that moment of yours at Providence too. It was rad, thanks for that. | ||
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Radiated11
United States32 Posts
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NiKoJa
26 Posts
Really well written and sad story sir, best wishes. | ||
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Aphasie
Norway474 Posts
I know exactly how you feel. I did the same fucking thing. Remember sitting day after day, night after night on the NC, NT, Namoo, Nexus channels on US West and practiced my ass off. Its one of the few times in my now 25 year long life I REALLY applied myself and tried to be the best. But being bound by the evil spell that is the Macintosh, I was unable to bind ctrl to my mouse and felt like a was playing with a disadvantage. Couple that with no one to continually train with and being mechanically mediocre (physically) I never made it. I was shattered when I realized those korean people i played against will always be better than me. (or maybe I just lost my faith?).... Fast forward 2 years, the second curse of the Mac. Everyone migrates to PGTour from WGTour. Whoop-di-fucking-doo. I cant install the launcher and there were no one left to play with. After my half forced retirement I think Ive caught atleast 80% of all televised games from 2004-9 | ||
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qwaykee
Norway268 Posts
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Mr Showtime
United States1353 Posts
Thank you. and thank you to motbob for posting it on r/starcraft, or else I may never have found this. | ||
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Aerisky
United States12129 Posts
You write really well and your emotions really hurt. Not sure where to go from here, but...well I guess I hope you find your heart again, and discover more hopes and dreams. | ||
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CyKLanD
Germany22 Posts
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Diplomat
United States45 Posts
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rea1ity
United Kingdom385 Posts
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MavivaM
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Sc2ggRise
United States607 Posts
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xHadoken
United States171 Posts
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Brandish
United States339 Posts
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renkin
France249 Posts
Every kid has a dream that fades away at some point. Starcraft may have not given you a public cheering in a starleague final, but you still gained a lot of things chasing that dream and sadly, that's not the case for everyone. You learned to be social, a skill that will be usefull all your life. I wouldn't expect someone to be good at SC2 to turn like this ! You are crying the old you, this boy who got a life thanks to starcraft. Out of respect for you and what this game gave you, keep playing and keep staying in this community. However, if after some soul searching this dream of you doesn't fade away, you know what you have to do. | ||
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iiGreetings
Canada563 Posts
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xO.Thunder
United States37 Posts
It's weirdly relatable too, starting college soon... | ||
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kc
Canada212 Posts
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