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Youth, Dreams, and Everything In Between. - Page 8

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cray
Profile Joined August 2011
United States28 Posts
August 23 2012 20:57 GMT
#141
What a amazing post. Thank you for sharing.
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lnstantly
Profile Joined August 2012
United Kingdom23 Posts
August 23 2012 21:06 GMT
#142
I have goosebumps right now. that was probably the most beautiful post i have ever read on any website. I don't even know what to say, besides that i hope that you can a new passion in life that you want to follow as much as Starcraft. Or that this will reignite your passion for the game. it is never too late. Anyway, I wish you the best of luck in life, and i would really recommend looking into writing a book or something, because this was an astonishing piece of writing.
Axiom + Liquid <3
OhSix
Profile Joined October 2011
United States252 Posts
August 23 2012 21:08 GMT
#143
On August 24 2012 04:14 Nikoras wrote:
Hey man I know how that feels. I lost my job this week and seriously thought about ending it all. I even prepared everything.

The one thing that's keeping me alive was thinking about last year at MLG Providence when I walked out of the booth and the crowd was cheering for me...Honestly, enthusiastically, cheering. Not because it was the polite thing to do or because it was expected of them, but I showed them something they liked and I got to live the dream for one sweet instant. I think everyone dreams about a moment like that or some level or another, but I was able to experience that for a moment and if not for SC2 I'm sure I'd be 6 ft deep right now.


Glad you're still here with us. (: I remember that moment of yours at Providence too. It was rad, thanks for that.
What you preach is worthless, your worship defeat the purpose, like president Bush taking bullets for the secret service.
Radiated11
Profile Joined December 2011
United States32 Posts
August 23 2012 21:09 GMT
#144
This is an insanely great blog and it really made me think about my own dreams and my own life. Thanks for writing this. I hope everyone can take something useful from it.
NiKoJa
Profile Joined June 2012
26 Posts
August 23 2012 21:09 GMT
#145
Oha dude, this got very deep into me. I kinda feel like the same way right now, im 16yo and i haven't even talked to a girl face to face, i have very few friends, i barely ever see my parents and i sit here all day playing Starcraft. I feel like i'm wasting my life in some ways, but at the same time i don't like anything else, i don't like studying, i don't like partying and so on... I get sad some days when i go to bed after 16h of playing, with my eyes fucked, and thinking: what am i doing with my life? But then again, i feel like this is the only think i like to do.

Really well written and sad story sir, best wishes.
Aphasie
Profile Blog Joined February 2010
Norway474 Posts
Last Edited: 2012-08-23 21:18:45
August 23 2012 21:16 GMT
#146
Amazing blogs as always Pub!

I know exactly how you feel. I did the same fucking thing. Remember sitting day after day, night after night on the NC, NT, Namoo, Nexus channels on US West and practiced my ass off. Its one of the few times in my now 25 year long life I REALLY applied myself and tried to be the best. But being bound by the evil spell that is the Macintosh, I was unable to bind ctrl to my mouse and felt like a was playing with a disadvantage. Couple that with no one to continually train with and being mechanically mediocre (physically) I never made it. I was shattered when I realized those korean people i played against will always be better than me. (or maybe I just lost my faith?)....

Fast forward 2 years, the second curse of the Mac. Everyone migrates to PGTour from WGTour. Whoop-di-fucking-doo. I cant install the launcher and there were no one left to play with. After my half forced retirement I think Ive caught atleast 80% of all televised games from 2004-9
qwaykee
Profile Joined February 2010
Norway266 Posts
August 23 2012 21:24 GMT
#147
I know
Mr Showtime
Profile Joined April 2011
United States1353 Posts
Last Edited: 2012-08-23 21:31:54
August 23 2012 21:29 GMT
#148
Wow. This is an amazing piece of writing and it hits home HARD.

Thank you.

and thank you to motbob for posting it on r/starcraft, or else I may never have found this.
Aerisky
Profile Blog Joined May 2012
United States12129 Posts
August 23 2012 21:42 GMT
#149
Wow....what a fantastic read. I can really feel the wistfulness :/

You write really well and your emotions really hurt. Not sure where to go from here, but...well I guess I hope you find your heart again, and discover more hopes and dreams.
Jim while Johnny had had had had had had had; had had had had the better effect on the teacher.
CyKLanD
Profile Joined March 2012
Germany22 Posts
August 23 2012 21:47 GMT
#150
Amazing, just amazing.
Diplomat
Profile Joined January 2011
United States45 Posts
August 23 2012 22:11 GMT
#151
Fantastic piece, I thoroughly enjoyed reading it. Thank you very much for sharing it.
rea1ity
Profile Joined September 2010
United Kingdom385 Posts
August 23 2012 22:18 GMT
#152
Just in case you do ever try to reignite your dream, I would support you....
그 스타 크래프트의 꿈, 그 꿈 생활
MavivaM
Profile Joined November 2011
1535 Posts
August 23 2012 22:44 GMT
#153
No one EVER knows it my friend... no fucking one.
Your Opinion has been counted. Only 3 more Opinions needed for a reddit thread.
Sc2ggRise
Profile Blog Joined January 2009
United States607 Posts
August 23 2012 22:47 GMT
#154
It's never too late to do what you love.
xHadoken
Profile Blog Joined March 2012
United States171 Posts
August 23 2012 23:05 GMT
#155
This was amazing.
Defeating a sandwich only makes it tastier
Brandish
Profile Blog Joined November 2010
United States339 Posts
August 23 2012 23:06 GMT
#156
so where are you now? graduated college? do you have a job? maybe your dream isnt so far off!
renkin
Profile Joined July 2010
France249 Posts
August 23 2012 23:09 GMT
#157
Thanks for sharing but I think you're too hard on yourself.

Every kid has a dream that fades away at some point.
Starcraft may have not given you a public cheering in a starleague final, but you still gained a lot of things chasing that dream and sadly, that's not the case for everyone. You learned to be social, a skill that will be usefull all your life. I wouldn't expect someone to be good at SC2 to turn like this !

You are crying the old you, this boy who got a life thanks to starcraft. Out of respect for you and what this game gave you, keep playing and keep staying in this community.

However, if after some soul searching this dream of you doesn't fade away, you know what you have to do.
iiGreetings
Profile Joined March 2011
Canada563 Posts
August 23 2012 23:11 GMT
#158
This just blew me away read it a few times. The nostalgia is hitting you hard, had a minor form with my good ole cod4 and mohaa days... Well written dude this really hit me home.
Adapt and React I MKP, PartinG, EffOrt ♥
xO.Thunder
Profile Joined April 2012
United States37 Posts
August 23 2012 23:16 GMT
#159
This gave me chills.

It's weirdly relatable too, starting college soon...
"Do not dwell in the past, do not dream of the future, concentrate the mind on the present moment."
kc
Profile Joined August 2006
Canada212 Posts
August 23 2012 23:20 GMT
#160
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