EPTStill I get a feeling that I´m worthless at what I do. I´ve worked my ass off for almost a year now with prOperty. Trying to learn new tactics of approacing sponsors and partners, how to build a organisation from scratch. Been sleeping too little and been to bed too late too many nights to wake up to another day at my shitty job on which I spend 9 hours a day.
Am I really living the dream of managing a up and coming team? Does managing a team include a constant feeling of not doing good enough all the time? Sure as they say, if you feel satisfied then you´ve failed but still. Shouldnt I just be able to sit back and enjoy what I and the other amazing people has accomplished during these 10 months?
I just feel tired. Tired about working 9 hours a day with the same people with no dreams and no visions. Get home, have a few hours off, if you can call working with sponsorletters and such taking some time off. Get to bed and repeat that same rutine all days off the week pretty much.
Fuck it. I should not whine but hell. I miss being 9 years old without any kind responsibilty.
