EPTSo, wanting to cast games and pretty often frustrated with the lack of effort some current casters put in I decided I'll start playing again to get all my races back up to mid+ master level(I wanted a good understanding of all three races current meta game before I started to try casting). Since it had been three months since I played, and the last race I left off at was Terran and I started back up as Z it was pretty rough. Before I was masters pretty easily as T/P and now not only has the skill cap increased from 3 months passing, I was playing a new race and not aware of any popular/trending builds and meta-game.
I proceeded to play a bunch of games for three days, and I went from being auto put in to masters to dropping all the way down to platinum mostly from a bad state of mind and when losing getting mad and doing dumb all-ins that would never work. I started thinking to my self "maybe I should just not play.. people just got way better".
Here comes the weird part.. the next day I bought a new futon and my sister was the only one around that day to try and help me get it in my place. It's pretty heavy but she says she can handle it, so we start lifting it and get it to my hallway and we get stuck. Now being the rude and arrogant/condescending person I told her it was stuck in a spot where we can't get it out with out a guy friend of mine, and she kept telling me all these ideas to get it un-stuck and I kept saying that won't work.. thinking surely if I can't think of a way she can't.
Well, I walked away and she kept sitting there trying to get it unstuck. Sure enough.. 2 hours later she comes in and says "look, I told you I could do it" and I could not believe it, she had wedged it into a spot where we could get it through the hall-way into my room. I can tell you I felt pretty dumb, rude, and.. dumb.
For some reason that really set something off in my mind. I gave up myself trying to get it unstuck and considered her attempts worthless as she would never find a way since I couldn't.. but with her hard work for 2 hours straight trying to get it she did it. It really hit me how much not giving up meant and how hard work can pay off for some reason.
The next three weeks, I spent a few hours of each day laddering and watching Korean vods in an attempt to understand Zerg and their reasoning behind certain choices in builds so I don't blindly do stupid stuff, and then practicing the builds and watching the replay when I lost to see what sort of things I missed that could have prevented my loss. I did this with as little care about my ladder rank or losses as possible, only seen them as a chance to improve.
In three weeks I managed to go from mid-plat back to my old self of mid-high masters(900 pts currently). I then switched to Terran for a bunch of games, sat around 900 pts masters again.. then to protoss a bunch of games 900 pts masters as well. It's at this point I realized the reason for me being so bad had almost nothing to do with others getting better, and almost every thing to do with me beating my self. I'm still doing well in SC2 today and plan to try and cast some kind of show match or something soon.
Guess it ended up being longer than I thought, oh well. Thanks for reading if you made it.
