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I knew it was coming since November when they changed the hardware. Hell, everyone knew it was coming with players confirming that they were playing SC2. Was I not mentally prepared for the official delivery of the news, or am I still sad from the initial days where I encountered the rumor and could not believe what I've just read on fomos?
Despite what it is, and despite my satisfaction for Korean e-Sports (Yes, I'm quite happy that everyone came together and worked on this: Good for e-Sports scene in general), I felt sad. I wasn't mad or angry that they weren't going to play BW anymore, but I was quite sad. And for few minutes before I turned on the stream yesterday, I just stared at my monitor, without any thoughts, and read through the Q&A messages to confirm everything. While reading through the tweets, my heart started feeling very empty. It feels like someone punched a hole through my heart, and I can feel the hole, the air breezing through my heart, yet I couldn't feel the pain at all, only its emptiness.
Did I try to follow Pro-Korean scene too much? Did I care too much about BW back in 2009 when I started following the Korean scene, started translating for Proleague matches and articles, and started to show interest in casting earlier this year? All of these questions came into my mind when I knew that Pro-BW was going to end soon. I've enjoyed streaming BW/SC2 and interacting with many people on my stream. I have enjoyed translating and casting games, because while I was able to entertain others, I was able to relieve my stress from school and life through BW. It was my way for me to get away from society and just have fun for few minutes, or hours, a day.
Maybe I'm afraid that I can't translate/cast/stream and gain as much viewers as I had in BW in the near future, when some have told me that they're either moving onto SC2 and/or leaving TL because BW is pretty much dead. Or maybe I'm still angry about the fact that players are being forced to transition from one game to another due to sponsorship issues, without the player's will. Whatever it is, it doesn't make me feel good.
Don't get me wrong; I like both games and I support both scenes. I like one game over the other, but that doesn't mean that I should be limited to following one scene only while bashing the other. I would really want to see a community come together for once, and maybe that's why I've been streaming more SC2 lately: to expose some BW people to SC2, and vice versa (to show BW games to SC2 fans). But with pro-scene gone, I don't know how much I can contribute to the scene.
Yes, I still want to contribute. Whether it is translations, casting (though I need to work a lot on that), or just explaining the difference of BW and SC2, and how one game compares to the other. But with so many people out there, maybe I'm just scared that my name supernovamaniac won't be as notable as others who are already contributing a lot to SC2 scene.
Whatever it is, BW was something that I can use to have fun while entertaining others who followed the scene: something that I really wanted to do since high school. It was a good run. Is it the end? I can't say for certain cause I'm still playing BW and I still love the game. But after reading the news, I just couldn't help it but to feel sad about the situation. It was good 3 years, and hopefully I can attend OSL finals live this year. But if this is truly the last BW OSL, then I better prepare myself before I say "farewell, Korean Pro-BW scene".
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you're not alone about that feeling and i'm sure your colorful personality and engaging passion will translate well into the sc2 scene if bw truly is going to die out completely (yea i'm still in denial  )
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*hug*
My thoughts as well...although I didn't follow for as long nor did i contribute to the community in the way you did.
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BROOOOOOODDD WAAAAARRRR!!!
I know how you feel. Yet, I don't think it's the end. When I watch very good amateur Koreans, and when I play on the ladder myself, I just can't believe that this game could ever end. It is too good. One day pro BW will be back and we'll all have grey hair watching MSL 2052.
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Brood war will never die as long as we carry it in our hearts, and there are replays and one bw server still up. But i know what you mean, it just feels bad. I have adapted to sc2 more than most bw fans, but i must say it is just not the same, and will never be. And in my opinion, the osl ended with Jang bi Fantasy. This osl doesn't count if they are only practicing bw part of the time. But thanks for casting this quasi osl, it is better than nothing( the osl wannabe, not your casting, your casting is cool).
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I'm also planning to attend the OSL finals. Regardless of whether or not this truly is the last OSL, it certainly feels that way and after not being able to attend the very last Proleague finals, I don't think I'd be able to forgive myself if I missed Starleague's last run. I probably won't even care if the games turn out to be sub-par. (well maybe just a little :p)
Here's to Brood War, a game that in all likely hood I'll never stop playing until my fingers give out. lol
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On May 03 2012 08:09 Chef wrote:
BROOOOOOODDD WAAAAARRRR!!!
I know how you feel. Yet, I don't think it's the end. When I watch very good amateur Koreans, and when I play on the ladder myself, I just can't believe that this game could ever end. It is too good. One day pro BW will be back and we'll all have grey hair watching MSL 2052.
Chef always the resident Optimist Prime!
Just follow what you love and screw what the current trends are, if something new catches your eye so be it. You are not obligated to do anything with either community, just do what you enjoy, and that which feels the most rewarding. Enjoy the game, not what will be or what won't be.
Regardless, it is always nice to have at least one person streaming PL so we can have TL chat :D
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On May 03 2012 11:16 Chimpalimp wrote:Show nested quote +On May 03 2012 08:09 Chef wrote:
BROOOOOOODDD WAAAAARRRR!!!
I know how you feel. Yet, I don't think it's the end. When I watch very good amateur Koreans, and when I play on the ladder myself, I just can't believe that this game could ever end. It is too good. One day pro BW will be back and we'll all have grey hair watching MSL 2052. Chef always the resident Optimist Prime! Just follow what you love and screw what the current trends are, if something new catches your eye so be it. You are not obligated to do anything with either community, just do what you enjoy, and that which feels the most rewarding. Enjoy the game, not what will be or what won't be. Regardless, it is always nice to have at least one person streaming PL so we can have TL chat :D
Will there be still people supporting my cause if I played BW 10 years from now?
I hate thinking realistically, but now I am.
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Thinking realistically is what gets most people into trouble because instead of realistic they just become pessimistic :o Self-fulfilling prophecies and all that jazz.
Realistically yeah I think there's a very good chance there will still be a a lot of good players in 10 years. Everything else is impossible to predict. As long as there's good players tho, there's still a good reason to play. The most humbling experience you can have right now is just to forget about what is happening in Korea, log on iCCup, and see how many people are still better than you at all times of the day. Everything is a cake walk until you hit that magical rank where you start losing and realise this game still means a lot to a lot of people to get this good at it. That's what originally attracted me to 1v1 BW, and it's what attracts me again today
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I think the last bit of bitterness comes from my interpretation (could be shared with others) that the "inevitable" end of BW scene came in a dramatic downward spiral caused by the ill intentions of a few individuals.
It's like watching a great old man of many accomplishments die due to injury complications after getting hit by an impaired driver. Sure, we all knew that even a great man has to die of old age, but we expected him to naturally fade away from old age and natural causes. We wanted to know when his health started degrading, people would visit him at his hospital bed, paying tribute and dropping off get-well cards. There would be news about him, and people would genuinely worry about him. When he finally passes away, there would be a proper funeral, memorial services, and a natural transition where people look for a new worthy figure to follow. Instead, as soon as the great old man was hospitalized, a dashing new young figure came along and declared himself to be his rightful heir. A fine young fellow, but an arrogant one indeed, who claimed himself the throne instead of earning it.
The great old man is expected to die in a few months. There are many that have already forgotten his great accomplishments, but we are the few that remember. We will remember it forever. When the new guy does the great things that the great old man used to do, we'll cheer for him - it's for the good of the community, and plus, he's probably not so bad anyway. However, when the great old man passes away, we will be there to commemorate and celebrate the culture he started, defined, refined, and loved: + Show Spoiler +
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